It is incredibly difficult to not use the internet as a time waster and emotional supressor to forget how meaningless, empty, lonely and boring my life is. I try (very faintly) to commit to hobbies and long-term goals but often fail miserably, and then double down on tech usage after that. I've been stuck in many circular patterns where my attempts to escape from bad habits ended up leaving me even worse than before. Anyone here went through something similar to this? I
>>34635772Life is a series of distractions.
>>34635772It's time to go outside.
>>34635772I'm not better than you in terms of hobbies but wasting time feels OK when you've been workingNot saying that what I'm doing now is the best use of my time but I don't care
So you can identify that your life is meaningless and boring and you can identify that hobbies and long-term goals would remedy that. So it's only a question of discipline. Your dopamine receptors are fried from the escapism which makes anything that isn't instantly rewarding much harder to commit to. But you literally have the answer. You need to actually commit. You are lucky that you have hobbies and goals you wish to commit to, many in your situation don't. Be strict with yourself, and start small. Commit to a hobby for 30 minutes every single day, no excuses. Just be consistent. Reward yourself after you've done it. You will eventually realize how satisfying seeing the progress and accomplishments you attain this way is, and how much better it feels than scrolling. And it will get easier and easier to fill your days with equally meaningful things.
>>34635878>I'm not better than you in terms of hobbies but wasting time feels OK when you've been workingI have been a NEET for a while now, so, even during days that I felt were "productive", I still feel like I waste a lot of time. Also, take into account that I'm overly self-critical/perfectionistic.>>34636039>Your dopamine receptors are fried from the escapism which makes anything that isn't instantly rewarding much harder to commit to. Yeah, true. I started watching porn and gaming at like 8. I'm 23 now.Any tips on how to deal with mood swings? When I try to cut down on escapism I oftentimes get into rage fits. Last month I literally punched a window and got 4 stitches on my hand.
>>34636196On the escapism part, the best solution I found was to work out. I personally do cardio, but after every workout I feel amazing. The goal should be to set a goal which doesn’t really feel possible at first, struggle for the first couple of days, then eventually hit that goal. For me that was running at 6.5mph for 45 minutes, but you could taylor that to your specific needs. After you work out, you will feel amazing and will have very little urge to actually “escape”.
>>34636196Damn, we're a bit similar.I tried starting a campfire today... but the wood was too damp. My bad. I feel stupid, like an abject failure. I feel I've lost my edge and should just be eaten by a mountain lion or something. I went into a rage fit as well, hitting myself, some manly tears, staring blankly at a wall with hatred in my eyes.
>>34635772Im the exact same way. Ive come to the conclusion that doing hobbies that you dont give a shit about just for the sake of having hobbies is dumb. I still regularly exercise tho, even if I dont enjoy it.
>>34638425>On the escapism part, the best solution I found was to work out. I personally do cardio, but after every workout I feel amazing. Yeah, I agree. The so called "runner's high" and the sense of accomplish after a run are nice feelings. >>34638808The problem with being lonely like this is that there's no one around to keep you "in check", so things tend to get progressively worse. But, to be honest, cutting my hand was somewhat cathartic. For a few minutes my mind was weirdly calm and focused on the problems at hand (bleeding and pain)
