I'm sick of living and I just want to die, but for some reason I cant bring myself to commit suicide. I think it's because I have too much self hatred, or maybe I'm just a fucking coward. How do I get over this?
go get some nature. Fresh air, sunshine. I like to go fishing. your mileage may vary. Get professional help, too.
Cultivating a sense of purpose helps. Life becomes a lot more bearable when you can tie it all back to something central and meaningful.
dont lose hope, please. im going through the same shit so, take care of yourself, little things such as talking to a friend or ways that makes your days feel diferent/unique can help, youre not alone.
>>34591834>Cultivating a sense of purpose.Ive tried so many things and I’ve constantly failed. Im turning 23 soon and I feel like such a failure that I haven’t started my life yet.
>>34591806You can't do it because at least that part of your brain is still working correctly.I often think about jumping off a bridge or poisoning myself or something. But I find something that I have to wait for. Can't do it yet because you have to take care of your cats, you have concert tickets in August, you want one more Halloween. Just keep picking little milestones to wait for. And do this >>34591828
>>34591806>but for some reason I cant bring myself to commit suicideYou're biologically engineered to avoid suicide. Work your way towards improvement (which in this is case is addressing all the possible causes of your self-hatred) or keep indulging in self-pity while things get worse, then, once day, in a moment of sheer impulsiveness, you may override our biological need to stay alive
>>3459194423 is nothing, I didn't figure out what was important in life until I was around 34. You can learn a lot in ten years, and you never know when something will align in a way where everything starts to make sense. Even within those ten years, I was still suicidally depressed all the way until 29 at least. Try not to count yourself out when you still have so much more room to grow.
>>34591806Listen to what your body is telling you. Don't give up my man (or woman). Life WILL get better. You are seeking a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
>>34591806How long have you felt like this for op?Can you give me your best guess as to why you feel like this or some lore?
>>34591806Sorry op. I feel the same way.
>>34592383>loreA little bit about me. Im an ex muslim turned atheist. My community nor do my parents know. I live in the uk and for most of my life I’ve always felt too white for the asians and too asian for the whites. Ive never really known what I am, and despite being born in the UK I don’t even feel British. Im just some arsehole.
>>34591806I've been there. Went so far as rigging up the noose and writing my note, but... pussied out.Wasted a decade being a depressed piece of shit. But, things did turn around. Finally started making choices to actually better myself, which allowed fortunate opportunities to start occurring, which I then started to jump on instead of watching them pass me by.Life's probably gonna drag you through the mud for quite a while. But one day... maybe next week, maybe in 2036... you'll wake up and decide "you know what? This sucks. I'm gonna do something about it".