>>34630071
I think you should stop looking at porn. Try that for a few months, see if the cock-sucking urges have gone away, and report back

>>34630071
Dont gays have standards, too? That seems like a weird reason to want to suck dick. And what satisfaction would you get from it?

If you're fantasizing about men regularly and don't fantasize about women, and don't want to be near them, it sounds a lot like you're just gay. I'm not going to tell you it's wrong or isn't wrong, but I know if you lie to yourself about what you want it makes you a bitch.

You realize you can be bisexual right? Your (lack of) attraction to men has nothing to do with your (lack of) attraction to women.

By your own account you have been fantasizing about this for four years, I do think you just want to do it. What are the odds that you picked up this specific act (and no other formerly unthinkable act or kink in the four years since) from porn? From what I know from real porn addiction, it is not uncommon to reach a stage where most if not all porn turns you on simply for having that explicit and sexual vibe. But I have never heard of exclusively adapting one new genre as a symptom of addiction.

Do realize that it is not possible to know in advance what it would bring you to suck someone off. Yeah okay maybe you love it right away and you know for sure it is more than a passing fantasy or curiosity. But if you do not like the experience, how can you be sure it was the act of fellatio you (always) hate and it was not just the guy, his attitude, his level of hygiene whatever that ruined the experience for you? After all, not like straight people would enjoy oral sex with every single person of the opposite sex. So be prepared that if you want to try it, you could just be left with one experience more and a lot more questions rather than having found the singular answer.

>>34630253
Just realized I did not give you advice for how not to think about sucking cock but afaik there isn't an answer to that. I have lurked a lot of internet for a long time and people asking how to get rid of taboo/shameful fantasies or fetishes is really really common. I have never seen an actual solution and sexuality also tends to thrive on the forbidden fruit factor so it seems like trying to shame you into no longer liking something often backfires to abstaining for a while and then 'relapsing' and feeling all the more shameful pleasure. It can even intensify fantasies.

For any compulsive recurring thoughts the standard therapeutic advice is to try to go more the meditative route, not try not having the thoughts but letting them pass as wind over a landscape, simply registering them without emotion or judgment or thought, so they can also most quickly slip our mind again. The judging/emotion etc is after all a way of investing in the concept too, anything you pay attention to grows and all that.

>>34630071
Ur bi and the only gay thing would be to be in the closet and then when ur drunk he gonna accidentally like touch ur friends dick bro and then ur a fag if ur open about it and own ur love for sucking dicks ur a Chad because a Chad does what thou wilt

i got over it by getting a mean goth gf who will "force" me to blow guys from grindr once in a while. you can get it down to a few times a year but it never goes away

>>34630165
desu I was thinking the same thing. Maybe it's just my over consumption of futanari porn has been messing with my mind a bit. But honestly the first real rabbit hole I felt down was after some futa porn as a teenager I think that messed me up.

>>34630168
>.And what satisfaction would you get from it?
Reflecting a bit upon it. I think the satisfaction I'd get from it is quite simple. To make that cock feel good, to make whoever is the owner of such cock to feel bliss. The feeling is quite intoxicating to be honest. But I think it's the fantasy speaking louder than reason here.
One bit that I mention why I think it's porn addiction was because I'm not really attracted to the male body at all.
I can still appreciate the overall form and shape but nothing really past that.

>>34630253
>>34630261
I do want to do it! I would love to do it. But at the same time, I would feel so damn weird and awkward after the fact. That is why I need to shut those thoughts away, and not look back.
>What are the odds that you picked up this specific act (and no other formerly unthinkable act or kink in the four years since) from porn?
I feel like cocksucking or cocklust is the only that really stuck with me after all this time. As for the others, you could just say "eh" and move on but when we fall back into this topic something inside of my brain just isn't able to let go. And it's annoying because for the other stuff just thinking about it for a short also invoke the same type of emotion, just a fleeting "whatever". However I can't do the same with cock.

And you bring some very good points. Maybe this whole "quit this x fetish" can spire into another rabbit hole and further reinforce the whole kink. Interesting suggesting meditation. Maybe abstaining and trying to be porn free while not giving those thoughts a room inside of my mind seems like a very good way to move forward. I take it it's not your first time giving advice to someone on how to quit?

>>34630375
Thankfully I don't drink and I would feel grossed out by touching any of my friends!

>>34630936
And how do you deal when those feelings come back? Did you even enjoy your time with those guys? Where you trying to quit wanting to suck cock as well?

>>34630071
You mentioned futa porn. Maybe you don't actually want to suck dicks per se, but rather want to make your partner feel good.
You also said you don't like being with girls, which like you said probably stems from a low self-esteem. Have you never had a female friend?
I think you probably aren't really gay, but you fantasize about it due to an idealized, unrealistic vision born from porn.
I recommend trying to avoid it for a while, or at least trying to change what you see to something else. It likely is porn addiction.

Be careful with these fetish rabbit holes, it's easy to get lost and over-indulge oneself.

shitpost answer?: date a pre op transgender woman?

>>34630071
>How can I stop thinking about sucking a cock?
By admitting to yourself that you're bisexual and actually sucking one.

>>34630071
Just try it anon

>>34630071
stop looking at porn, it wont completely remove your urges but it will definitely make them less frequent.

>Should I try it once and move on with it?

I feel like trying it yourself will either exacerbate your problem or remove it completely depending on your experience. So if i were you I'd wouldn't take that risk without thinking about it a bit more.

>>34630071
>>34631269
This is just a faggot exhibitionist thread, shame on you for spamming this fake bullshit, just go to /lgbt/ you dumb bastard