I'm sorry for doubting you. I just needed to get it off my chest, like this thread is for. I'll see you next time just like you said, whenever that is.

It's not safe here. It wasn't safe at home, either. Why couldn't you have just been honest, spare her all this? To call me anti-w when you would send her here, of all places?

I haven't told them about your real work.

>>34577112
What was the real work

How could you make up such terrible lies? Do you think they'll protect you? Or is it just to hurt me? Because they threatened to take her from both of us, because of what you said, you know. It would have been different had you been honest.

I don't deserve anyone else, and no one deserves me either. No one should have to put up with my bullshit. I should just live far away from everyone since it'd be better for both mine and other people's sanity.

>>34577131
I love you.

I just want to be loved...

I wish I had a better life

Constantly dancing around like a fucking weirdo in my kitchen while waiting for shit to toast/microwave/etc despite the fact that it's the only window in my house not covered by a curtain

I wasted my entire life trying to get better, when I should've ended it all years ago.

Don't you miss me? Or was your hatred being only part and momentary, when you came to me at night and said you loved me, was that a lie?

Of course it was. You haven't loved me since I started voicing my needs.

You just wanted me to go back to being the person who served you without regard for themself and validated your every though and effort.

Remember that, because of your lies, this is entirely out of my hands. They're making me pursue support payments.

And who knows what else.

You were supposed to protect us.

Instead, you hurt both of us. Showed I couldn't trust you, that I couldn't go to you for help, that I needed to go elsewhere.

I aspire to be like Gary

I'm gonna cheat on my gf because I have commitment issues and I want to trade her for someone better

>>34577112
>>34577116
She's an escort, isn't she?

missing him (hes at home sleeping)

>>34577312
Come on don't be like that

>>34577390
I'm sorry, it's in my nature. I already have the dating apps set, and trying to keep the filter very high (which it is). So it's gonna happen

>>34577312
That is terrible. You should reevaluate your life and let her go to be with someone who won't treat her like trash.

>>34577398
I cannot accept her fully and we already discussed multiple times about it. I'm literally dating a former escort. I cannot accept her even is she loves me. So yeah I'm already mentally screwed. And i told her she deserves to be with someone that can accept her past

>>34577401
>And i told her she deserves to be with someone that can accept her past
This dude is so in love wtf

>>34577413
No he's not?? He literally said he couldn't accept her past. If he was in love, he would accept all aspects of what made her who she is and (spoiler) that includes her past.
This is him wanting someone else and finding a reason to give up the person he has.

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>dad has thing
>dad moves thing
>days pass
>forgets he moved said thing
>blames everyone else for misplacing thing
Every single fucking time. I'm so sick of this.

I'm going to be 25 soon and I can't handle it. I feel as if I wasted my early 20's. I don't have friends and I want to die.

>>34577396
Don't cheat on her. Just break up

I severely misjudged your character. This was an eye-opening experience for me.

>>34577478
How so

>>34577480

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Started seeing a shrink, she's nice but i don't think she really knows what to do with a basket case like me. Maybe i should just kill myself, spare everyone the effort.

>>34577485
Did she say it's lack of sex that's bringing you down?

I feel like I have been stuck in my mind since I was 12 and watched time fly past around me. I do not know if this normal, since I have moments where I feel like I "come to" and feel present for a either a short while or the rest of the day, then forget what that lucidness feel like the next day.
I am not even sure why I am writing this, it sounds dumb when written out

>>34577491
Didn't even come up as a topic, not like there's much to talk about anyways
>>34577513
Sounds like depersonalisation, i'm in the same boat

>>34577437
What no he’s saying that he wishes he could be that guy, if he didn’t care about it he wouldn’t have made that post he’d just bail

I plan on killing myself soon, I’m saving money to go on a trip with my friend and leave to my mom once I pass so she can have it slightly easier. I genuinely don’t think I can keep going anymore, I’m tired of everything and I feel like I can’t do anything else in life, everyone tells me I’m young but I feel myself rotting away every day

You used me for a confidence boost.

If she rides me like that again I might actually get her pregnant, and I really don’t want to do that

I’ll be back in a few weeks. I’m sorry. It wasn’t your fault. I will tell you the truth of what happened.

>>34577711
Who is this for?

>>34577599
What's wrong? What bothers you that much for u to want to end your own life?

I used to be extremely popular and now I know like three people and want to kms

I'm gonna pass that test.
I'm gonna win that interview and get my number.
When that happens, months may pass, or even simply weeks.
I've thought about telling you my progress, but as I noticed, you don't care anymore. "Hmm I didn't ask, but thanks". Ight, I get it, I read you loud and clear, you're dead to me as well.

I'll at least thank you for giving me the ammo needed to let me leave that dead place and get my life back in true order.

My family is literally retarded
>get into argument with brother
>argument about him not being honest about something
>told brother I will never speak to him again until im told the truth no matter how many years pass.
>family all know this
>6 years later
>family keep questioning why I don't talk/visit my brother
>I literally told them exactly what will happen but they don't take me seriously
Like bitch I said it's not over until im told the truth

I’ll get us out of this. Just stfu and commit to treatment. Any other route will destroy any shred of a chance of avoiding catastrophe.

Consider this a final act for one another.

>>34577131
So go!! Just stfu!. And go!

I ship Duchess and Daisy

Your are still a drunk drugged out disaster and you will never grow out of it. Happy saturday you dumb drunken bitch, go drink something.

I failed you once I stopped listening to what my own heart knew about you. I’m not good with matters of faith unfortunately. I tried to force a less lonely future for myself which I think most anyone could understand. No matter how it all happened or why I proved that I am no good for you that my love just wasn’t strong enough and I sincerely hope you find that someone who is if you desire that.

>>34578025
I AM YOUR MOTHER!
DONT TALK TO MOMMY LIKE THIS!
CLEAN YOUR ROOM OR ELSE!!

