I'm bisexual. I hate using that fucking word but it's true. I was normal and straight until I got deep into porn addiction as a teenager, and now homolust is part of me I don't think will ever fully go away even though I want to have a wife and family of my own.But my issue right now is that I find myself haunted on a daily bases by strong feelings of self-hatred and shame over some bad decisions I made in the past, and it's becoming difficult to cope with.I'm 26 now. When I was 19 I got into a relationship with a guy 10 years older than me. And he wasn't even a hot chad with a big dick, he was a fucking gross autistic slob who was into fetishes so gross I don't even want to repeat them here. But I had zero friends due to a sheltered upbringing and so I stayed with him for a long time out of fear of being alone. Unfortunately my family found out, and it's upsetting that my reputation is burned with them now, even if they still love me. The fact I can never go back to having them view me as a normal guy is very upsetting.It wasn't until I was 23 that I got out of that relationship, and I've been single ever since. I don't intend to ever physically act on a gay desire again. Those years are a part of my life I deeply regret, and I've been trying to put it behind me. I don't even live near my family anymore, which I thought would make it easier. I have a bunch of new friends now who don't know about it and assume I'm normal. But despite all that, when I'm alone with my thoughts, I am frequently assaulted by intense feelings of shame and regret that I wasted so much fucking precious time with such a shitty relationship, and a gay one at that. It's weird because for a while I thought I had moved on, but in the last 6 months the self-hatred has been hitting me HARD for some reason. It feels like I ruined my life.I can't go on like this. What should I do?
>>34604786Billionaires are ritualistically cannibalizing infants and you’re worried about boinking an uggo a few years back? I suggest reconsidering your priorities. Besides in my opinion the only wrong thing you could do is not date at all because of imaginary reasons and other people who aren’t you or your butt buddy or box
I would suggest talking to a therapist who specializes in sexual orientation and trauma. It sounds like the guy you dated was really toxic!I just want to add that being bi is valid and it is important to focus more on self acceptance and finding a healthy partner (who you are attracted to) than finding someone of a specific gender or sexuality.Hope that helps!
>>34607779Yeah no, therapy is a racket for the Jews
Men can't be bisexual. It's literally not possible. You are gay, fren.
>>34604786Let go of your sunk cost fallacy.
>>34609482How is this s sunk cost fallacy?
>>34609467How? If he was gay there would be 0 reason to ever touch women because men are very easy to sleep with. If he was straight he would have no desire to fuck bussy.
I sure hope your name doesn't start with a B.
>>34609841WELL GEE MAYBE SOME PEOPLE PREFER USING A GAMING COMPUTER FOR WORK PURPOSES AND A PS5 FOR GAMING PURPOSES, EVEN THOUGH THE GAMING COMPUTER CAN DO IT ALL.
>>34609467All men are bisexual.
>>34604786>regret that I wasted so much fucking precious time with such a shitty relationship, and a gay one at that.So is "let me waste more time dewling on this" a good and appropriate response?
>>34611408No, but I don't have control over my thoughts
>>34611410My dude your thoughts are literally the only thing you have control over.You have very little control over your emotions. Yoy can force yourself to not feel sad about something sad or force yourself to ot be scared over something scary.You have little control of your habits. You can make a alcoholic just STOP drinking on will power alone. Or a compulsive eater or a phobic or whatever.But you can and should control your thoughts by confronting them with reason and facts.I recommend you seek CBT (Cognitive bhwavior therapy) schemes and theory since you are too much of a pusy to seek a profesisonal.
>>34611455>Yoy can force yourselfYou can't*
>>34611455>You can make a alcoholic just STOPYou can't*
>>34611455>I recommend you seek CBTHehehehe.
>>34611478It's actually a very good psychological methodology.
>>34611483Its also an acronym for cock and ball torture a particularly unpleasant genre of porn
>>34604909>Billionaires are ritualistically cannibalizing infants and you’re worried about boinking an uggo a few years back?You're right that this billionaire thing is more important, but one doesn't exclude the other.>>34604786>I can't go on like this. What should I do?Jesus. He is the answer for everything.>Matthew 11:28–30>Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.>Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.>For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.>Psalm 55:22>Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.>1 Peter 5:7>Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.
>>34611590>Jesus. He is the answer for everything.This is a better answer than to go see some psychopath therapist
>>34611751I told to go read cbt concepts and judge for yourself how effective they are.But hey go be afaggot for all I care since you are such a little bitch. If I was in your shoes I wouldn't be picky about possible solutions.
