i started going to this drinking club, ive been going a few times a week for the last month. there is a girl there, we can call her Penguin. after meeing Penguin once i quickly developed a big crush on her. the first day we met we went to a party together and she lent me some of her weed. i got very ill and had to sleep. anyway i felt like she tried hard to befriend me. the next day we text, she sends me a lot of messages, paragraphs of messages, so i return with paragraphs of messages giving her as much detailed info as she gave me, as well as asking her follow up questions. then she ghosts me for a week.we meet the next week at the drinking club, she apologises for ghosting, we talk and drink. then the next day she invites me out for a walk, so we go and walk. i text her once or twice over the next week cus i dont wanna get ghosted again, the next sat i ask her if she wants to walk with me, she says yes. during our walk she takes selfies of us on her digital camera, and invites me out to go skating with her.the next day i ask for her to send the selfies, she says they are not ready.the next day i ask the same, she sends them2 days later i ask when she wants to hang out again, she ghosts me for over a day so i send the message 'sorry but i dont wanna be friends with someone who ghosts me, you are cool in person but yeah. bye' and she replies instantly, apologising and saying she rlly wants to be my friend.at the next drinking club, i get too drunk and confess my feelings to the others, ie that i love Penguin, I have a crush on Penguin, etc. a few hours later Penguin shows up. we argue because she thinks i am mad at her (cus of my text), and i say i am not, but that it is shitty to ghost. then this fat woman steps in and tells Penguin i want a relationship with her, but i dont. (i just got out a relationship, i move countries frequently, and there are plenty of other reasons). Penguin goes and sits down, I smoke.cont
>>34709986I go and sit down and Penguin asks me if i am ok, I say 'fuck you'. the others think i am mad because Penguin rejected me, I am not, I already knew she wasn't into me, I was mad because of the constant ghosting. eventually i just leave and go home.the next day I am told that Penguin is frustrated at me, and overwhelmed by how much I texted her (I did not text her often, I have told you here how often I have texted her, but girls tend to twist the truth to paint themselves as a helpless victim). i felt guilty, wanted to apologise to her but was advised to just leave her alone. i am told i should have been honest about my intentions, but i was. i had no intentions of fucking her or being in a relationship with her. it may sound fake or gay but i didnt even think of her in a sexual way. i think she should have been honest about her intentions. she claimed to want to be my friend but then ghosts me for ages, friends dont do that.eventually about half a week later i message her to explain i am sorry for not telling her my feelings towards her, explaining how easily i fall in love, and how i didnt wanna ruin the friendship. she doesnt open my message.today i am invited to the drinking club, i said i didnt wanna go cus things will be akward between Penguin and I, but she is a shit friend anyway. he says 'no, you just wanted to breed her'. like fuck him. so i guess him and her and everyone else there thinks i just wanted her for sex? it is fucking bullshit dude. it would be so easy for me to just text her exactly what i think and feel so she gets my perspective, but girls are creatures who just agree with the consensus and what others around them think, they will believe anything. she will believe them. i dont want her to think i only wanted her for sex or i didnt want friendship. the whole situation sucks. and she wouldnt open my message anyway.cont
>>34709988i dont wanna go to the drinking club anymore because of these people but now i feel like i should just to talk to her and explain to her how i didnt want her just for sex, because she wont open my messages so i cant tell her that way and it is all very frustrating.i make youtube videos for this guy, he is desperate for me to go to his drinking club because i am an english native and his customers wanna meet me, i dont wanna go again since he has treated me like shit and also takes days to open a fucking message. and they all think i am fucking spamming her with messages too, thats how she portrayed it. when really she is just too cowardly and rude to open a message and reply to a conversation she started. anyway guys. i dunno if i need advice or just people to give their perspectives which might make me feel a bit better, cus i think the best thing for me to do is just to try to move on and forget about it, and if i am invited again and go on a day she goes, to explain myself or whatever. honestly id rather punch her in the face and call her a dumb manipulative bitch but i cant rlly do that can i. anyway. thats it, bye
fuck off normalfaggot