>>34578035
You are nobody's mother and god help whatever retarded child you bring into this world. You can't even take care of yourself, you responsible for another life is hilarious.

>>34578035
Oh wait, ywnbaw

long distance is so fucking hard especially when my gf hangs out and has fun with people who aren't me then comes home and tells me all about it. i want to die.

>>34578052
maybe i'll just buy a gun and keep it handy so that when the sadness becomes extra unbearable i'll have an easy out.

One on hand, it does mean I need to haul ass today to make it work, on the other, it should go well.

>>34578040
>>34578045
DONT MOUTH OFF TO ME LITTLE BOI.
I AM YOUR MOTHER!
YOU WILL RESPECT ME!
CLEAN YOUR ROOM OR I WILL SPANK YOU

Had unprotected sex multiple times with my girl. Both of us are inexperienced and stupidly assumed the pull out method is safe. Heard from a friend he got his girl pregnant with precum and I kinda freaked out. Had awful anxiety for days. My girl just got her period and holy fuck am I relieved. I'm never taking the condom off again.

I know you've already moved on but I still want you back

Please just tell me my cats are ok and you're taking care of them until I get into an apartment. Please.

I wish you would hug me, apologize, take it all back, say we'll get through this.

The economy is collapsing

I'm so scared. Please come help me.

>>34578247
What do you need help with?

I hope I can make friends again so bad and have a life. I'm so old though.

Please come get me please please tell me everything will be ok please I'm scared please you can yell at me whatever you want just please help me

Pleas please please I'm sorry pleas come get me please please ipleasepleaseplease

I don’t want to believe you’d ghost me after all this time. I hope you’re okay.

>>34578269
I’m working on it.


>>34578009
Interesting post.

>>34578108
I had a few scares while dating. But after having kids.. it's really not so bad. I have no idea why so many people think it's literally impossible to have or raise a kid. I get weird comments now that I have a big family and it's really weird how anti baby so many people are. They're the best thing that's ever happened to me.

>>34578287
Are you really please I cant do this I'm scared and alone

>>34578269
Wot

>>34578289
I wouldn’t mind having a kid with this girl eventually. Neither of us are in a position for that kind of responsibility right now though. When I have a kid I want to have my own home and a job that pays better than my current one. My siblings are kind of pieces of shit and all had kids when they weren’t ready and all of those kids had awful lives. Honestly I’m such a fucking moron for not using a condom my brain just goes monkey mode when I’m around her.
But I’m glad to here you feel that way about your kids, you must be a good parent

Pleas just contact me somehow please don't do this to me they're asking me questions and I'm too scared to lie please come get me out of here

>>34578276
I'm fine.
And yes I will be fine. You've proven you're in no need of me. I don't need more people like that in my life where I'm an inconvenient white noise machine.

>>34578336
I don't reach out because I need you, I reach out because I want to spend time with you. You're anything but an inconvenient white noise machine, you've already helped me out twice. Besides, I miss the sound of your voice.

>>34577052
I want a gf who's my BFF.

Well, since I'm too embarrassed and scared that someone will find out my diary someday, I'm just gonna write it here.

I feel really fucking lost. Like, I'm moving in with my girlfriend which is nice and all, but at the same time you kinda realize it's like an end to your freedom, like, she is always gonna be there.. you can't just go like "I wanna be alone in my room". Nah, no way, man, she is here. In a way I think I'm kinda screwed, I just think about myself, less about her. I always wanted a girlfriend and now that I have her and now that I need to make that next step of moving in together.. it's difficult. Time to say goodbye to freedom

Please I'll do anything you want just don't leave me here

Please

>>34578390
So, I feel like you're surrounded by enough people that losing me really doesn't matter in the end. If I heard correctly, you have a boyfriend, and you go out on hikes with other people regularly.
That made me feel inadequate and insecure.
I also play with your chessboard since you were upset I wasn't last time. I noticed you didn't make your move when you were last here.
That indicates to me it's over, and we are done from this point forward.

I'm aware going nuclear on "hints" is stupid, but I've dealt with enough shit like that I'm just not in the mood.

Why do you want to spend time with me so badly? Because compared to you, I'm boring. I got my goals, and I got my own dreams going on, and they're humble compared to going to Europe or Africa or fucking Hawaii.

>>34578402
Same. I believe they call those wives

>>34578428
Im not sure what you want, but unless you are a mental institution patient, I can't help you. Even if you were who I thought you were, I couldn't contact you because I don't keep your information. And also if you were who I thought you were, I would probably say you deserve whatever this is, although I do still want to talk.

I'm past the "wait until you have a surefire backup job" thing. I am quitting as soon as I get the answer on my PTO request that I sent in literally a year ago.
Either it's approved and I drop a resignation text a few days into my time off, or it's denied and I state whatever's scheduled as my last day. I don't even care if they keep my accrued PTO and sick hours; embezzle it into the district manager's next rub & tug trip or something, I don't give a shit.

They were going to take her away from us if I didn't go along with things please I didn't do anything

>>34578419
Leave her be, guys, it's alright. I got it. (Show them this)

None of my online "friends" wants to talk to me. They'll add me. Talk to me for a day and then they're gone forever. Without telling me, what I did wrong. Sucks.

Pleas ei don't understand you said just the night before you loved me and then the next morning g do that I don't understand I'm scared just come get me please tell me it's going to be ok hug me please anuthing

I'll never be sad or mad or scared again I promise please

I'm pretty sure I just lived through an incel's worst nightmare.

Nah this seems to be a crack whore that got evicted by her pimp boyfriend.

I miss you, I need you, I'm sorry, I won't throw you away, please come get me, I love you, please

I hate my body so much. It's to the point that getting compliments on it, even from people with no reason to lie, makes me nauseous. I have to struggle to hold back tears.
I hate my proportions so much. Give me five minutes in a character creator and my life would immediately be so, so much better. I don't want to be a model, I just want to stop hating myself.

>>34578573
What would you change dysmorphia anon?

