This post was only visible for a portion of the thread due to jannies. Not sure how crucial this information is for me to receive help.
I've lost count of how many schizos this thread harbours. MikeThe Schizo with the Police reports... urhhhhh urhhhhhh I'm sure there are more.
I can hear the lie in your attempt at reassurance. "One day." We've been beaten. It was silly to hope. The only surprise is that we (mostly) held on long as we did.
>>34721273It’s all just one person.
No
seeing a moid who rejected me/was an asshole post about being lonely and doing badly makes me happy, keep posting those Ls
>>34721299I feel guilty about it, but I do get a sense of petty satisfaction seeing the same. It truly is annoying getting ghosted by someone you liked and seeing them hanging out with others, only to have them later complain about being lonely.
Thinking of cutting (slightly) again but I can't do it because it will be suspicious if I can't go in the pool for some days.
Why is >>34721299 using only lowercase while >>34721318 is using uppercase? Is this because I began only using lowercase during January of 2023?
I am sorry, for all that that matters.
>>34721244i like big tiddies. big tiddies make me happy.
i feel worthless and unlovable. my brain is so fucked up. im never going to make it in this life. its so over for me.
>>34721319Do you want to look the best you can for your age, or are you trying to be something you're not
I wish I had died. I think of all the opportunity I had to do it right, every night while everyone slept. I half-assed things and now pay for it.
>>34721402
Stop it. We aren’t beaten. We’re still here.
I've always been a thief and a liar. I take and scheme for what I think I want, then discard and flee when faced with the reality of my stupid desires, leaving chaos and ashes in my wake. Ruiner. Demon.
Fuck. And even now I still do it, the manipulation, the using. Why? Posting my misery here for what? To make you feel a certain way, do something, say something? To...again, what...push me to some sort of finality? Comfort, resolve in death? I wish I stole that journal.
As disgusted as I am by these officers and their lack of initiative I can’t help but sympathize for their children and I hate the thought of their family being torn apart because their dad fucked up really badly. So hopefully they hurry the fuck up, fix this and don’t have to have their life fucked up like mine is.
I'm not a good person, and frankly, I'm not sure if I ever genuinely tried to be, or just couldn't maintain it more than in brief interactions. I should have stayed there alone, hermit.
We can control our worst impulses and not define ourselves by them. You have someone so small and precious who loves you so much. Look to them.
What was I so scared of? Isn't death what I wanted? Wouldn't it have been better were it by your hands?
>>34721299If their unhappiness brings you joy, then you didn't truly love them.
Please stop. I can't have those dying embers of hope fanned to life then doused in water over and over and over. We both know they'd never allow for it.
Sorry I crashed out and started thinking you wanted to kill me.
I can't do this. I feel sick.
You can endure. I swear I’ll fix everything.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I8T3IlxJB54
>>34721299L's? I got head that very night
I feel so alone in life like I can't connect with anyone and when I try to connect it just becomes one sided with me talking about my problems and using them as a safety blanket I just want someone to love me and care about me
I'm not fixable.
>>34721244my friends are really awful to me
>>34721555Why and/or how is that?
I forgive you, Jacob.
Whatever is wrong with her is way better than fixed.
It must be far more comfortable to be an actual psychopath than to have all these stupid feelings turned up to 11.
>>34721555Being happy being alone is usually better.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k20wnICXpps
>>34721555They're not friends then. Found more company in a pub than a discord server.
>>34721586I get how you feel like if I didn't care about others or anything my life would be better then I could do or say whatever I want
Stop making it complicated, just text him and go fuck him.Its more aggravating not to. I wanna fuck him, im going to stop thinking and just do it.
>>34720832Stop larping as maria. You are not and Mike had said several times if you are then put the last 2 digits of his cell. Which you are unable to know because you are not her. Leave Mike and maria to each other
When a good thing goes bad, it's not the end of the worldIt's just the end of a world...
>>34721649Have a good flight. Have you flown before?
If they allow it, it's a trap. They'll follow you. They'll expect it.
>>34721664She'll be fine, I'll protect her. Just don't try to do me any favors for it, I still don't like you.
Maybe you can wear clothing you'd never wear, an unfamiliar silhouette, ball cap shades and a mask lmao. Play like a movie. It's all a big game, a big fucking joke of a game. I'm losing. Lost.
