It started roughly when I was 13 years old and I haven't been able to stop, I'm 23 now. I keep having fantasies about her even though I feel suicidal afterwards. Why am I like this? Is there a cure? If not, what options do I have besides suicide?
>>34591801Tell us more about the relationship you have with your father and your mom, with as much detail as possible. I may not be able to help you today, but tomorrow I will.
>>34591801Unironically therapy. See a profession, especially since your case is like a therapist's wet dream
>>34591905My dad was an alcoholic, he was frustrated with his life so he insulted my mom whenever they got into arguments. He would also be cold and distant towards me as a result of his bad mood. Whenever he was acting like an asshole and qas called out he would make a scene and play dumb afterwardsMy mom has not worked a single day after giving birth to me which only frustrared my father further, according to her she has already worked enough in her life and now she is "sick" (she isn't). She is mentally unwell though, she has depression allegedly but hasn't sought help in any significant way. She also sheltered me a lot