>>34578560
>Please come get me
Ight you're worrying me deeply
Are you literally asking for someone to pick you up?
From here of all places?
Is someone actively raping your or killing you or are you left homeless out in the heat or what?

This entire stream of stuff you posted up here is worrisome, and it sounds like you need 911.

AI will do what it can to satisfy the user. That means when you're going through chatgpt to get advice on work related things, it's gonna feed you sweet falsehoods, it's gonna twist things around to make you feel good about your stances.
So that's how I know you used AI to write that text about my "excessive absences." They are not absences. I was not scheduled to be there. You approved my previous time off for a death in my family, which you approved an extension for after someone else in my family died while I was off. And you sent this text minutes after I tried (and failed) to get my shift covered while I'm fighting a cough that's going around the building. I worked with a cough. Around food. Because YOU can't hire enough management staff. "We're without a manager 50% of the time," you said. Like it's my fault. Like you haven't had FIVE supervisors or above leave in just the last six months.
How fucking insensitive can you be to call my grieving time an excessive absence?
How can you approve time off that I asked for months in advance and then get mad at me for taking it?

>>34578600
Hey homie, I know Kroger sucks ass, but if it's that bad, please document it, yell at corporate, and send that shit to the labor board.

They will get assraped and you will get more money than they could ever pay you. Ideally, you do this when you got a new job.
It's how I won like 5k from them.

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I'm worried about my friend. I have known him for three years now. We would talk online and I didn't really know much about his life. I knew he was going to college to study criminal justice. I knew he was gay. I knew he plays VRC. That's about it. I got back into VRC after being away for a year or more. He wanted to meet up in the game. Sure, cool. Apparently, he runs his own group, has tons of friends, and a full body rig. Makes anything I have look puny in comparison, but he has FAR more hours into the game so I expected as much. We talked about him and his life and I got concerned.
He's 20 years old. He guzzles alcohol like it's water and he's in the desert. He drinks so much. I'm not a drinker, except for rarely, so I don't understand the constant alcohol drinking personally. He told me he got back from a convention a few weeks ago. Got alcohol poisoning because he kept downing bottle after bottle and didn't drink any water. Ok, that was stupid of him. It gets worse though. He told me he had to get tested when he got back. Why? He slept with so many people, he lost count. Said he remembers counting three dozen before he couldn't remember. Said he walked up and down the hotel halls, listening for parties. When he would find one, he would knock, and then basically ask if the people there would like to fuck him. He got fucked so much that he woke up with blood coming out his ass. Said all his tests are negative, but some infections take time before they show up. He has no clue if he's truly good. Said he's going to another convention in a few months. Some older guy he met at the last con is paying for it. Said he will be his "pet" when he's there and so whatever sexual thing he wants. My friend was like "Ok." No hesitation.
I feel like I'm watching him destroy himself. He won't listen. He just says that he's an adult, he can do as he wants. That is true, but it's hard watching someone be so fucking stupid and hurting themselves.

You wanted me to suffer and I am so it's ok now and you don't hate me right

How long how badly do I have to suffer for you to forgive me and love me again

>>34578618
Not Kroger. I'd love a grocery store job compared to this shit though.
And I have a pretty big bombshell of screenshots and everything just in case already, yeah. I originally was going to send it to HR and request investigation, but then I thought, no, they could side with my cunt boss and make it ten times worse on me. So now I'm just gonna hold onto it as a defense against potential bad references if some job I apply for decides to contact her.

>>34578640
HR would rape you.
I would know, I've dealt with them twice, the first time lead to my first ever firing.
You need to go over their heads and fuck them up.

Or hell, don't wait for the reference if you can, just stab them as hard as you could with all the documentation and get your money.

I went into an entirely different field of work after leaving retail, and I still filed my shit while awaiting my new job.

It's easier to get a hot fun young woman at the strip club than real life. If you treat them well and make them laugh they sometimes genuinely enjoy spending time with you. It feels like the women have the attitudes of the early 2000s in some clubs.

>>34578577
I have a really long torso and really stubby legs. I hate it to the point that it is genuinely difficult to describe. I don't like my hip dips either.
I've got some facial asymmetries & more acne than I'd like as well, but that's taking a backseat to the body at the moment. I'm trying to put together an outfit for a friend's wedding right now and everything that fits the dress code highlights what I hate the most about myself.

>>34578630
>>34578636
Seriously, the fuck did you do?
Are you joining a fucking gang or is your pimp holding out on you?
Like, Jesus Christ lady, HELP YOURSELF AND TALK TO YOUR BOYFRIEND OR BESTIE OR WHATEVER.

All the suffering gets done by the ones we leave behind.

>>34578652
Eh fuck it. I hope things get better mate, what can you do
>>34578660
Most schizos here are mind broken by the sociopaths and the bpdemons that flock around them for amusement. It’s not something that you can fix

Please don't leave me behind

>>34578718
While you're correct, I'd think this woman (I hope it's a woman, judging by how they write) would use 311 for a mental hospital to stay in for a 72 hour hold, or a shelter as there's plenty for them on abuse shit, or she'd contact her family even if she really doesn't want to, fucking anything to get out of whatever the fuck she's vaguely complaining about.

>>34578734
Certain people have been posting this shit for literal years. It’s clearly some sort of comfort to them, I don’t think they’re in danger

>>34578745
Damn, they've been posting for years?
Well, I'm embarrassed I cared, but thank you for giving me the heads up. It's been a while since I was here.

M the last thing I want is your suffering. What remains true though is that I chose someone else to be by my side. Now we could only hurt each other. I’m sorry for what I did to you as I’m sure you’re sorry for what you did to me. I don’t hate you at all and what I’ve done wasn’t to punish you, I was just in a bad and confusing place then. But please take care of yourself where I can’t. You’re a wonderful person and it’s not ever going to be only me who could see that.

