>be me, autistic/traumatized/strange, incapable of most human attachment>meet fellow neet fuck up, figure ill give dating a try >realize quickly im incapable of actually loving him (or anyone, i already knew this i just for some reason thought romantic love would be an exception)>still enjoy his company and getting fucked>fast forward years later>hes made huge life changes to self improve and "deserve me more">seems far happier than when we met>he is talking about marrying me and getting me pregnant>i still know that if we broke up in a week i would forget about him completely/replace him easily>if we broke up he might genuinely kill himself should i let this continue? im not opposed to the idea of getting married and i seem to be very good for him, plus this might be my best shot at a good life. but it feels bad to commit so much when i am definitely not "in love" the way youre supposed to be, and things are clearly so unequal. i did not expect this to last so long frankly. does it actually matter if i love him? or is liking him and making each others lives better enough?
Would you not be more interested in sorting out your intimacy issues?
He needs to have balls anyway. I wouldn't fret on it so much. He'll find someone else just as good.
>>34573607Low tier bait to piss off niggers like me.But I'll bite: stay with him until you die, don't break man's heart. Thank you and I don't want to listen to you further you malicious disgusting creature
>>34573652I don't believe these are issues that can be fixed. I love him as much as I can love anyone, I love him more than my parents. I just can't love anyone all that much. It makes me laugh that I used to write bait posts on places like this for fun all the time and when I write about my real life I get far more responses calling me a liar. What a silly life I lead. It makes me sad that I have to live like this, it's ridiculous, but what is else can I do? I used to think I should seclude myself to avoid hurting people but I don't have the willpower. Then I thought just telling people what I'm like when I met them was the answer but that does not work, they believe what they want to believe. I don't want to be living this life either but I guess I have to. I can't make myself kill myself
>>34573607>or is liking him and making each others lives better enough?that's literally what love is, though. ignore all the stupid disney fantasy media versions of "love" that aren't real and are more akin to short lived infatuation than real love. you make each others lives better, that's all you need, because anything else you get will be worse shortly after the better phase, i promise you.
>>34573607If you admittedly have issues with attachment and human emotion, do you not think the issue would compound with breaking up and finding somebody else? If you feel this way with the current guy, you'll probably feel the same with another guy. Maybe be open and honest with him, that you struggle with emotion and intimacy and want to slow down. If he cares, he'll understand, and want to work through them with you
>>34573607Couples therapy is a thing anon.
