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what do you do when you love s(...) 07/10/26(Fri)04:06:53 No.34708045

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what do you do when you love someone so much but you can't be with them Anonymous 07/10/26(Fri)04:06:53 No.34708045

>be me, 21 yo retard cursed with aspergers
>decently attractive, conceal retardation in order to attract women
>girl way above my league shows interest in me
>nigga wtf.jpeg
>find out shes a slut that goes bar hopping and gets passed around by guys
>whatever, I’ll just pump and dump
>lie about being a recovering drug addict that does illegal shit in order to raise her interest
>it actually fucking works and she’s borderline obsessed with me
>spend time with her over next few months, begin to actually bond with one another
>finally fuck one day, it was okay
>months go by, radio silence
>last week she hits me up out of nowhere wanting to fuck again
>we fuck, it sucked because I sacrificed my own pleasure to give her a good experience
>”you’re so good at this, anon. You should work for pornhub lol. You’re so hot.”
>she’s so sweet, bubbly and cheerful
>afterwards we talk for hours about life and our coworkers, it was very intimate and genuine
>slowly realize “holy fuck I think I love this woman”
>fantasize about her daily

That’s the gist. I’ve always been a chud so I never thought I’d catch feelings for a slut but I love this girl so much. I’ve never had anyone make me feel the way she does. Sadly it’ll never work out because our lifestyles are incompatible and I’ve already self-sabotaged with all the lying that I won’t be able to back up. I just feel like shit. What was supposed to be a quick fling turned into such a clusterfuck and it just feels awful. I love her so much man. What should I do?