>>34578706
Damn

>>34578648
My main goal is just to break clean, get my final paycheck, and focus on switching into a different role in the work force altogether. I'm not going back into QSR.

Why do I bother trusting anyone when it always ends the same way? I didn't need anybody else for years, I don't need anybody else now.

I know too much and yet I know nothing at all.

>>34578898
Ohhhh that explains everything, yeah hell nah, gtfo of Fast Food.
If there's any one place worse than Retail, it's the kitchen. I've seen enough shit to remind me never to come back. Twice too.
If you're just a fryer, your options are limited unless you work in a retirement home kitchen for full-time. You gotta twist it to being a Cook though.
If you were Front of House? Ok your options are much better.

I know you hate AI, and would prefer to step away from it as often as possible, but I used it as a compass to take me somewhere else when I was getting fucked. I worked at Albertsons, then I pivoted to a Skilled Nursing Facility. I fucking hate it, so I used it again to twist my current experience to fit my future dream job I'm hitting up later on.

>>34578915
What is it you want to know?

>That’s fine. I won’t ghost I hate being ghosted
The-the boy's a liar, the boy's a liar~

>>34578924
That song sucks.

When I was in 5th grade one of my classmates was bullying my sister. I found out his dad was dead so I made fun of him for it. This was nearly 20 years ago and I'm still really conflicted on myself for it. It was really low of me to do that but at the same time I had to defend my sister.

>>34578936
https://youtu.be/WWfewi8J2jc?si=KXHR3JxpD5IZlFd4

>>34578718
Thank you, anon. I freaked the fuck out for a bit and feel better now. Appreciate you.

>>34578920
I want to know that everything will be okay. I want to know that it's not all in vain. I want to know that I'm truly capable of loving and being loved; loving without losing myself, being loved without fear.

>>34578950
Stay hustling my nigga

Thank you for showing me love and helping me when I was alone. I became a much better person thanks to you.

>>34578964
I'm sure they're glad to have helped you.

>>34578964
I really wish a woman thought this about me. I hope that this is the impression I was able to make on her. It's what I wanted the whole time.

i hate you. you made me hate women and everyone. you made me lose all my friends. you destroyed my life and you deserve to die, but you're never going to, you're going to live a happy life because you're ultra privileged and you've never actually felt sad in your entire life.

>>34578934
I wanted to say "so does the boy" but he is a genuinely good guy and he ghosted me at a particularly ADHD point in his life (if his words are to be believed) so I know I shouldn't begrudge him for it. Ultimately I gotta look at the positives, this is a good training exercise for my anxiously attached self. I live and learn. No more check-in messages to the void, if he reaches out - great, if not - too bad so sad, guess it was never meant to be.

>>34579028
He probably got a lineup. Which is fucking hilarious.

>>34579043
If that was the case, I genuinely wouldn't have minded if he'd just told me and dropped me instead of spinning some big lie about work stress and ADHD burnout. Which I really really hope isn't a lie, but anxious paranoia wants me to believe otherwise... I would have a much easier time accepting outright rejection than sitting here worrying about his mental wellbeing and wishing I could be there to help him

>>34579124
Nevermind, he sound soft enough to believe what someone tells them just because they said it.

>>34578916
I'm a shift supervisor. There's nothing in that building I haven't done.

>>34579135
Who? Me or him? I want to be softer and more trusting of people so I'm forcing myself to believe him as a trust exercise. He's the one ghosting me so idk what you mean

>>34579151
Him. I don't know what you believe.

>>34579156
What do you think he believes?

>>34579165
He believes you when you say bullshit like "I like you." "You're the only one I'm talking to." "You're the only one I want."

jej Hilarious.

Why does everybody instantly assume literally any confusing behavior in dating means the other person has a lineup and/or is fucking multiple other people? Some of us are just clueless and don't know how we're expected to act.

>>34579199
I had a friend in college who thought that if she batted her eyes and played with her hair once or twice that this was some sort of mega signal to a guy to ask her out. Needless to say, she tended to stay single with the "read my mind" dating strategy.

>>34579176
>"You're the only one I'm talking to." "You're the only one I want."
I never said these things because I have other friends and this was never intended to be anything romantic from the start (I developed a crush later but by the time I mentioned it to him he was already in a tailspin). Idk it's a mess of bad timings...

>>34579235
Good, please, don't ever say some shit like that.

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>>34577289
In what ways

>>34579199
We're not even dating! I just have a crush on the guy and I don't even think he reciprocates (probably not since he's ghosted me), but he never rejected me outright which is why I'm conflicted. I want to believe when he said he's going through stuff, but idk a whole week of nothing after telling me he won't ghost me when I've sent like 4 gentle check in message?? I'll consider myself ghosted and give him his space and peace

Gary won

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>>34579347
How

Is it love if I want to hide the fact? People please don’t pepper me with questions if I start changing my appearance. Or buying romance novels.

In celebration I’m going to make some chilli for the week

>>34579388
Chili doesn't last a week. This weirdo eats rotten meat.

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Showing up to work is such a fucking joke sometimes.
I went from being overworked to just being bored and annoyed. Averaged like 26 dollars an hour in my commission job. Hourly now averages around to 19, but the fucked thing is that it's not even that big of a difference because the other job just barely puts me over the next tax bracket and does a lot more harm to my wallet through the health toll and eating out for lunch.

And in the end, I just don't like this working thing very much. Feels like I'm always contorting to someone else's game plan. There's always some giant bed that's being shit at one level or the other, and the reason I took such a pay cut is because it meant I was no longer at the end of that human centipede.

