is there any end to the suffering of starving yourself? how do I either become happy with how I am or change it. if I am skinnier, I will look more like a woman, than I can be happy. why does God put me in a body that I wish to change so much?
Refusing to starve yourself is the only way to stop the suffering.You will never reach a point where you are satisfied with how you look. You will continue to fixate on some small feature of yours and not realize what's happening to the rest of you as you restrict/starve yourself: deterioration. You siphon nutrients nonpreferentially from your whole body when you're chronically undereating/malnourished. Your heart and other organs atrophy (many ED patients have low heart rate and kidney/liver abnormalities). Your bones deteriorate (92% of anorexics have low bone density IIRC). Your brain will also suffer, with the effects being permanent if not addressed early enough. Learning that is what got me to stop starving. I had no idea I was destroying my body. I knew that whatever happiness I thought starving myself brought would be overshadowed (and likely prevented) by the health consequences of eating so unhealthily. I hated not starving myself, and I still do, but I hate the idea of fucking up my body and brain forever just because I was trying to become happy. You said "if I am skinnier [...], then I can be happy." I thought that, too, and it's total bullshit. I was never skinny enough, even when people were concerned over how small I'd gotten. I never got to the point where it made me happy, and neither will you or anyone else with an ED because that's part of the ED. What telling yourself "if X, then I'll be happy" does is train yourself to think you can't be happy if you don't have X, and it's a fucking lie. Whether it's being stand-out attractive, wealthy, smart, etc., no one or two traits are either necessary or sufficient to be happy. I'm back to my old weight now, and I'm able to enjoy sitting outside and watching the adorable critters in the park. I also spend time with friends, listen to my favorite songs, and do fulfilling work. I do all of those without being ultra-attractive or skinny. I can be happy without that, and so can you.
>>34714571The prognosis for eating disorders is very good, if you get the right professional help. https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2024/apr/29/eating-disorder-treatment-recovery
>>34714571If you’re a fatass, trying to lose weight is not an eating disorder. You just don’t know what the fuck you’re doing.Go move around and eat some balanced meals holy shit
>>43714698I forgot to say to get help from a dedicated eating disorder place. Don't go to some random therapist. Schedule an ED intake ASAP. Don't let anything get in the way of making an appt and going to it.I've so glad I got help for myself. I didn't realize how miserable I'd been until I got help and started recovering.
>>34714571>is there any end to the suffering of starving yourself?Carnivore/keto/paleo diets are memed a lot but they are genuinely the best sort of diet for this. If you're eating lean meats and veg exclusively it's almost impossible to eat enough of it to be in caloric surplus. Even if you do set a hard calorie deficit, meat is very satisfying so you don't need to eat a lot to feel full, and most green veggies are basically zero calorie so you can eat as much of those as you want (as long as you don't use sauce/oil/salad dressing).>if I am skinnier, I will look more like a woman, than I can be happy.Oh, you're a troon. Nevermind what I just said, you deserve to suffer. Alternatively, consider a snack of cyanide tablets for your next meal to stave off those food cravings.
