I like to love, but I don’t like being loved. Is there a word for this?
>>34646350Servile, maybe. People pleaser. Door mat. Something to that effect anyway. Anyway don't worry about it, I was the same way when I was young and stupid and drunk with my own issues from a weird upbringing. You get over it eventually, nothing is permanent in life not even fucked up attachment styles. It irons itself out and you learn passively through experiences.
>>34646377I'm 28 already
>>3464638028 is still young. Try mid 30's. That's usually when your brain shakes off old dysfunctional patterns. I wanna take a complete wild guess and shoot from the hip. Were either one of your parents alcoholic?
Did you have bad or painful experiences in your past under the guise of "being loved"?
>>34646419Well most of my relationship were very short and I was the bad guy in all of them.My father left my family when I was like 8. Brother left with his girlftiend. Mom worked a lot.
>>34646387>Were either one of your parents alcoholic?No
as another anon mentioned attachment styles, i thought this book has been helpful at least adding a vocabulary to some of the things i feel and see. you might learn something from the book like you are an anxiously attached person who's drawn to avoidant people because their aloofness affirms your own perception that you're a needy unlovable person. idk you, but try the book out or some yt videos about attachment theory.
>>34646350abusive
>>34647737Why
it's called being a coward, hope that helps
>>34646350Low self esteem.You hate yourself so you think anyone who loves you must be fucking retarded therefore you hate them too
