When I was 8 years old in 2015 my 3 year old little sister died and my parents and other siblings still whine and cry about it. How do I tell them to shut up about it without sounding like an asshole. Oh no the little generic toddler who can barely talk died wahhh how sad. Shut the fuck up. She'd probably be a whore by now since all teens are whores nowadays.
>>34639176It should have been you
>>34639176You sound like a broken sad person. Get professional help, hopefully that stops it.
>>34639176You are probably gonna get called a heartless asshole for what you admitted but I know how trauma and grief from this sorta shit works. I don't think you are that type of person. You wish you were to cover the emptiness though. You really cared about her didn't you? That's why you don't like them talking about her death. It's because you don't want reminded of the hole that was punched in your heart that day when you were a naive and innocent 8 year old and the walls tumbled down and your image of stable family got a chunk kicked out of it.I think out of all the family, that death probably terrified you the most. One minute you have an adorable 3 year old sister, the next she's gone. Her little coats and hats still hung up, yet knowing she's never going to play in puddles again. Infant bed empty, no sister at home, never coming home again. You were only 8 when you had to confront finality and permanent sudden death, and it was the death of someone who was only 3. Your sister. That's why you're pissed off. Because anger is how you felt at something so fucked up happening, and now you just feel anger whenever she is brought up because you don't want to remember the sting of that death any more. You justify the death, saying she'd have just turned out to be a whore. That's your traumatized and twisted way of saying "She at least escaped this fucked world. She won't have to live to see her own innocence destroyed." But you're doing that thing where you make her memory an enemy or the target of your anger. And you do that because it helps you divorce the painful feelings of missing her from the reality. You can't miss someone you force yourself to be mad at. Right? Anyway I'm sorry you lost her. I am.
