I'm an ugly beta male in my mid 30s. In every single workplace or college environment I become the loser loner that nobody talks to within a week of starting.I haven't had any friends since school, and even then I didn't socialise with them outside of school after around the age of 13.I haven't had a girlfriend or date or any interest from women ever. I've read about the blackpill and know that it all accords with reality.Any advice that allegedly fixes the above points seems like ramshackle artifice. Going to clubs or pubs or hobby groups, "just" talking to people, online dating: it's all a humiliation ritual that only normies can succeed at. There's the added humiliation that none of it is "necessary" (physically, financially), meaning people would literally sense the patheticness on me if I did any of it. They'd think I was stupid and desperate, that I'd be someone who was acting like a 1950s caricature ("Just wear a suit and walk in with a firm handshake!"), potentially resulting in widespread humiliation (maybe even social media virality). Being a loser doesn't remove this humiliation; I wouldn't go outside without proper hygiene either.I've come to see all socialising, whether informal or formal, in groups or with individuals, as a "heads they win, tails I lose" rigged game where people simply assert the preexisting social hierarchy to either insult, ignore, or take advantage of me. If people are in a situation where they don't simply want me to go away as soon as possible, they will try to exploit me in some way, which they will predict they can do because they instinctually (or factually) know that they fit in more than me with other normies, so they will face no consequences if they try to run me over.
get fit and learn a martial art or fighting skill. you'll carry yourself differently after a whilealternative (extremely dangerous but your situation sounds desperate):next time you have an opportunity for socializing, snort 50mg cocaine 5 minutes prior. the goal is not to become dependent on it (you probably will) but to unlock some self esteem and manage the same confidence sober
>>34593090You are the common factor in all of those scenarios/contexts OP. I can see the clear pattern emerging just from your own descriptions in your own post, let alone your own life (which I'm sure would give off more screaming red flags I witnessed it firsthand).And here's the thing: at this point, when you go in to any situation assuming people won't like you, you are actually RIGHT. But it stems from you. You don't like yourself, and people see that and they won't feel the need to argue or try to prove you wrong. They'll just accept your judgement at face value. You're the one setting the tone here.
Consider giving compliments to people and finding things you have in common even if it's really superficial like food/music/movies. Or ask them about things they're proud about or have an interest in (like their kids or a sports team). The girlfriend thing is a mountain too tall to climb right now, but getting out of the "friendless/weird loser" zone is relatively easy.>If people are in a situation where they don't simply want me to go away as soon as possible, they will try to exploit me in some wayThe thing about doing favors for people is that you can ask for favors back and trading favors is how you build acquaintances and friendships. Even asking for help (even if you don't really need it) can help bridge that gap.
>>34593090The blackpill framework feels like realism but functions like a trap. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy where any evidence against it gets explained away, any failure confirms it. People becoming distant at work, feeling exploited, sensing hierarchy are all true to an extent. But "people instinctually know I don't fit in and will face no consequences for running me over" is a very specific theory about why they happen, and it's almost certainly not the right one. You've ruled out every avenue for change while remaining in real pain.Being real for a second, your actual problem is garden variety narcissism. No one thinks as much about losers as you imagine, but high social anxiety, hypervigilance, and the expectation of rejection genuinely do affect how interactions go. You are off putting because you still broadcast high self importance to everyone, even if it's just your personal certainly of being excluded
next time you have an opportunity for it, try slapping a thick girls ass at the club. the goal is not get beat to death by her afterward (you probably will) but to unlock some self esteem and potentially turn her on (in the off chance she's into it)
>>34593090What do you look like?
>>34593090>nobody talks to within a week of startingSo it's not your looks after all.
>>34593119>cocainewhat about mdma or lsd instead
