Hey guys,I don't really know where to begin, but my life really sucks. I used to have severe social anxiety issues, quit going to school, and I've basically become a NEET for the past few years. My social anxiety issues have been easing up, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm still a NEET.I don't really know how to change, because I've never done this before. For years I keep saying I'll change this time but I never do.I'm writing this late into the night. I have a bad case of ADHD but I never really get a chance to take my ADHD meds because I wake up too late into the day. I was given prescription sleeping pills but I hate taking them since I get some pretty bad hallucinations. So I just stay up all night. I just like how quiet the night is and I prefer to work/social media/vidya at night but this doesn't let me fit into society.I don't know what to do. I'm thinking of maybe getting a basic job at a McDonalds or something just to try and get my life together even a little bit. Hopefully I'll at least be able to meet new people every day.I've uninstalled the social media apps off my phone too. I feel like that one scene in the Truman show where the radio starts speaking stuff about him and he starts to realize something's up. I'm becoming more aware of the fact that I'm just living through a 6 inch rectangular lens in the palm of my hands, and that I'm not really living, but rather spectating what other people are doing through this lens. But everyone nowadays just uses Instagram DMs to chat so I feel like I've just lost my connection to my friends.I keep thinking of killing myself too. Today it was pretty hard but I keep hanging on in hopes that I can change. Someday.Sorry for the blogpost /adv/, what should I do?
Hey anon, I feel ya on the night owl peaceful feeling. I have the same comfort in the night. I feel like getting a entry level gig would be great. If you go into anything try to keep it local. You meet a lot of cool people and it is easier to be yourself when you don't work under a corporate entity. Added bonus is it can network you into the local city scene and that has endless perks. That's my suggestion, lots of people are in the same boat as you. It's just a matter of adapting to it and trusting not everybody is out to get you,
I think shame and fear play a huge part in my life and drive avoidand behaviors like OP describes being a NEET which is a kind of avoidant behavior because on the one hand you want to pursue things and on the other you feel like not being good enough.
>>34614021Getting a basic job is a good idea. Maybe warehouse jobs instead of McD's. They might even have a night shift
>>34614021Whatever you're not doing, do.Whatever you're doing, don't.
>>34614149This is bad advice. Usually there are reasons for why somebody does what he does. You cant just invalidate
>>34614021Don't kill yourself, man. Life will get better.