I didn’t know they pursued them too. I was only followed once. Surveilled 5-6 times, only once in the last few weeks since I’ve hermitmaxxed.
>>34721659He's in my city, omw now
Not me or my handlers. Just you & yours. You think they won't pick that up again when they loosen your leash? Like testing a dog's recall?
>>34721686Don't get stds
>>34721689Found the incel
God, I know I shouldn't even be celebrating or laughing at the news, but hearing the group that attempted to ruin my livelihood and name by slandering it start to slowly get their karma has brought me so much pleasure. I feel fucking awful for feeling this way, but I can't help but revel in their slow downfall. Justice is real, and it's GOLD.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wN_nPmq7pSE
I had one weekend without restrictions, then they brought them back. They don’t monitor me regularly anymore save for their daily faggotry wherein I have to smile and decline their invitations. The bad ones stopped showing up for those some time ago, though they were meant to have returned today.
The magic in my eyelids is feint, but I can still partly make out what's there.
Am I supposed to do something/go somewhere or not
>>34721695I don't feel bad at all. Let them all burn and rot, fuck them.
>>34721686Sure you are.
>>34721649Writing this post about yourself is the most pathetic thing I've ever seen
>>34721695What karma? Whats the tea?I love a good hypocrite fall from grace.
>>34721723He's hot, done pretending he's not. Be jealous the girl you want to be with did the same thing to you kek
>>34721723Christoid take
>>34721731Only he knows who himself is. He is writing about himself. You Same fagging is pathetic
>>34721733Same fagging double post. You're caught mate
>>34721739Just leave them be. It's a waste of time.
>>34721744There is no "them"
Man, do I hope The Odyssey is flames.
I thought that that's what you meant for me to do, to go to that place on that day, and cross paths. Guess I'm not surprised with how fucking destroyed both our minds are by now that there's missed connection hahahahafuckingkillme
>>34721739Not a tranny, janny.
>>34721743"Caught" as in take your meds?
Oops I unironically forgot my meds today
>>34721764That's the self report he's same faggingBtw The tell is she is a virgin
>>34721764>>34721765Another double post, he never learns
>>34721771SAY HIS NAME BITCHH
>>34721725the gist is a girl coworker i was going out with didn't like that i friendzoned her and then ultimately cut her off because i got tired of her highschool drama she'd stir up. she never let it go and proceeded to paint me as this weird creep even though i kept it professional at the workplace but never took our convos as far as work related. she couldn't handle dealing with someone who behaves like an emotionally well adjusted adult and proceeded to slander my name to her new friend group because much like israel, she's been casted out of multiple groups and joins a new one.no one ever bothered to ask my side, her bf at the time was convinced i liked her and never addressed that with me, so fuck the dude. her circle has slowly broken up because of, SURPRISE, her dramatic tendencies. her ex got dumped because she wants to be in a situationship with a dude who keeps manipulating her into thinking he loves her (she was talking to both of us at the time and that's why i friendzoned her) and she emotionally cheated on him more than 10 times. i know she's been stalking my socials too. no sex bot is going to randomly pop up on specific posts kek. so now that the cat is out of the bag, multiple people are suddenly messaging me apologizing for siding with her but i don't even care about what transpired those years ago since it's said and done. what's got me chuckling is these current events. and i know she's going to seek me out too. because i know her like the back of my hand. she's literally me if i never got the actual guidance and help needed to grow and become a better person.
Too public, was just updating that day. Privately Saturday may work.
>everyone deserves loveIs a crock of shit. Some of us aren't safe to be vulnerable around
>>34721769You sound upset, furrychan. Maybe shoot some heroin to calm your nerves :)
Based un medicated Aryan spirit
>>34721779Facts.
>>34721779Who broke your achey brakey heart, anon?
May. Ah. So, not then. Aha. Enjoy though.
>>34721771>>34721743>>34721739Thank you for pointing that out. Makes me feel good that I made the right decision.
>>34721776forgot to mention that her now ex apparently chimped out and quit weeks after the break up. don't know the specifics, but it's concerning on one end and funny on the other because he was a complete spaz
>>34721788Myself, I'm a piece of shit who ruins others' lives and breaks their hearts
>>34721794This is some introspective shit, man. I'm proud of you.
Stupid stupid stupid stupid girl
>>34721794Dang if only >>34721739 this poster admitted the same thing
>>34721780Idk who furrychan is.
