>>34645674
Any advice you get here, including my own, will be highly subjective and might not work for you the way it did for others. Despite that, I will still make some recommendations just in case they help.

>The following is a list of things that make me less suicidal in the order of their effectiveness (1 being the most effective)
1. Consuming media containing themes similar to my own life experiences or obstacles
2. Overcoming life obstacles, big and small
3. Working
4. Watching near death experience interviews on youtube
5. Watching Jordan Peterson's lectures on biblical analysis and subsequent bible study
6. Recreational activity like playing videogames

I personally recommend that you watch a few NDE (near death experience) interviews on youtube. Explained simply, they are a collection of accounts made by people who are resuscitated after death claiming to have seen the other side. I am not implying they are real or that they're evidence of an afterlife, I'm just saying they are worth checking out.

I am not religious either, I am at best agnostic. Hope this helps, feel free to ask me any questions; I'll be checking on this thread throughout the day.

>>34645674
Learning how to love growth for its own sake, and how to see painful experiences as valuable lessons for the sake of growth, is what helped me. I had suicidal thoughts multiple times a day every day for over 30 years of my life, until thankfully I had the realization that I was grateful for everything I've learned during that time. I would never want to go back to being the person I used to be, which means I'm much better off for the life that I've had up until now. And by that same token, after another 30 years of learning, growing, and striving to better myself I'm sure I'll look back and yet again be thankful that things didn't end prematurely.