24M, med student.3 years ago I was one of the better students in my class. Learned fast, had good grades, exercised, and generally felt like I was moving forward in life.Since coming to college I've basically stagnated or regressed in every area. Started smoking weed and cigarettes heavily for a few years, stopped taking care of myself, became physically weaker, and my academics have declined significantly.The bigger issue is socially. I'm extremely passive. In group conversations I'm usually the silent observer. I'm afraid of saying something stupid, so I rarely voice my opinions. When people disagree with me I immediately back down. Most of the time I just nod and agree with whatever everyone else says.I feel like I've lost confidence in my own judgment. It's gotten to the point where I don't even know whether I'm actually shy, socially anxious, or just weak-willed.
>>34639969>med studentI used to be the smartest guy in hs, the decided to start med school. i made a couple years then left it. That shit was getting me anxious on all levels. Now I am almost 40, i have a decent job but sometimes It jsut bugs my mind that i left med school and should try it again.
>>34639969>Started smoking weed and cigarettes heavily for a few yearstop this, especially the former> When people disagree with me I immediately back down. this is smart, arguing is a waste of time, unless you mean with close friends, you should feel comfortable enough around them
>>34639969get off weed, your metabolizing is probably slowing down now. start exercising to make up for it, or you will get fat.
>>34639969>What should I do to become what I want to be ?That which is necessary, one step at a time