I did get some good news today. 809985 -> 98 assuming we win #2. Though if we lose 2 it’s over anyway.
>>34721792To be fair, it sounds like you are a spaz
>>34721799You, dog fucker! :D Yer caught, m8!
SAY HIS NAME YOU FUKKIN BIIIIIII
>>34721805Mr. Scruffy Sadboi Barroom Dick
>>34721803yeah, but that's already a given because i'm on this site. no need to point the obvious
>>34721798>>34721794Wow, it's good she is done with you. Same fagging and it sounds like you are manipulative and upset she is done with you.
I hope when I spill seed to you, my essence transfers and spiritually makes you stronger.
Wonder what good news could possibly be given in this fucking hell situation Did they give you eepy pills too?
My love holds the key, meaning I’m likely cleared on the major matters.
>>34721812Nigga ew
https://youtu.be/4SgHtM9dEP8?si=ewSO8Or_F_zY5hhiSituation gets rough, then I start to panicIt's not enough, it's just a habitHey, kid, you're sickWell, darling, this is it
>>34721810Who is "she" tho? Your imagination
I’ll be up all night again, that’s not a question.
Yeah, from everything I've read without a very strong and determined yapper vic the dogs protect their own in these situations lol
Meds
>>34721813Wtf happened and wtf are eepy pills
>one of us Vomit. But no, that’s still the sticking point. Major matter is what comes after, and now we’ve got a very nice out that won’t impact anyone. Entirely obfuscated from the others.
>>34721824Im sayin.Crazy town.
>>34721826Sleeping pills are 'eepy pills'
>>34721818Not who you replied to, but if "she" is in the same city, she should lock her door.
https://youtu.be/WO9ewCO7TYI?si=XzSvjy7ocXOzskW8I listen to this song to remind myself of what I am to people who say/have said "I love you"My mommy picked ringtones for each of us children that reminded her of us - my siblings for their strength and their sense of humor. This is the ringtone I got, because I was on antidepressants and in and out of psychiatric hospitals!
>>34721827Same fagging again, huh anon???
>>34721815Not if you are the one same fagging. Then you are just guilty and she is justified
I want to say good to know but I think I've actually finally lost hope and have kinda just accepted that whatever awful shit could happen will happen lol
romance is in motionthe diamond, my hands hold it
>>34721836Major unmedicated alert
>>34721842God damn you fags are dramatic
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EAZkeldmWI
>>34721824You have same fagged with cell and pc before and done the same post. This only makes you more guilty
>>34721841>ifYOU ALL NEED TO BE MEDICATED TOUCH GRASS
My hands will hold your hips again, my love. My lips will press yours. I’ll tell you that you’re valued, forgiven, needed.
Notice how the dog fuckers got real quiet
>>34721838No, but you saying that is an attempt to make >>34721810 who called you out on your same fagging look less right about how manipulative you are. You just confirmed that by acting like you are that poster.
>>34721813>>34721833Whats the tea, sis
>>34721861>you just confirmed by-MEDS, FAGGOT, TAKE THEM.
>>34721862I should have prefaced my post with>NTABut you would have still called me sis regardless, huh?
>>34721844You keep passing out saying unmedicated only proved others right that you are a problem and it's good she will lock her door so you dont drive across the city and try to break in.
>>34721848You do know what thread you're in, right?
>>34721861Also, now bare with me, it could POSSIBLY be bc you are a total schizo and easy to fuck with on a anonymous board? But what do I know, I'm just a doctor.
And it will all fall on deaf ears, because I am stupid and broken and incapable of feeling properly or anything but bad things
>>34721866Ya I would, idk you >
>>34721870I love this board. >>34721871Yes, its why I fw these ppl
>>34721842The worst would be >>34721843
Its been fun, faggots, toodles
i want to die
>>34721890Why
>>34721891i miss my ex bf
>>34721888Yeah dude randomly showing up and shoving your idea on how shitty everything is why that most certainly fixes everything. You're about as useful as a Karen when her fries are cold at McDonald's.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6yN2H3--1aw
>>34721892Are you gay? I've never heard those words come out of a woman
>>34721878>>34721857Well now we know who the person same fagging is. I agree, lock your door.
>>34721878Trying to downgrade you trying to manipulate her to driving over to you just "fucking with people" really does once again show she made the right choice cutting you out of her life.
