Earlier this year I decided to move out. A combination of people walking in whenever they felt like it and my dad's brain damage was the main motivation. I got a job specifically to pay for the small apartment though my parents have since moved to the other side of town.>So what is the problem?I have always been bad with procrastinating but in the last 3 months I've seemingly lost my impulse control, am way more tired and just don't feel like doing anything.>Home-Office + flexible hours has also made me start waking up late, open up Teams and do nothing but jerk off and smoke all day in a dark apartment.Basically: I don't *want* to do anything. I want to be in this dark little hole and watch porn, smoke and sleep. And it has gotten to a point that I am at risk losing my job, flat, etc. Or at least I think I am. Because I slack.So why am I puzzled by my own actions? Because I *want* to not do anything. I *dislike* the fact I want to do things. Yet I clearly know I have to do things and feel bad if I don't and so end up feeling both shit and good about not doing anything at the same time.
Get yourself the problem of not being able to rest until your work is done for the day.You'll feel better when you finally get to relax
>>34591379The entire system is a scam. It's designed to force you to move your muscles in a certain profitable way. To think in a profitable way. To perform actions that are most beneficial for the system but only beneficial enough to keep you motivated to do it again tomorrow and the keep supporting the system. Your eyes, your eyes, your nerves, your arms, legs, everything is all for the system. Before you know it they've extracted all possible value from you and you're an old man with nothing further to offer the system. In the most efficient manner possible we're all used, we're prostitutes for the system.
>>34592039What's better than being a useless man?
