Ever since I was a teenager—and even before that—I’ve been trying never to let my mind go quiet, to always have something on my mind. Why? Because if I don’t, I start thinking. To think about my life—what I’m doing, where I am, where I’m going—what if something goes wrong, or if I ruin a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, or if this happens, or if that happens? I really hate stopping to think and filling my mind with questions I don’t have answers to, or with real ones that I know I can’t solve.But it all boils down to one question—it all gets processed and consumed by a single one, the worst of them all: “What’s the point?” There’s nothing that can fill that void; I’ve never had anything or anyone who could say, “Yes, this is why.” But it hasn’t always been empty, and I feel it weighing on me more and more. For a couple of years now, I’ve been unable to shut off my brain at will, and now I’m constantly on my phone, doomscrolling to avoid thinking about anything. I always have to have something; I always have to be doing something—otherwise, I’ll start questioning myself again, over and over, without stopping.
>>34637188Murder-suicide. Next question.
>>34637194getting a gun on my country it's hard , so i don't know really .
>>34637194He sounds too smart to be doing shit like that.
>>34637200Wait really? Just like that you'll consider what I say?First things first you should probably move to a country that doesn't suck ass.
>>34637265I'm gonna laugh when Russia demands you get a life harder than what the U.S. would do to you.
>>34637265China is even funnier.
>>34637188Trying not to think is the reason you haven't discovered what the point is. How do you expect to find something when you go out of your way to avoid looking? Odds are, you've already come across somebody who could tell you what the point to life is, but due to your unfamiliarity with the topic you just weren't able to understand it or recognize that what they were saying is true. The point of life, and the source of all genuine happiness, is moral perfection and self mastery. When you learn to love goodness for goodness's sake and see it as an end in itself, you'll never have those kinds of worries again.
>>34637188Drugs