>>34721888The girl who lives in the same city really needs to put her guard up. He's only acting like he's leaving to try to further lie about him just messing around, make if seem like a clean slate so he isn't the same person is is going to just approach her from another angle because she locked her door and a window might now be easier.
>>34721900no. i miss him so much. im so in love with him. i feel hopeless without him
I don’t have any way to view my metamask wallet address to check if any of my beyond protocol tokens were moved. I’m starting to think that derek did not throw my passwords in the trash like he said but gave them to a thief.
>>34721874You are not a doctor. Nice try at trying to cover up who you are.
I’ll say it as many times as needed.
I should turn on the AC, but I'd rather die of heat stroke.
>>34721917What's the initial of his first name?
>>34721913There is no "her". There is the troll and the schizo.
>>34721797I wouldn't be too hard on yourself. If you are beating yourself up over falling for the lies of this person who lives in the same city, unless you saw signs of him lying in person, then it may of really needed someone to see what was happening and point it out.
>>34721920>starting toI’ve certainly wondered before but my concern of this is growing.
>>34721916Please do explain
>>34721467Sounds like who is being talked about in >>34721916
It’s been a day since I had expressed consideration that whoever may have stole my passwords were doing so to help me and prevent me from doing something dumb but I still have not received my passwords yet. So if someone does have them I do believe that they’re crooked.
>>34721941There is. Why should anyone believe what you say after being caught lying this many times?
Why did he even change Twitter's name? Makes no fucking sense.
>>34721951Name who you are talking to
>>34721954He pretty obviously had a vendetta against Twitter and bought it so he could gut it and also flex that he has enough money to destroy companies he doesn't like. Changing the name was part of that.
>Be me>Guy I hang with sometimes was down on his luck>Asked me for money and he said he would double it, gets monthly checks from the military >He actually keeps his word>Do this twice, he actually paid me back>Do it a third time, doesn't pay me back>Found out he's on drugs real bad>Best friend who hangs with him suddenly called me at work >Said the guy got jumped, needs a place to stay>Told him I didn't feel comfortable with that and they need to go to the police>Best friend has ADHD, feels like he MUST help everyone in need>Tries to guilt trip me>Other guy never paid me back>Found out best friend told the guy not to pay me back because I didn't help him>Guy agrees >Best friend essentially encouraged somebody to steal from meYou ever wanted to wring somebody's neck so bad, but at the same time you're like "eh, he's retarded so I may have to let it go"?
>>34721946She locked the door,the window, and now you are looking for cracks to force your way in. I feel bad for her to live in the same area as you.
>>34721956Post is talking about the guy who lives in the same city as her trying to break in
>>34721964>NTAShe said he's in her city right now, not that he lives there.
>>34721964Sounds imaginary
I worry so much about you. I forgive everything. I’m sorry for everything too. I don’t want to be apart.
I'm new to these threads. Is everyone here just schizo or do jannies/mods actually interact with the ppl in this thread and know who they are. I've seen like, hints of the fact that some people have knowledge they shouldn't have about commenters on other boards but idk if it's all just schizo posting or if people know that jannies and mods keep track of people via ips and are part of groups that harass people
Grok seems to think that there’s a 5-10% chance of beyond protocol being revived. I consider a 500 million dollar market cap to be quite a reasonable achievement which would amount to about 1.8 million dollars potentially stolen from me.
I forgive you. I really do.
If I have to sacrifice it all I will. The wait is so gay. I hate it so much. I protected you. You know that right? For our future. I made everything salvageable. I didn’t give in or yield to them. I gave you an out. So don’t give up. Reward me for my efforts. Stay. Be ok. Not anyone else’s standard of ok. Be you. I never resented you for needing help. I never will.
>>34721970Unfortunately it's not.
>>34721974Sounds like it's that guy who lives in the same city making this post to try to get her to think this.
>>34721984I love you maria. All my heart. I hope that gives you the relief you need.
I don’t even know if it’s use to be or used to be.
Got to go to the shops to grab some milk, 2 litres is never enough, don't know how the continental Euros do it.
>>34722032used to be, past tense.
>>34721917>>34721892If you cut yourself, you can't reasonably expect him to stay.
