The human brain is a pretty powerful organ. If it believes it has another personality, that personality can literally make your body stronger and smarter when it takes control. How do I develop another personality that is better than the current one?
>>34705292Depersonalisation over prolonged time does the trick but I wouldn't recommend it, I developed that 'second self' when I was about 6 or 7 years old. My mind had to detach from my old identity in order to remain sane, taking with it the connection between thought & emotion. Empathy was fine and I could no longer feel things like fear of others or fear for others, guilt for others, remorse because of others, or regret involving others. Other humans stopped appearing to me as emotionally relatable people and more like puppets that just acted some performance, something more object than person. Though I could still had capacity to connect with others but it would require being extremely close with someone and takes years to build the connection. Which meant I'd only ever had one 'true' friend within any given decade. To get by socially I'd developed heightened cognitive empathy and just played the part of being human. In order to acquire this, you just need to encounter obscene amounts of violence and abuse and trauma up close as a kid, just come from one bad home and that's what you develop to mentally survive. It's not advantageous and it's not fun and yes sure you develop cunning and some intellectual tools to compensate, but whatever gains you obtain from then you feel precisely nothing. You just linger in your own body like a ghost or something. The only "strength" you develop is you can witness brutality and tragedy in front of your face or death and you just don't feel anything, you can keep eating your sandwich or walk past it as if it's just a Sunday afternoon. People who notice what you are label you things like psychopath whether or not you did nothing wrong in your life, they just don't trust you for being that way and you don't trust them for wearing the face of a human. Tl;Dr you're barking up the wrong tree
>>34705316>Empathy was fineEmpathy was fried* It was gone, it gets cut.
>>34705316Fuck, i think your right. I guess I just need to make the current personality stronger.
>>34705321Yeah, and the way to make the primary self stronger is to allow experience to do that for you. If you ever seen the 'Self-Made' man statue, the man chiselling his own body out of the marble, it's to show a man trying to develop his own personality or future. That statue is a lie. It would be more accurate if it depicted rocks or arrows smashing the man free from the marble, those arrows or rocks we could call "life" or "experience". Things outside of the self is what strengthens or grows or adapts your personality. Whether that's people or life events or struggles. If you wish to select what you want to grow into, select the type of people or the physical conditions you wish to expose yourself to and you adapt over time by yourself without doing anything
>>34705321>>34705334Another tip:If you are a male, your self identity will predominantly be defined by actions and capabilities. If you try to internally search for the self or try to adopt therapeutic "self searches" you will always hit a void or empty feeling, like you have 'no-self'.This sort of searching is usually only effective on females since their identities primarily depend on social relations and networking. For males, it's about outward actions, outward achievements, outward skills, outward adventures, you start hoarding experiences or memories of things you had built or climbed or created or destroyed or whatever and over time the self identity is forged through the void.
>>34705398>>34705334What is your background anon? Tell me your life story.
what you're describing has been explained in James Clear's work "Atomic Habits"
>>34705422Too much life to count, most of it not ideal. But the background was lower class bad neighbourhood, street kid, high school dropout, managed to get away from the urban environment at the crucial age, avoiding self sabotage or a life of crime, went full hermit mode for years, did a lot of drugs did a lot of cigarettes did a lot of alcohol alone. Developed a sense of spirituality, quit my former way of life, figured out what had happened to my development, began repairs where possible, integrated second self back into first, still a work in progress, reintegrating into society little by little.
>>34705474Sounds like Thorfinn's journey from Vinland Saga. You're like a blade that's been tempered.
>>34705493I never seen that but heard good things about it. I went and got the summary up for his journey, yeah I suppose it went like that. Not so much fell into violence often though, but you do develop the passive capability and the ability to see it coming a mile away. I think the pathological willingness to act it out would probably be the antisocial side of the fog. Typically a spirit of cold vengeance, seen that before. Usually the system fucks them over bad, they get out the home that destroyed them and they step into a nastier system that exploits them, orphanages or boarding schools I imagine, or just one abusive teacher ignites the spark and they blow into it. Personally I enjoy autists, they're a lot like Guts from Berserk on the inside but a lot of people can't see that
