Context:>Be Me>Be 3rd year in uni>Take Russian class because I'm Eastern Euro and want to strengthen my Russian>Indian phd student also was there>Some 1st year Russian girl comes into the class eventually>Knew I had no chance because of PHD Indian being superior>Have a meaningless conversation with her you know see where she's from because she's an Eastern Euro>She starts wanting to talk to me everytime after class>Try to swift march out of there she catches up every time>Decide maybe and tell my mom about her, she tells me to go for it and get her number.>We text but its so dry and I fuck it up and she ghosts despite us being in the same class becomes super weird>Hurt but emotions have to take a back seat got classes to pass>Eventually she gets with Indian guy, this ends up scarring me again I knew all of this was going to happen>Summer semester starts and my emotions start catching up to me and I keep playing everything in a loop>End up texting her confessing my feelings and she treats me like trash>Finally delete and block her number all together>Still in a rumination loop constantly thats exhausting me and I have summer classes to attend toCan anyone help me? It's just so annoying because I wanted noting to do with this person.
