Since my childhood, I've swung back and forth between believing I'm smart and believing I'm genuinely mentally handicapped. Right now I'm kind of in the worst of both worlds, where I firmly believe I'm an idiot down to my bones and am constantly mentally bombarded by reasons why, but my personality is still wired to act like Iike a know-it-all. Worse, I'm careless, often skimming information I should have read carefully, or trusting my memory when I should be double-checkingI want to reach a point where my behaviour and self-esteem are in line with who I am, and hopefully that will help me be happier than how I am now
>>34580594I diagnose you with kinda dumb + self esteem issues. Intelligent people know they don't know anything. They probably know less than 1% of the things that are available to know, and that's fun because there's more stuff to explore and learn about. Be grateful when you encounter something new. I don't know what to tell you about not double checking things because I can't relate at all. I double check the definitions of words I've been confident I know how to use since I was 12 just in case I'm mixing it up with something else. You should aspire to be accurate not to be "right".