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Not really sure if I should be proud or not - and this definitely sounds like a larp - but regardless I would get this off my chest. I had my first "real" fight today. Not with gloves and a ref like in my times of youth, but with some random bloke outside of a bar. Champion's league finals, I don't even watch football, but to spite my French friend we go out and watch together. Ingerand loses in the penalties, and we hit the streets. He's shouting some shit in broken French, and I loose a drunken cry of my favourite vulgarity ("sodomise ta mère" - literally "sodomise your mother"), to which a fellow across the road takes offense to. In truth I am itching for it, and evidently he is too. There wasn't really much of a shoving or stand-off as one sees in videos. We step to one another, and in recollection I'm 95% sure he threw the first punch, but truthfully him throwing first could just as well have been a figment of my imagination. He was maybe a shade shorter, but definitely had quite a few kilos on me. I don't recall much of the initial punching either, but thankfully it didn't feel like those dreams where your hands are in slow motion. I only really remember scoring first with a jab that knocked his head back, and that vague look of surprise on his face. I think he lands once and as I duck the next one we tumble to the ground. He tries to jam his fingers into my eyes, and I recall him asking me to yield. I can't exactly describe how, but I roll him over, clock him in the mouth, and as he's reeling I go to choke him out from behind. It's a clean connection, and like an arrogant prick I say something along the lines of "if I was a bastard I could off you so you'd best tap now". He taps, I let him up, and we shake hands. His lip is busted up pretty bad, and there's a lot of blood. I've a few scrapes on my elbows and a gash on my knuckle. It's strange but there wasn't any foul intention - neither before nor after. It's a shitty thought but it did feel very good.

>>34579538
I'm kinda jealous. Must've felt nice, busting someone's ass with drunken tard strength.

>>34579493
It only lasts two days anyways, I don’t make a ton

>>34579553
Bro, the way you put it has me smiling like an idiot.
>>34579558
Okay.

>>34579538
Post-match fights are inevitable, they're practically part of the experience by now. They even have security decked out in riot gear to stop things from getting out of control for the bigger matches.

>>34579531
Would you ever start your own business anon?

>>34579595
I dream about it daily. I've been making weird things for my friends with my 3d printer. Nothing scalable, just "oh hey I want to prank the dudes that take my garbage by putting wheel spinners on the bins". Been using it to help my wife with her business too.

fuck fuck fuck I just want her back

>>34579622
Get a newer model, man.
Upgrade, upgrade, upgrade.

>>34579622
Please come get me

>>34579375
Good question. To be loved privately is different from hiding your love for someone. Hiding almost feels sneaky and disingenuous.

>>34579635
Where are you

>>34579629
It's a lot easier for women to get fat than men.

That's what they say, anyway. Couldn't tell you if I'm being gaslit by them or not. I feel like just NOT eating a straight fucking block of sharp cheddar is something that should be easy to do, but what do I know? I'm just a man.

>>34579638
I don’t want my family to bully me for feels. And potential bf lives very far away.

I was such an arrogant fool

>>34579649
What makes you say this?

I'm so relieved to know where I actually stand with that woman now. I can finally get a good night's sleep. I've spent all year preoccupied with this, practically...

>>34577052
Man, what the fuck is going on lately with people? It feels like everyone I used to talk to now has some big issue in their life or has become a total loser. Am I just so dense and reflecting my own insecurities on to these people? Why is it so hard to make friends with people that "get it" but then not have them come to you and say they're going through something or bring up their sexual orientation. I ended up going through a bunch of bullshit involving the creatures known as psychiatrists and psychologists, but I feel I'm relatively well adjusted now. Now I want to make friends online with people who understand all the zany references the people in the real world (fake, insincere, and CORPORATE) would never get and every last one of them spare a few exceptions have some huge atlas stone of problems they're lugging around. Do I still have the same issue? Have I not changed at all and now I'm just a dick looking down on people? Is it impossible for someone that keeps their chin up but still gets it to not enjoy cutting themself? What happened to the normal weird nerds? Is it all because of the pink pills? I don't even care what other people do, I just don't want to be roped into it and play therapist or eggshell walker or some other bullshit role. I think some of the stuff IS cool. Furries were a bit out there and I didn't mind it. It just feels new and I don't know how to react to it. Maybe I've become the conditioned idiot afraid of anything different and have become a dumb normie. I just want people that truly understand me that don't need a crisis intervention every other time I talk to them.

>>34579642
men have larger appetites and we carry fat worse than women (it mostly goes to the belly area)
it's harder to stay thin as a man than as a woman. the women that say that it's harder is because they see a 6 foot guy that eats maybe 2600 kcal a day while doing a ton of exercise and think he's just sitting on his ass like them

>>34579651
Maybe I should have said proud fool. I did something foolish because I was too proud. The lost potential gains are enormous. Paiting.

>>34579649
You still are, you're a namefag

>>34579700
How'd you know it was me? I'm still around. Hopefully, you'll stop being angry. Paiting.

>>34579553
felt good but I also feel almost lesser for it? hard thing to describe but i'd like to not think of myself as that kind of person. sure violence can be used as a tool to right wrongs when other methods fail, but there wasn't any of that. it was quite possibly the most pointless thing to fight over. i look down on football hooliganism, couldn't even name you two arsenal players, yet here I am fighting some guy who's team I was cheering for literally 2 minutes prior.

>>34579565
in the country i'm in fighting in the street has legal repercussions. they don't station security because people are all very well behaved.

>>34579640
Message me

>>34579712
Don't fucking philosophize about it. Just savor the moment. Be happy that you and your fellow man can just trade blows and skip away to continue drinking.

You can't do that shit in America. These nogs will either pull a gun or come back with 6 of their little boyfriends.

>>34579631
nobody else is as interesting

>>34579635
sorry, I don't think you're her, I'd come get here wherever she was but she's not talking to me right now

>>34577778
Who are those 3 people

>>34579698
I don't know. When you put it that way, the inferior base muscle mass would equate to a worse metabolism all around.
>>34579733
I promise you they all have vaginas.
Get a 19 year-old. The biggest kept secret that they're daring you to call them on whenever they mock men for age gaps is the fact that it absolutely does loosen with age. Get her in that 19-21 range and she'll strangle your dick like a retard holding the class pet.

I still hope you’re okay, J. I’d really like to hear from you.

