they're so hot and rapeable I get you, my type is autists and I can't understand why.. maybe I'm autistic too

>>34654302
I want to put an ice pick to my head to stop this

if I do indulge the connection and get with them, they will ruin my life, I'll need to wipe their ass for all the social missteps they commit. as opposed to finding someone more normie and well-adjusted who my family would love (and who I get bored of in minutes tops)

the fuck do I do

>>34654296
are you male or female tho? this is important info

>>34654362
foid

>>34654324
>they will ruin my life, I'll need to wipe their ass for all the social missteps they commit
WDYM?

>>34654414
Well as a guy I don't know. I feel the same way about women
When I talk to a woman, even one off here, who seems normie (cadence when speaking, general vibe) I just can't feel much attraction towards them even if theyre attractive/more attractive than slightly autistic women.
That being said I agree about the whole not wanting to wipe their ass or being embarrassed by their fuckups etc. bit.

I'm not going to act like I'm not a retard but I try to be relatively normal. I think it's just a matter of finding autists that can mask well and try to fit into society

>>34654567
maybe im catastrophising but some of them say stuff that is just weird af, are gullible as hell and as someone who's been masking all my life I am hypersensitive to that shit. but goddamn if they aren't cute. it's awful

>>34654654
Just find some tech nerd that has his life together, he'll say some stupid shit from time to time but you know he can take care of himself and you don't need to mommy him

>>34654296
Psychopaths or people on the psychopathic spectrum are naturally drawn to autistic people. Initially for obvious reasons, they are gullible and naive and exude a sense of innocence about them. They are so naive they can't even see their own good traits or valuable character assets, they just view life through this moody almost child-like fog of pouting misery and bleakness. Yet despite the fact their inner world is one of immensely dark fog, despite getting treated like lepers and freaks by greater society, they have this little glint of gold in their aching empty hearts. They still somehow managed to hold onto humanity in a circumstance that should have killed it off and turned them psychopathic and ambivalent yet they keep surviving, hit after hit after hit.

And to a psychopathic type, that's generally attractive and enviable because our smile was taken before we learned to talk and yet the autist is this mythical awkward butterfly that dances through life like a pretty distraction and we give chase to it. Something about them gives us this weird sense of hope. That maybe they can show us how they did that how they didn't lose their soul. How to be innocent again and naive again. Something like that.

So you wind up falling for them. Not feeling emotional love since your heart doesn't exist anymore but the closest thing to it mental love, knowing you love them but not feeling it. Over time the more you get closer and closer, bonding deeper and deeper, you start to feel warmth in your chest. And it's terrifying because for some reason the autist has this ability to give you your heart back. And the implications for that are too big to think about. Some psychos run away some stay. But either way, one thing is certain: we don't dare fuck with autists. We may manipulate and cheat and lie to normies. But autists are too pure for that. We leave em alone

>>34654681
I hate your comment. Right as I'm about to seriously unmask out of necessity for the first time in my life which is not together.

>>34654687
Any time bby

>>34654681
the trouble is the stupid shit is what I like about them, even though I'd feel panic taking them to a dinner party

>>34654567
>WDYM
In psycho speak it means:
"I am afraid to gain feelings for the autist. I am scared to care. Because if I care, I will have to protect them. And I know that means I would even protect them even if it cost me my life. I would have to fight the entire world that punished them."

>>34654687
Are you the cute tech nerd the legends speak of?

>>34654701
kinda curious, what do you look for in these guys?
and no im not offering or asking, just wondering because you sound like the kind of girl id go for. sadly i dont think most autistic chicks are really into me that way and when they are, they turn out to be too young.

>>34654705
im >>34654707 again
god damn that's one of my fears dating a woman as a guy who feels like it's hard to connect with others in this world. I dont want to drag a woman down with me and have her eventually resent who i am
fuck this

>>34654705
yeah, can't be fucked to fight the world for one autist. except that I find myself a million times less fucked to fight it for anyone else. rationally this is a problem. I am making life harder for myself and I'm ashamed of this proclivity to make suboptimal decisions

>>34654708
It makes you valuable though. Being a dark hearted bastard means you are someone who knows how to fight through darkness. Since it's all you understand. That has "good husband/father" material written all over it. Because there are times when life becomes horrific that no one can avoid. Death, tragedy, chaos, unnecessary pain. Those moments require someone to act. And the only one who can act to move obstacles in that moment, it's the guy who has lived in that moment forever, aka someone who is from the underworld.

