Why do I want to stop being depressed but find it just as easy to lay in bed and do nothing as going on huge hikes and adventures? I explore the land but the area in which I live is always filthy, and mentally, I am not even there. I mindlessly clock into work, and absentmindedly go out in public, to a show or a hike, I cannot capture joy. Like its there, but I cannot see it.
>>34651511I think I do this too. I explore for the sake of it but don't get anything out of it any more I'm basically just doing it because physical exhaustion distracts me from my thoughts and to get rid of that bagging feeling that I should "do something".
>>34651511All that "not really there" stuff just sounds like a symptom of depression, same with ahedonia. You want to not be depressed, but clinical depression changed how your brain works so you find it very very easy to act depressed
