I am very depressed. I have no motivation to anything. I do not even have motivation to apply for NEET bucks. I'm only obsessing over my past and ruminate. Day in, day out. I see my life fall apart and I know I have to be worried, but I am not. I wish I could go to a doctor and get medicated, but I have no insurance, anymore. I'm about to be evicted in a few months and think I'll let myself be arrested hoping I'll get help in prison. I'm from Europe. Any advice?
>>34587502i miss reynisfjarasorry can't help you. depression is not easy to handle. you need professional help for that. like seriously, you need professional help
>>34587502I'm sorry to hear about your situation man. I also ruminate on my past a lot. I'd say it consumes about half of my daily thoughts.If you can though, why not apply for the NEETbux? You may use the money to help yourself a bit.. maybe buy an instrument or something that'll give you an interesting hobby. Maybe enough to go camping, or go on a small trip by yourself... the point it, you may find out more about yourself and life, and find some motivation from that. Maybe enough to find some passion, things to look forward to, that sort of thing.Best wishes, OP. I'd give you a bro hug or a friendly handshake if I could. I sincerely hope you may find motivation and peace.
>>34587523>>34587574thanks for words of kindness guys
>>34587502Rumination is just you looking for a guarantee but since there is none you circle and circle and circle hoping to find "something" but since that is a structural impossibility you will circle endlessly the start of ritual and neurosis is trying to guarantee an outcome. So at the root of this all it's because you are afraid to take risks that might put the fantasy of yourself in danger of collapsing but maybe this already happened and u find it hard to engage in the fantasy necessary to mediate the pointlessness of life.
