I am in my 20s. I have some friends, it's hard to talk sometimes. I have one friend I can sort of rely on, I have absolutely no one to talk with about emotions. I have been met with betrayal over my life non stop. I tried getting validation from the people that did not give a shit about me. At the end of the day I was the butt of the joke. People look at me as if I'm the crazy one. I cannot talk with people without getting nervous. University fucking sucks, no one is normal. I will not have a girlfriend anymore because I'm not putting myself out there nor actively looking nor do I intend to make a fool out of myself and perform just to get pussy and my mental capacity is not worth it. Friends with one female only because she's fun to drink with, talkative and I'm stuck with her, one part of her acts like she's in a relationship and rejects everybody, another is her getting jealous when she sees a hairband in my car. She can be nice in person but out with other people she will drop some shit like "you have such a stupid name" or "where are you looking at perv". Only time people genuinely hit me up is if they need something, have another female friend that drives me fucking crazy, she behaves like a child that needs to be taken care of. I am paranoid as fuck. I am angry when I get home. I have no fucking idea what do I do. Only reason I don't sudoku is because I don't want to leave my parents and because I'm too afraid to do this, believing there's more to life or that things will get better.genuinely what fucking advice do I get for this, anyone with similar experience? anything to put my life in a better direction? I was even contemplating another gap year just to reroll the people I'd get in uni.
>>34587560Death to AmericaAnd butter sauceDon't boil meI’m still aliveIraq Lobster
no one is forcing you to interact with these peopleyou can journal about your emotions, write them here or anywhere onlinepeople are shit and will use your vulnerability to put you down, do not rely on people for your wellbeing