>>34654709
You fight it together. You be the left eye to their right eye. They fill in for your missing heart, you fill in for their missing foresight and cunning. Together you can become unstoppable.

>>34654707
well if you must, it's not so much what I look for as what strikes me before I've consented. it's more an atmosphere than a collection of traits. a visible ramping up of warmth before they're comfortable in my presence. weird fucking tangents that are unperformed (critical). a certain unrelenting observance underneath the apparent guilelessness, often directed at entirely the wrong subject altogether (can't see forest for the trees type shit). some hyper-fixation, inevitably. technical subjects like abstract math are my kryptonite but I'm sure others differ in preference. low ego towards being corrected, which goes hand in hand with the whole ineptitude with playing the social hierarchy game. almost always an interest in languages and/or music, but not necessary. bluntness to the point of rudeness, but never maliciously. a uncanny ability to focus on you and only you when they decide you make them feel safe and can riff with them. which guiltily, I find entrancing.

get on wattpad if you want to read more, because I'm never writing such sappy bullshit here ever again

>>34654714
I disdain people who've never seen the underworld but I'm wary of people who live there, it's not good.

>>34654729
I know the feeling. To know the person is capable yet never knowing if they are willing. So you do the strange psycho-on-psycho dance of mutually making sure neither person gives a reason to make the other willing to attack. Walking on the spooky eggshells lol. It's why we avoid each other out in the wild I think. But I am glad that we can briefly share intel and agree that autists are absolutely lovely. They're like cherubs or something. And I am gladdened to know that other psycho-spirited people are out there who also admire and agree they are a treasure not to be harmed. But what of the normies who keep smearing shit on them? What is to be done about them? Every time I see a normie instantly have bad faith for the autist when it's obvious the autist is bleeding mentally, seeing normies angry at them for it. Makes me want to tear someone's face off

>>34654735
yeah to such normies it's like: pick a battle with someone who can actually fight you, coward.

>>34654742
Yes, exactly. They (normies) act as though they understand depth. Yet they can't see beyond the Autist's mask, can't tell that behind their aloofness or irritability or cold front is an extremely warm and supple soul that's trying to communicate. It's the normie hypocrisy I despise and why I feel zero guilt when all I need to do is wear a fake front of sociable agreeableness and the normies can't see what I really am under it. Except somehow autists see it. They see it and they unconditionally give affection anyway. They don't mind what I am. Normies though, they react the same as the peasants in Frankenstein, they only want to see monsters and that's all so that's what they deserve

>>34654714
A new poster in this thread, but thanks anon, it's rare for anyone to acknowledge how hard it is for people on the spectrum trying to remain hopeful in a world hostile to them and commend their virtues

>>34654849
No problem. And thank you for suffering, I respect your struggle, good to know that there are those like you who keeps the candle lit. The world might be worth it so long as your kind stay in it.

>>34654709
>>34654724
thanks. there's someone I like now and I didn't expect to like her so much based on our text conversations.
its just kinda unfortunate ive gotten old and jaded and lost touch with most of my interests

>>34654296
As someone who definitely isn't a normie but isn't basement dweller presenting, I implore you to stop feeling guilty about liking people with quirks. I keep falling for the same type of women, but they end up always not being straight so I get rejected. I cried for like the first time in 9 years a few weeks ago due to one of these situations. I'm partially doing this for the autist involved who you might be referring to, but please love without guilt.
>>34654324
But if you never try, then you'll never know if they'd actually do that or not.

>>34655341
interests are sexy, though no problem with just being yourself if you don't have the capacity right to engage in any. it's the authenticity and awkwardness that's most attractive imo

>>34654296

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2OIT1czbuA

>>34654686
This is really interesting to read as an autistic person and seeing how you understand us.