>Met a guy in my teens who stopped me from eating a shotgun.>Fall in love and start dating LDR.>Dude has psyc issues I didn’t know about and he was good at hiding them>Early in relationship dude becomes verbally and emotionally abusive occasionally.>Thick skinned so let it go>Years pass it gets much worse>Tried to buy him gifts and be there for him to soothe him>Give up time with my family and prioritize him.>did not work even once>Threatens suicide several times>Stockholm’ed myself into wanting to be with him no matter what>Financially supported him for years before we met>spent thousands on him>Gets abused more>All of it sounds bad but when it’s good it’s great maybe it’s worth it?>Stuck it out>Met and got married >Now he hits me and threats to kill me regularly and I still support him>Ready to eat a shotgun again>Suffering doesn’t end.Seems weirdly fucked up to marry someone you’ve been with for years and supported as a women to see men crying “women don’t wanna support them” and only use them. Then only to have shit like this happen when you do. Life is a fucking joke.
>>34722034There’s all kinds of cheese in underground storage. The cows keep giving regardless of demand so, the governments use cheese as a strategic reserve for emergencies and doling out to the poor. Would be surprised if Caesar Caesar was not a front operator for the glowies.
>>34722043I know it's hard being alone, but is it worth it?
>>34722038I hang out with too many creatans.
>>34722049Thinking it might be at this point. Considering strongly just disappearing at this point.
>>34722056You have a near GET and time GETs and near GETs, that's pretty cool.
>>34722059Thanks
>>34722042I think it you make >>34721892>>34721917And are a guy then you should jump in the water with cement blocks tied to his feet >>34722043Verbal, emotional abuse is not okay. Him separating you from your family so you isolate with him, using you for resources and financials is a tell take sign of a narc. For the hitting and threatening to kill you, record it and go to the police.
>>34722053Anything is better than being with someone like that. Sounds like that post is describing that guy in the same city as the girl
>>34722211If you spoke English I'd understand what you were attempting to say.
>>34721776She lives rent free in your rotten brain for you to be writing novels about her on an anonymous board. You get turned on by the attention. Shows your character actually. She had options and played you, now you’re making her out to be the bad guy because your heart is broken. Heal motherfucker. Stop wasting all of our time.
>>34722228It's a larp by Conroe. You either are conroe and just tacking on to it or not aware conroe wrote that.
>if you went to jail I’d wait for you lol, lmao, let’s see
You assured me that wouldn't happen .
Let me larp. Larpwaffen. I want to play the harmonica while I think about the worst case scenarios.
As you were, then.Do better than harmonica though, atrocious instrument.
Get piss drunk with the harmonica and play it for the Abos
Mfw she just forced her fear of employment on to me and did this out of concern for me becoming employed once more
They'd take that as serenade.Is that who you choose to replace me? You can do better.
Ahahah you’re too hot to be employed Thanks babe Nigger you will not replace us
Ah, I woke up mean. Nvm.
You want your money, right? Huh? You wanna know where it is? You pull that trigger, you’ll never-
Waltuh put your freedom away waltuh
>>34722358WE’RE GETTING GANKED WALTUH, YOU’VE THROWN THE GAME
Hocus pocus theres pizza on your focus
NEREVAR GUIDE ME!
Been thinking about the Ex-GF a lot as of late. Doubt she still loves me.
I think my dad raped me when I was little.
>>34721244I wish I could end this chapter already and move on to the life where my home is a peaceful & safe space. I wish nothing more than to rent or buy a space where I can come to and relax throughout the rest of the day. I want to hear nothing more than the low hums of the city, the calls from the birds, and the overall serene tranquility. I wish that the smells I smell are the curated ones of my own. The cooking smells, the fragrances I don, and the mixture of rotating home aromatherapy scents. I want to be crafting music art and poetry and sharing it digitally. I want to share it with folks and put out stuff to where people would surprise others with the artwork they show. I see myself in a space where I can quietly live and progress in all areas including inspiring others to do just as good if not better. I wish for an elegant, faithful, and strong woman to be in my life. Someone who can appreciate humor, but also maintain and thrive in the seriousness of life. I wish that I could manifest this wealth; backed by positive habits, that benefits my entire world such that I can finally give to whomever needs it and feel normal about it. I wish I could just die from this life and be reborn into a better one. I don’t know anyone that is going through this sober, sleep-deprived, working 40+ hrs a week, and still mentally strong to resist the temptations and built up wrath with no therapist. I really wish for something soon, whatever miracle. I wish I could accept it. I know writing about it somewhere is better than nothing. The tears were worth it once I upgraded from last life. Hopefully the ones from this life will be worth it in the next.
