I am 23 and have no degree beyond primary school.99% of people my age retarded or autistic have some kind of degree and job experience by this point in life and I have none plus I am a kissless virgin with no gf, never had a girl even be interested in me sexually or romantically as far as I know.I have no real hobbies other than video games which I only play every few days for very little because I have to force myself to do anything. I used to have an interest in history, architecture, politics, anime, languages and music but neglected them and now I feel like I can't really say I'm interested in anything despite having ambitions as a teen with creating stuff and such.Ages 16-19 I did literally nothing at all due to mental illness and I feel like my brain has actually rotted or gotten some kind of brain damage from the passiveness/idleness back then. I try going to the gym because I am chubby. But my body feel wrong, my bones crackle and pop with almost every movement, is that bad? My knees are really weak and make a lot of crackling noise despite biking all the time there and trying to do heavy squats. I was sedentary for my teens years and it feels like it has bit me in the ass later on.I got diagnosed with schizophrenia but I don't hallucinate but I am also on meds and have no energy or much emotion but idk if it's the meds or the negative symptoms of schizophrenia. I don't have strong opinions on things either, I think I had them before but now I kinda don't care about stuff.Would you continue to live if you were me? What would you even do? I am in therapy but it only helps so much and I struggle to find things to talk about for the therapist to help me with.
goddammit stop searching for reassurance, it's a never ending cycle, even if every single person in the world reassured you, it still wouldn't be enough
>>34591672I would continue living if I were you. Bons cracking is fairly normal, mine make a ton of noise and I'm in great shape. Keep working out. If you feel self conscious about being a NEET, you can always get some basic part time in retail or smthAlso, you're way too hard on yourself. You have schizophrenia, the fact that you are this function is impressive, don't compare yourself to people who don't have to deal with that disease.
>>34591672You don't want /adv/ice,just validation and throw a pity party. If you were impulsive and desperate enough to kill yourself, you'd have done it already. Shut up and work on your self perceived inadequacies or actually kys
