Long time lurker on this board. Anyone who has browsed it has at some point come across a variation of the "Should I hire a hooker" post.Well, I had an experience that is superficially different but I imagine feels all the same and I am wondering if this is a normal reaction or if I am just a nut.To preface, I am 24 now and fresh out of Uni. I have never had much female attention growing up. I hadn't kissed a girl and certainly never fucked. Part of this is lack of trying. I never really bothered asking girls out in grade school and there weren't many I would go for in my classes at Uni. I always told myself I would try more seriously once I was out.As it happened, some family from Cali was in town last weekend and my older cousin invited me for a night in the town. I accepted which is extremely rare for me. We first went out for drinking and I admittedly got pretty shitfaced. Not to the point of vomiting but edging thereabouts. Afterwards we went to a club, where I had to stay outside to sober up before entry, but once I got in, one of my cousins had managed to get a girl to dance with me. I say girl but the fact of the matter is that she was obviously older. I say this not because she looked older, but because she clearly knew how to move. She was practically leading me the whole night. She would press herself against me, lean her head back so that I could kiss on her neck. She would lead my arms around her breast, waist and thighs, and grind on me really hard. Needless, to say, I was getting the works, for practically free, and I don't doubt that if I didn't bail sooner, this could've ended in a cheap motel bedroom since she was doing absolutely everything, reaching and stroking my dick and balls through my pocket fabric once we moved over to a more dimly lit room after dancing for what felt like nothing but was really about an hour and 15.
>>34720236At some point I got self conscious and had to excuse myself. I have felt grossed out by myself ever since. I am a bit of a reader and my idea of romance has been greatly influenced by the romances I have read of in those books. Andrei and Natasha, Maximilian and Valentine, Marius and Cossette. Although I understand these are fictionalized and highly idealized loves, I would hope that my first could at the very least slightly resemble such bold ideas of love, especially after "saving" myself for so long. That night cheapened the experience for me and I feel like I am circling the nihilistic drain. Why would I waste so much of my life building up such an image for it to culminate in this?Am I just being stupid guys or have some of you had similar experiences as well?
>>34720236I went through something pretty similar recently, with a background a lot like yours, OP. I'm probably not as much of a romantic as you are, since I saw it as more of a fun experience than something serious (especially since nothing really happened).Not long after, someone else around my age asked me out. We went on a few dates, but it ultimately didn't work out.Having experienced both situations, I'm still not really sure what romance is. A lot of my friends have partners, and their relationships seem to fit the idea of romance you're describing, but there's only so much you can understand from the outside looking in. Maybe we just need more experience to figure it out for ourselves.
>>34720258>Am I just being stupid guysHonestly, yes.
>>34720258>romances I have read of in those books. Andrei and Natasha, Maximilian and Valentine, Marius and Cossette.Forget all fictionalized verisons of romance. They're popular because they're not real. The real version wouldn't sell any copies, not to mention you are basing your beliefs off of cultural norms that haven't been relevant in 200 years.