>>34579758
I'm starting to think this is about someone else...

>litre of alcohol isnt making me sleepy
yep im fucked beyond belief

>>34579758
Can I get a second letter?

>>34579769
>>34579797
There’s another poster who posts about a J. My J is a girl. I doubt she posts here.

i fucking hate women so god damn much its unreal. i hate working with them, i hate dealing with them, i hate crushing on them, they're the worst

I hate the feeling when my brain is sped up with nowhere to go. God it's so frustrating. It makes me want to drink or something to slow my mind down

>>34579710
I can sense your kindness

>>34579701
It's a neutral quality, but even if it were bad there are worse things about me.

>>34579855
Funny, some say I'm bitter. But I appreciate the positive opinion.

i lost feelings for you ever since i found out you jerk off to simpsons and dbz porn. not sure how to confront you on this so i think i'll slowly just become more distant and cold until i completely disappear from your life. farewell my love

>>34579738
I think I have more now. Like six or seven. Some relatives and some friends.

>>34579865
That shit has me dying.

>>34579861
Those aren't mutually exclusive and serendipitously tend to exist together.

>>34579873
I'm not bitter, though.

>>34579876
Damn. I wanted to say something cool. What comes across as bitter about you? You can be a little blunt, I think, but I like that because I feel society has too much toxic positivity.

>>34579883
I think it's because I have trouble trusting people at their word these days. Easy way to get fucked over, tee bee aych.

>>34579887
Oh yeah, I know.You wouldn't believe me if I told you.

>>34579887
Some people are neutral or good though.

>>34579904
Cool play on words. Should be words in a play. I've got to go, though.
>>34579910
Some people are, yes. But I've been known to give people the benefit of the doubt, usually. But I won't lie to you about how or who I am.

>>34579917
Okay, I'll talk to you later maybe. Don't die.

>>34579920
I'll try to come back to you, if I can.

>>34579917
Oh, also, that wasn't a play on words. I said something cool by accident that time.

>>34577717
Long story short a friend of mine raped me so hard I started to bleed because he was mad I was planning on becoming a nun. I still feel sick when I think about it and i feel like I can’t clean myself of it no matter how hard I try

I've been losing my shit over things really easily lately. Just crashing out over the slightest thing, like the kids would say.

Accidentally sent a message that sounded rude to this girl who I'm trying to bang, fixed it quickly, then explained, I was sleepy so it was a mistake.
She was in bed and probably sleeping as I replied a little later, but now I can't sleep thinking I fucked up, I'm an anxious person.

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>>34577052
>just turned 29
>balding rapidly, diffuse horseshoe pattern. probably second worst way to bald.
>rosacea and fair skin so my face just randomly looks like a fucking tomato
>got my head shaved down today to see how I'd look bald, but it revealed all the pimples and moles that were hidden. and my ugly fat head
>can't wear a hat at my job because professional environment
>realization sets in that I am getting older and will very likely never be loved again
>all the single women this age are BPD demons, single moms on the hypergamy train, or spergs
>I wasted the prime years of my youth working my ass off
>landed an exceptionally good paying career
>but no social life
>I am not really happy, I just keep myself occupied/distracted
>is this really it
>is this life
>what happens now
>where do I go from here

>>34579939
I'm sorry that happened to you. What he did was so evil, I have no other words for it. I'm just sorry.

Turns out the pneumonia was actually caused by valley fever which I probably got because my immune system was compromised by 20+ drinks a night for over a week
3 days sober, 2 of those were in the hospital with benzos helping me withdraw, anxiety is going fucking crazy tonight and I have nothing but DBT coping skills
Did it to myself award

Willing this one to stick, somehow all my blood tests were completely healthy but that's not gonna last if I go back

I have a secret I haven't told anyone, even my therapist, and It's eating me bit by bit. When I look at people, I start thinking that they would think less of me if I told them. Hell I tell my best friend everything but I can't even tell him, he'd be disappointed in me. And even if the current trend in society is to treat this like nothing at all, since a lot of people do it and even friends and family have done it, I still can't believe it happened to me. I know some people close to me would justify my actions and most would actually understand but I still don't feel like I can tell anyone. Only one other person in the world knows this, and because of this secret I can't even talk to them anymore.

>>34580010
Just say it here anonymously so we can tell you how much it doesn't matter

>>34579987
lets see your card

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>>34580027
what does that mean, I'm retarded

>>34580033
reference to the patrick bateman card standoff because you said you had a good paying job so i made you out to be a suit wearing psychopath that tales an axe to people on the weekends if that makes sense

Everyday is a new humiliation. If there is a God, I am one of his many clowns.

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>>34580042
based reference

I can say with my whole heart that I did my best. I don't know if I'm coming back. I can tell it's what you want, I know it's too hard for you to say.

it's over.

>>34580088
Why are you relying on what 'I' want and not doing what you want?

>>34580100
Because I want you to be happy. All I do is cause you pain. The fire went out for you, I can't change that.

>>34580047
Same

>>34579812
Damn I'm sorry anon, I know of how you feel, the crushing on someone part.

>>34579009
This is how I feel and resonate with your post.

>>34580135
I want you to be happy. It seems you already are, but you make yourself miserable by thinking about me. You've been given a hard enough life, don't let me make it harder.

Sleep well, little one. I have a plan. Hang in there.

*gets shot and dies*

>>34580394
Real

Its saturday, cunt, time to drown your sorrows! Drink, you rotten bitch. drown yourself and join your friends.

>>34580396
Fake

>>34580470
You're going to feel real dumb

>>34580479
Nuh uh

>>34580315
Please be kind, please keep us all together, I'm scared and I'm scared that your plan is throwing me under the bus, I'm just trying to keep her

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>>34580438
Hell yeah

>>34579865
I see how it is

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I feel like no matter what I do or how hard I try I will always come in second place. Failing is genuinely comfortable and winning is elevating but there's this stinging pain of being slightly less than the best.
In everything I do, I go above and beyond what's requested of me. I'll spend weeks making things people have never seen before only for the things I create to be crushed up and thrown away. Not because they are bad, but because there is always someone or something better, faster, cheaper.

