The tl;dr of what I'm asking is how to deal with/keep a lid on existential dread.Due to some recent life events, such as the birth of my first child and the potential failing health of some close loved ones, I've been having very mentally taxing thoughts about death often.I think about the inevitability of my own death and potentially leaving my child and his mother in this world without me. I think about how they too will one day die and I vividly think about the fear they will feel leading to it.I do have faith that there is something more after death but the plausible possibility that there isn't is more than enough to cause me problems.Whenever big problems come up in my life I often overthink them to the point that I just run through countless made up scenarios over and over. It keeps me up all night when I go through these things, until like 9am in the morning kind of sleep loss. The problem here is these are problems that there is no solution to. I know it's impossible to come to a satisfying resolution.Another thought I have in relation to my son. I see how happy and sweet he is and I feel immense guilt for bringing him into a world that has the realistic potential for so much evil and pain. I do think life is worth living but this is imposing that on someone else who has not asked for it. I imagine him going through similar existential crises one day and it hurts me to know I've put this on someone else.The biggest thing I, or my loved ones die, we may never get to see each other again, ever. That is my greatest fear and source of anxiety and depression.How can I deal with these thoughts and feelings? They're unsolvable and I'm not good at ignoring them. Should I get therapy?
>>34589776Let me guess, youre under 30. That fear of dying turns to eagerness some day
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>>34589787What makes you so eager?
idek what religion are you but the thing that i surely know is that Orthodox Christianity helps cos i was in lets js say a real bad situation and it saved my life so yh
>>34589964I was raised Catholic.As far as my beliefs go, I believe that there is more to life. I think about the absolutely insane probability of life even being able to exist to begin with, coupled with the insane probability of specifically being a human, of all the living things out there that you could possibility be, on top of the insane probability of being the one of millions of sperm to actually make it, etc...The probability of life itself is just so absurd I can't believe it's just random. Coupled with the amount of coincidence and this feeling of strange consistent logic to existence, I just feel like there's no way it's all an accident.Of course, all that being said, the possibility that I am not right, regardless of the size of that possibility, is enough to make me feel this way.
Wish I had an answer for ya.
>>34589791Kek. You should be more worried about your wife’s menopause leading to divorce and being stuck in coparent hell than dying.
