I dont know what should i do anymore This month i am so psychotic i fought my neighbours given up one job offering and lost 2.5k on stupid shitI keep lying without reason all my life to my parents now i larping about going to job interviews and attending exams(i dropped uni twice the second time they do not know it).Its so exhausting and my dad propably knows when i am frustrated my eyes turn so wide and i am shaking still he eats my lies....i feel like they watching my movements and take notes they invade my space when i do weird activities or loops arround the room talking to my self like they know what i am doing and they interrupt completely truman show type shit.Should i finally say the truth and get kicked out or keep doing that and commit suicide when my savings turn to zero
>>34608276start small. generally you know you need to>find a job (any job)>come clean to your dad>stop spending money>stop doing everything you're doing that's unnecessary (you sound overwhelmed) stop taking notes, what do you need them for?
>>34608321I lie basically for 10y about things i do not understand if they playing stupid or if they really are the thing is that i will 100% be kicked out and i am not functional enough to support my self especially my mental illness
Is this mental illness real? (recognized and diagnosed)
>>34610999Dipolar but might schizoaffective although i do not hear or see different things honestly i had a thought that i am autistic too but never diagnosed me as although i am sure i am