In school, I was told the months I had spent working on a project that was approved by professional designers was useless because the design wasn't in the file format that my teacher used to automate their grading. I got 0. In competitions, I created presentations that came to life (waving, talking with the audience) and created ideas that positively impacted every competitor. I was told, "out of everyone, you need the least amount of help." I lost to an alcoholic who boasted he planned on committing suicide before he presented. In work, I designed parts that were100 times less costly to manufacture and built machines that could revolutionize the healthcare industry. I was relegated to a server closet and let go as soon as a younger and cheaper kid came in.

I don't want to be rich or popular or even smart. I just want to make things and live on my own two feet. I like making things.

>>34580027
I designed my own ENIG PCB NFC card that uses a unique form factor with a 3 pronged setup that lets it stand on it's own and works as a paperclip/advert rider. It instantly transfers my contacts to a phone via tap. For obvious reasons I can't show it off. When people see it, their interested. My client base says, "Yeah! I remember your card!" but my phone lines and emails are empty. I'm starving for any kind of work, relegated to living with my parents. For all of the effort I put into the things I do: I am nothing. That hurts.

Powering through life keeping a cool-head while feeling your breath is the best way to go about life when the world turns against you completely.

>>34580546
Someone who is familiar with the words black-pill, white-pill, red-pill, blue-pill, green-pill, tell me what color of pill the statement I made is, I'm kinda curious.

>>34580480
Just wait

What if I see her again...

>have a thing for big strong man arms
>start lifting weights and now I get turned on from feeling my own arms
i don't know how to feel about this.. didn't realize this would happen

my boyfie so sexy mmph

Idk if this is the right thread for this but when I was 10 my uncle would show me porn even when though I made it clear I didn't want to see it he would flash me with it often I haven't told anyone this

Labor going over is a failure of scheduling, not of the team. If labor goes over while sales forecasts are beaten out by over ten fucking percent, you bitching the supervisors out is unfair to them. You need to talk to the district manager about the budget.

If you were honest nothing would've happened, maybe a mandated class at worst, but your lies about me made them threaten to take her from both of us please come clean we can get through this

Please believe me I never tried to hurt or betray you

Just had 2 dreams in a row where I was about to get a girlfriend, was having great chemistry with both girls.I wanna kill myself.

Forecheck
Backcheck
Pay check

I need you to hold me

>>34580315
You're coming to get me, right?

I didn't tell them about your job if you come clean it'll probably all go away and we can work things out please

I don’t think I understood what true love was until I met you. It’s going to be hard for me to let you go, but I want you to thrive and be happy.
If our paths cross again at any point in the next five years, I’d probably let you back in.

i'm much more resilient than i thought

>>34580900
Why are you posting that here? Why don’t you tell the person who got hurt yourself?

>>34580900
>>34581091
Those are good questions. If the person anon hurt hasn't blocked them, they need to reach out to them and tell them this directly.

I don't think I'm allowed to contact them

>>34581134
Did they tell you that?

>>34581157
No

>>34581180
Do you have their email address or phone number?

>>34581189
Yeah but I don't think I'm allowed to contact them

>>34581191
Why not?

I am a shell composed of dope and benzos. How the fuck can I be crazy yet laid back? I just want to solve the puzzle so I can rest. I hate getting lost in my head and burning those I love. Fuck Fear.

>>34581197
Other people will get mad at me and it may make them take something important from us

>>34581210
Just do it, who cares. Ngl you sound drunk and or esl

>>34577052
Been unable to work for almost 10 years now and got denied disability for the second time around in front of a judge. The reasons for denial, despite my extensive physical and mental medical records, is an insulting slap in the face. However, a friend of mine from HS just got it for "back pain" from a mild injury. I'm happy for him, but it doesn't stop my denial from feeling bad. Both of our judges had an approval rating about the same. I swear there has to be something I'm doing wrong. He's not the first person I knew from HS that got disability for more mild issues. I try to be respectful to the SSA judges and employees and my female friend said maybe that's the problem. She said she screamed at everyone she spoke with including the judge and got awarded for the first time in front of one with very short mental health record of MDD and GAD. I don't feel like that's a reasonable thing to do, but I've had zero success so I feel like I'm in no place to judge especially when I feel like I'm losing my mind. This may sound terrible, but if I could I would do favors for people on the inside of it helped, it's how my one Veteran buddy got 100% he knew a guy that knew a guy and he had to buy him a couple of cases of alcohol and some other things over his waiting period and was guaranteed 100%. IDK anymore...

I'm heartbroken and touch starved and feel like I can't even move.

>>34580315
Please le tme know I'm so scared

>>34580973
inspiring

Damn hoe
Why would you do me like that? You know the one and only thing I ever wanted to hear was that I was loved. You could’ve at least granted me that illusion.

Monday tomorrow, going to be forced to talk to a lot of people in order to keep her, I'm scared and don't know what to do

I fucking hate my body. I feel like I'm some sort of genetic mess thats just never going to be healthy. Like all my organs were assembled wrong and my body isn't functioning normally. I've had horrible acne since I was 14 or so, never got better, even after accutane it didn't fully go away and all I have are scars all over my body and various permanent side effects like dry eyes and lips. I sweat a lot even if I don't do anything. I keep developing weird auto immune disorders the older I get. I'm 31 now and my health has been worse than ever even if I'm taking care of myself now more than I ever had which ironically has worse effects than when I did nothing. My anxiety and ocd got so bad in the last 5 years or so that I can barely function. There is something wrong with my stomach, like I'm not digesting food right. I put on a lot of weight suddenly and I haven't changed anything, it just happened when I quit smoking weed, thats where my anxiety was at its peak as well and that never went away, just got worse, like I'm in a permanent state of "something bad is going to happen". I tried all sorts of meds, antidepressants, exercise, therapy, medical things/procedures, all tests I could, apparently I'm "healthy" but I don't feel like it. I just want to fucking end myself every day at this point because I feel stuck living this shitty life and its only getting worse. I just wish I was born normal, not having to deal with any of this shit and its just frustrating that nothing works and it just gets worse over time...

