I don't even care if I get called a fag for complaining about it here, but I know fuck else to do. My sister is a sociopath. Let's call her sarah; both me and sarah are strong headed stubborn assholes, just like dad, so obviously we get into arguments a lot. The thing about sarah is that she's so fucking mean to our mom. Yes, call me a retard momma's boy later but read me first, some shit happened yesterday that's got me fucked up. My auntie is off dying in a hospital, very sad, she's late seventies so it's expected. And mom just came back from visiting her three states away by plane. So, mom's feeling like shit mentally and physically too. My mom's in her late sixties, got some chronic leg pain and was a working woman for most of her life due to our dead-beat dad. in essence; it fucked her up to go visit my auntie. My sister, seeing mom on the bed trying to rest, gets the idea that she can't find a pair of her shoes. Mom had JUST sat down, and had put everything she had packed for the trip on a corner of the room in three bags. I hear them start to argue from downstairs; Sarah's fucking UNDOING the bags because she can't find her shoes, despite the fact that mom (this woman doesn't yell often) is screaming at her that she just got her things in order and to not do that. She continues to do so, telling her something about how it's just shoes and she has to find them. The thing about sarah is her tone; she always speaks over you in a preachy way. She makes it sound like it's YOUR fault for being upset. She speaks over mom, who's screaming, in this preachy tone while continuing to do the thing with no regards for what the tired woman fucking wants. (Sarah's shoes were in her car, instead of the bags that mom took on a several day out of state trip.)The thing about ME, is that I have anger issues
>>34628789what are you actually asking? just don't be a sperg, try help out your mom and sister without complaining. Women are high maintenance, don't act like one.
>>34628811stop letting her tone affect you, or you'll be ashamed when you remember this. try be a peacemaker, or stay silent.
My anger issues get in the way of my breathing; some cunt (dad) smoked like an ass when i was young and the second hand fucked my development. Whenever Sarah talks in that preachy tone it pisses me off, which causes me to breathe heavily, which causes me to feel like i can't breathe alongside seeing red. The seeing red part of it is pretty regular anger issues I guess; Heart palpitations, screaming, talking shit, threatening to kill people, regular scumbag stuff (two of my front teeth are chipped because of this). So I'm down there, heartbeats activated and lungs fucked up I lose my cool and just think to myself "we would be better off with her dead". I stay a solid twenty minutes downstairs at that point because I feel like shit now. I can't breathe, i'm angry, and I feel disgusted because I was about to stomp up the stairs. Even though I'd likely get my ass beat, there was a genuine moment where I wanted to HURT my sister. I'm trying not to drink as much so I chug down a mineral water and I hear Sarah come down and sit in the living room. I get stuck there, just standing like a retard because I got scared that if I see her I would have done something bad. I WANTED to do so, over her being unpleasant to our mom.It's been shit like this for years anons, she's in her late thirties. My mom doesn't defend herself when she gets pushed around because she's used to getting taken advantage of, and I get so fucking unreasonably angry on her behalf because I saw my mom get fucked over and over by family members as a youth. I don't want to have these kind of thoughts of "we'd be better without (insert person here)" anymore because I hate being a violent person. But Sarah is simply not a good person; she was unemployed for several years after returning from the military, leeches off of us, leaves us to pay her debts (couldn't go to non-community college because we had to pay her shit off), and the simple rudeness to our mom just breaks me. How do I make it stop
I WANT to find a way to kick her out of the house, or at least stand up for my mom but I can't do it because I am a fucking wacko. Does anyone here have advice (that doesn't include therapy, already tried and it doesn't work) on how to fucking get her to see that she's a bitch and to stop being one? or any advice on how I myself can stop being a bitch, man up, and stop getting lost in some schizoid anger shit every single time my sister is a bitch? that's my questions.
Fuck it, this thread was a mistake. I obviously just wrote this to throw myself a pity party. Never mind.
unironically smoke weed, realize how submissive your mother is, how pointless it all is and move out
>>34628789show "sarah" feet
>>34628830For me I don't really see red or get angry, its more like I just get impulsive. I don't really feel any emotions at all either. I remember when my grandmother died I played "Beat my Grandma with a pumpkin." Kek. Good times.
>>34628789And what did you do about, just watched it happen? Either commit to not giving a shit instead of seething with anger or confront and tell your sister what you really think about her, citing that example.
