Is there a name for this? Do other people here "struggle" with this too?Basically, if I'm out of a situation or not near a person for some days it feels like it has always been like that and is my new normal. For example, my long-term boyfriend of 9 years. If I take 3 days for myself to just go hermit mode, it feels like I have never been together with him. Like... just me being alone was always the default and the 9 years fade away? It's like this with people, locations, jobs, anything for me really. I could live in a place for 15 years then I move and live in the new place for a week and to my brain it's like I never lived anywhere else.I have no desires for anyone else and my thoughts never wander or any of the sort, it has NOTHING to do with wanting someone else at all. I also don't have autism. Dunno. What is this called?
Solitude is dangerous. It’s very addictive. It becomes a habit after you realize how peaceful and calm it is. It’s like you don’t want to deal with people anymore because they drain your energy.
I don't want to diagnose you here but I have a few questions...Do you have weak emotional responses yo events? Especially things that involve people, like receiving a present from someone. Do you not react to praise or criticism?Do you prefer solitary activities?Do people find you "cold"?How many close friendships do you have?
>>34712771I do have emotional reactions daily. Just looking through poems or sad anime clips and I cry. I cry a lot briefly over the day and then move on.>Do you not react to praise or criticism?Yeah, I don't really care for praise. Criticism can make me a little insecure or mad, but I don't spazz out.>Do you prefer solitary activities?Yes.>Do people find you "cold"?Hmmm, not really. I can perform a liveliness pretty well. I worked as an entertainer in the past.>How many close friendships do you have?No friendships really by my own choice.I guess this hints towards being schizoid? But a lot of it doesn't fit me.
>>34712790>No friendships really by my own choice.Do you feel like you don't need them? Do you view your romantic relationship differently?It's hard to say overall. I don't think what you're experiencing has a name if it's not an effect of symptoms of something like schizoid.