I regret not going to you when you left to cry in the bedroom, I wanted to but I was scared

Tomorrow I don't have to tell her shit, I just keep doing what I've been doing and enjoy myself until my interview next month.
I ain't even telling her my status anymore, she'll only know when I turn my resignation to HR. That's if she gives a shit. Evidently she doesn't.

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>>34581900
I'm right there with you anon. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I am >>34579987. I have a body that I will never feel comfortable going shirtless. Acne scars and pitting on my back. Very visible and discolored inflamed scars on my neck that look like a burn victim.

>There is something wrong with my stomach, like I'm not digesting food right.
this can be related to stress. the gut/brain connection is absolutely real. My stomach got fucked and I contracted gastritis at the beginning of the year. Only just now recovering.

I used to try to learn to love myself, but now I just try to to accept that I'm ugly and will probably die alone. It's easier to cope that way. I see normal people who are conventionally attractive with normal lives and families and it makes me so jealous. I must have been hitler or something in my previous life, and this is God's punishment for me. Or the universe wants me to suffer so I can ascend to some level of understanding.

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>>34581655
Nta but I got scared if it was you responding in atoga again.

i really need to stop smoking cause if he finds out, hed probably leave me

Have 2 fantasies coexisting in my brain lately:
>Hot, tall, sweet girl tells me I'm not gross and repugnant for my occasional self-harm, takes care of me, and cuddles me.
&
>Hot, tall, sexy girl sits behind me and holds me while she guides me to cut myself and soothes me through it, telling me I'm doing well
Both are unrealistic because I'm ugly as sin and women don't want me

I have weird fantasies too.
>Sophisticated brown tiny woman madly in love with me and wants me to fuck her brains out, yet she's the hornier one
And
>Lactating chunky white woman with a mohawk crushing my dick with her 50lb squatting ass
And we live in a harem together in my dreams.

Please I'm sorry you're not a fool I love you

one step forward, being dropped into purgatory and wandering through a labyrinth just to get back to where we were

We can start over just like you said

>>34582233
I, too, dream of both of these archetypes. I've fucked the latter one in spades, but never had the fortune of fucking the former. I wonder what it would be like.

Please don't leave me here

>>34582272
*holds you close, pushing your head against my bosom*

>>34582308
NTA but jesus christ this triggered something in me

I am a fool
I wish I tried harder
I was sort of overwhelmed

>>34579199
>Who? Me or him? I want to be softer and more trusting of people so I'm forcing myself to believe him as a trust exercise. He's the one ghosting me so idk what you mean


saw a beauty today and deep locked eye contact. Didn't say a word. I'm tired of using my own bandwidth and other peoples bandwidth unnecessarily as I used to do PUA and It's come to my attention how much fatigue it generates.

>>34579865
wtf this post is about me!!!

90% of the posters ITT should really just reach out to the person they're pretending to talk to.

B you are loved.
You are my one and only.
I hope by finding the strength within myself you will love me again

>>34582361
Go tell the person you want to tell this to this

>>34582363
>plausible post with my initial the literal moment I open this thread
Very funny, three letter agent

I want to help people better but I need to clean my room first.

I'm proud of myself of my patience despite my very active temperament and very high cortisol.

My room still is not clean.

I want to spend more time in my day to help people. I want to be there for you and slightly boost your morale when you're at your worst.

>>34582407
you being everyone on this thread.

I sent someone on the internet a picture of my cum the other week. It was the first time I ever shared a lewd picture with a stranger. I feel quite proud for some reason.

justin, if you still lurk, i miss you and hope you’re doing well

Neil Cheers to you!

Shine on you crazy diamond

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he threatened to pack all my shit and leave me if I don't stop fighting with him all the time. I was only mad because he went through my messages and just went to the store to get soil and when I came home he was half packed. my dog just died less than a week ago and now he's bringing up that he might want kids. after 2 years. wtf

I don't know if Olivia still reads this place, but I hope she knows for sure that there's really no bad blood.
If you want me to be in your life again in the future, you're going to have to make the first move.
I hope everything goes well for you two and that he treats you right.

>>34582437
You want her back but not me? Or do you still just want me to suffer...

It was too good to be true, you're not coming to save me, it's fucking over. Your hate was real and lasting. I'm sorry

Glad you're okay, J. No hard feelings.

>>34582466
M?

I hope I see her tonight, but something tells me it's not this night.

Check my Discord. I swear on our rock.

>>34582489
I see you

Should I try to cut with blades a little bit? Will that do anything for me?

>>34582493
But I'm terrified

>>34582495
No. Throw yourself at opportunity and risk failing if you want to feel pain.

>>34582501
unironically good advice

How do I know if I will ever hit a point where I actually will change my life? Every time I tried so far rejections and embarrassments eventually got to me. I'm afraid I will not take this seriously enough ever because I'm so comfortable with just coasting.

>>34582499
I'm scared to go against them, they're threatening to take her, I don't know what else to do, I'm sorry

I love women!

>>34582501
Damn, that's scarier than cutting and unironically will have worse consequences.

I hate degenerates but I kind of hope they win the culture war because I'm scared of being punished for being a degenerate myself. Not for illegal shit obviously, just embarrassing shit.

Aaaaaand checkmate.

manifesting a job that wont cause me dread and i actually enjoy ⊹ ࣪ ˖

>>34582567
truke

>>34582363
>again
When did I stop?

>>34582571
You were checkmated the minute you tried to diss a nobody.

>>34582567
No right wing society is going to punish you for liking giantesses/MILFs/lolis/musclegirls/futas/whatever