I've been wanting to get on HRT for awhile now. Not to become a woman mind you, just as an HRT femboy. I know all the side effects. I think every effect that isn't infertility is very cool or at least manageable. Even then I'm still gonna bank sperm just in case I wanna start a family. Even THEN I don't think I should breed given my family history of depression and other mental illness, and even if I get past that I want my child to have a traditional male role model, so honestly the banking is more just for peace of mind. Literally the only thing holding me back is outside judgement and the fact I have a very difficult time making permanent decisions. Also while this effectively doesn't matter and is honestly beneficial given I shouldn't breed, basically chemically castrating myself makes me feel like a goyim. At the same time I want the strong femininity that comes from HRT. I already have a good base and have been confused as a girl a couple times even when not on HRT so I won't be a horrible disgusting hon, just clocky (which is fine since I'm still gonna be male, I don't have to hold myself up to the standard of passing like a woman). Is there something I'm missing? To me this is just like how one of my homeboys got on tren but I'm open to hearing arguments against this.
>>34594193You spend too much time on this website. Having a mental illness doesn't mean your child will suffer the same fate, and even on the off chance they did, a flawed life is better than never existing in the first place. Secondly, don't chemically annihilate your body. You were given it for a reason. Just because you might look a little girly doesn't mean you have to try to be a girl.You are made in God's image. Just because some people mistake you for a woman doesn't mean you aren't as much a man as everyone else.Don't obsess over your genetics. You are exactly who you are meant to be.
>>34594310Well I like being feminine, I really like it and it feels closest to who I am. Also I have depression and BPD and probably autism and whatever bitch I pull will probably have the same, I genuinely shouldn't breed. And as much as I hate Reddit atheists and how they put down honest and nice Christians/Catholics that's not a life I can live, so using "God" to get me to rep doesn't work, even if saying that demoralizes me a bit given I was raised Catholic. Also I started having these thoughts once I went out into the real world, met trans people who were not only cool and normal but looked how I wanted to look.
>>34594310To add to this, I never asked to be born. To be honest I'm slightly mad at my parents for conceiving me. I don't wanna do that to my kid, especially when my history of family depression is so strong. Despite all of my parents best efforts, I've made multiple suicide attempts behind their back and am only living now because of survival instinct. What happens when my kid does the same and actually succeeds? I would rather not bring a miserable life into this world, or a severely autistic or mentally ill one.
>>34594332I wish I could better understand how you feel, it would help me discuss things better. I hope this question doesn't offend you. I'm only asking in order to better understand your point-of-view. Why not just be a guy who's into girly things?
>>34594193Estrogen ages you rapidly and ruins the femboy look. It doesn't make you feminine looking at all, it just gives you old man moobs and premature wrinkles.
>>34594360I did that for awhile but as I'm coming up on 25 I'm realizing I haven't killed myself yet, probably never will and twink death is coming for me. I really would rather not look like my dad and masculinity is not my look. Plus the way it changes my body honestly fits for how I feel in my mind, not to mention the mental changes align with who I wanna be. Also don't be worried about offending, I came here for a blunt perspective.
>>34594383Do you just overall find looking masculine unappealing? Are you uncomfortable with the facial and chest hair you grow? Just trying to figure out what you dislike about your body.
>>34594383I'm 36 and my body looks absolutely no different in any way from what it looked like at 18. Twink death is a myth invented by trannies who want to groom gullible gays into going along with their cultish nonsense.
>>34594412Overall yes. I cut my hair short a year ago so my family down south wouldn't think I was gay when I went to visit and I really regretted it. And I'm starting to get body hair and I fucking hate it. I shave all the time too because facial hair looks really stupid on me as well. So yeah I really hate looking masculine but I'm getting too old to look like a boyish twink, so leaning into the femininity seems like the way to go.>>34594418I mean idk. I find the idea of breasts and a smaller cock and balls appealing as well, not to mention the fatter ass/thighs and facial changes. Not to mention the mental changes. Truth be told I've been on e for a couple weeks now and I'm enjoying the mental changes and decreased libido.
>>34594441The only advice I could give you is you look wonderful the way you are. Don't change for the world. If your family has a problem with long hair, then that's their problem. Focus on how you look on the inside, not on the exterior. You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
>>34594466That's exactly why I'm even considering staying on HRT now. Before I really grasped how much BPD had ruled my life, my philosophy was that I should serve everyone else before myself no matter what. I still think I should do this in a lot of respects but not to the point to where I'm changing how I present myself just so I don't look gay to people I don't really care about. So me starting this is me thinking for my own self. I think. I'm pretty sure.
>>34594497When I say don't change for the world, I also mean yourself. As I read your posts, you come across to me as someone who is disgusted by his own body. Don't be. I understand shaving if you don't enjoy the feel of facial hair, but hair growth is a natural biological process and you shouldn't be repulsed by it. You are a magnificent machine of bones and sinew precisely stitched together. Every breath you take is a miracle. Hairs are a sign of longevity and resilience. Not just something fuzzy on you.
