I turn 30 next year and have nothing in life. I have no friends, no social life, no job etc. I make enough of government benefits to never have to work (i don't live like a king i eat basically oatmeal and rice and rest goes on rent) and basically have spent the last 2 or so years rotting away. I'm ugly and short so won't ever get a girl (I tried everything) and since I have no one i don't see a point in working because what would I even use that money on if i could even find a job in this economy in the first place (i was laid off my tech job 2 years ago, tried to seriously apply for a year and just decided to fuck it and get on benefits since i could not find a job).So my question is, what does a guy like me do? Do i just keep rotting away, i tried very hard to make a life for myself, friends, girlfriend etc, but my severe autism coupled with my ugly looks don't mesh well. Before muh "it's what's on the inside that matters" arguments, i learned the brutal way that no it isn't, and this recent looksmaxxing trend just proves it. I'm considering taking out a few big loans and going on one giant splurge vacation before just taking some fentanyl and clocking out. I just don't see how i will ever have a life or anyone else in it. If anyone else is/was in my situation who somehow managed to make something of themselves and find attachment, I'm open to trying again if i can find that hope, if not I'm probably just gonna go through with my plan.
>>34627768>before just taking some fentanyl and clocking outAt least take some normgroids with you.
>>34627816I believe everyone has a right to choose when/how they go out, mass shooters are mostly retards who force their own retarded beliefs on others. Why would i want another person to feel the same shit i feel on a daily basis? that won't make me feel better
>>34627768If you don't make it better, it never gets better.
>>34627863Nigga you won't be feeling anything anymore
>>34627816I wonder if there is a single picture of him where he doesn't look insane
>>34627768I was a NEET and my life was nothing until i was 29its never over
>>34627863>"I want to kill myself because I am a loser nobody cares about">"I will make sure to do it in a way that will affect absolutely no one"You are retarded.
>>34627768I felt like you at about the same age, too. Hopeless and didn't see the point of trying.Your problem is you listen to your own negative voice and take it for granted that it's the truth. You believe that you can never have a girlfriend, that you will never get a job, that there's no point to life if you can't get those things. None of that is necessarily true.You have three choices: Give up and end it, keep going as you are, or make an attempt with the chance you've got. What's the point in doing anything other than the last? You're going to die one day either way, even if you fail what's the harm in trying?You don't need to have a girlfriend or a good job for your life to have meaning. And not long after I gave up on girls and stopped caring I managed to get a gf. I finally managed to get myself to work towards a real career and am 2 years into it. I'm now engaged, I moved out, moved state, did a course and now am in an apprenticeship. It's a lot harder than being a miserable NEET but you better believe it's a lot more satisfying. There is always beauty and meaning to be found in life. In nature, stories, art, human relationships, mastery of a skill, physical pursuits and competition. Pick your poison. Take the chance now because it will be gone once you've off yourself>>34631893>I'm considering taking out a few big loans and going on one giant splurge vacationI dunno, (((they))) won't like that one
>>34627768>Before muh "it's what's on the inside that matters" arguments, i learned the brutal way that no it isn't, and this recent looksmaxxing trend just proves it.The fact that a bunch of crazy people believe something crazy doesn't make it less crazy.Look, I'm obese, autistic, mentally ill, exactly average height for where I live, not in any way good-looking, and certainly not rich. Approaching my 24th birthday, I was a full-blown khhv incel. I now have a body count of 40, and I'm 13 years into a lovely relationship with a very nice Italian woman. And I didn't suddenly become better looking, or taller, or richer. All that changed was A: I gradually realised that everything I thought I knew about women and what they want was simply wrong, and B: I learned how to convincingly fake being confident. And that was it; just that. If you can appear confident (you don't have to *be* confident, just fake it convincingly) you're 75% of the way there; if you can also be funny, or at least entertaining company, then it's easy.
>>34632001>Look, I'm obese, autistic, mentally ill, exactly average height for where I liveBe honest, do you have a big dick? I feel like that is the only thing that will make women excuse seeing a man that is otherwise below-average.You just know if you see an ugly short guy with a girlfriend that he is packing something in there. No way a woman would ever date someone with something small or even average.
>>34627768Some day you will wish you were in the bad times you are having now because the new bad times are so bad.
>>34632231>Be honest, do you have a big dick?No. Exactly average size. Not that this would make any difference: a woman decides whether she wants sex or not before she sees your dick for the first time.
>>34627768it gets better when you make it better. get a purpose or a goal and start doing it. then life opens up.t. 37 and honestly life really opened up for me at 30, made many of the best friends i've ever had when i just started doing what i love. now i have a really active social life and have gone on all kinds of adventures
how can i open up my life if i don't even have any money for new experiences and if i will for some miracle find a job then i will not have the time or the energy anymore?
>>34627768There is a movie called "About a boy" specifically about your situation.
You need to go to university againIn university setting you can speak to people, meet girls, go to parties and have fun in generalEverything is possible there, everything good in life is waiting for you in university. Job is worthless, it's just a burden and a cage that keeps you isolated from socializing, it's university that's key to happiness. The only point of work is to save up enough money to quit it and go to uni again - so if you live in a country where you get money anyway you should just go to uni right away and have fun right away. I would kill someone right now to just be enrolled in uni right now. If I could pay my mortage off unemployement alone I wouldn't ever do anything but go to uni all the time. >I'm considering taking out a few big loansYou're unemployed, banks dont give loans to unemployed or people who have much credit already you retard.
>>34632696you some kinda oracle?
>>34632773not op but i did that, went back to uni at 30 and i made a tight group of nerd friends but that's it. It's the same kind of people i always befriended, the virgins who play vidya all day. Did not befriend any girl, chad or normie that could have changed my lifestyle. Let's be honest if you like me and op are in this position at 30 you have a specific personality and issues that can only attract certain people. An autistic loser at 20 is still an autistic loser at 30