What’s the point any more when I’m a massive faggot that still doesn’t have sex and I’m in a goddamn fag relationship? Waking up to work 50 hour weeks until I fucking die? Yay I did the green line go up. Get some fat blown out bitch of a gf? For fucking what!? So she can be a fat piece of shit while STILL being a fucking affectionless judgmental henpecking killjoy? So she can shit out some malformed shitling that’ll scream into the fucking void for 8 years straight? I wish I could even fucking afford standards but this miswest shithole is known for three kinds of bitches and nothing else - skeletor the heroin head, lard face, and the baboon tier niggress. All of them over 40 or so chopped they may as well be. I’m going to kms at this rate because I can’t see any other way out
I miss you, you crazy bitch. I’ll laugh at this situation with you soon enough.
I really need to pick you up and fuck you again.
Insane asylum and its just me and the cats
Could’ve been fine.
The vibe always seems like the world says I deserve to suffer because I was abused and I deserve to be disappointed again because I got my hopes up for being rescued.
>>34722622I deserve better than that
Angry. Sour.Nightmares of you again, crashing out, throwing something right by my head, a gift I had just gotten you .
If it isn’t an officer to deliver the information to me that I need then I’m not interested.
Then the vibe in gioyc is like I don’t deserve answers or clarity unless I bite bait.
The only thing that ever seems to be offered to me in life is bait.
It makes me wonder how the average person manages to live with themselves.
You scream at me. Berate. Throw things, threaten me, corner me. Eyes go black as they do, sometimes you wear parts of his face. You abandon and abuse and terrorize. These are my dreams of you.
I wake scared, confused, trembling, unsure of where I am, feeling in danger, feeling wounded. Ball up, fangs bared, claws digging into my own skin to hold myself together.
>>34722690Wow, kind of presumptuous of you lady. You don't know me
I think my dad is the root of my anxiety problems, and its gotten to the point where I had to quit my job because I kept getting panic attacks before work and everyday just seemed like too much to be around people. My problem is that I live at home and now that I don't have a job my dad is on my ass daily making nasty comments about me which makes me stress out about my future even more because I quit the job to get better, but its just getting worse now. I can't move out because rent is too expensive to live on my own and I don't have friends in town to live with to split rent. I can't get a job because anxiety and panic attacks are worse than before I quit my job. Even just sitting at my desk in my room feels like something bad is about to happen every couple of minutes. The stress and anxiety issues made me put on a lot of weight even if I don't eat much, but I barely move too so that doesn't help. I'm stressing out about getting a job and I don't know what my future is going to look like and I'm already 31. I just feel like I'm stuck in a dead end and things progressively just get worse. I have a lot of savings left from the job I had so I live off of that but that'll last for 2-3 years maybe, what then? I can't escape the root of my problems but even when I had a job that was paid more than average around here and I still couldn't afford to move out. I just feel trapped and that spikes my anxiety even more. Not to mention the job I had was the best I ever had so I feel like I made a mistake by leaving but I had to leave, I either left work early because of stress or I didn't wake up on time so I was coming in late, work was getting on my ass about it so I was either going to be fired or I quit myself but at least quitting made it so that there is a possibility of coming back at a later stage, I let my employer know why I quit and they said there is a chance I might be back temporarily later on at some point but still, its nothing stable. I just want out...
Some of what you've done and said... endlessly looped in my sleep, wound reopening each time...and insidious reminder of the possibility of escalation...
I feel sick. I feel scared. I feel unsure. I don't know who you are. Certainly not now.
Why did you let possessive insecurity get in the way of love? There is no competition from where you stood in relations, unrivalled to anyone else. I dont think you saw how much i shaped my life to meet your requirements and the moment I experienced some joy with mutual, likeminded friends you thought it was time to move on? Too quick, too fast in a riskless environment and makes me horrified at the thought if that happened where I was isolated with only you as a support, how eventually you would discard it all because the envisioned goal you set and the result differed.
I don't know what it is about it, I'm just not good at anything that I do. I don't understand how most things work, I don't know where to look to discover new techniques or how to go about learning anything. I spent a decade learning to draw, never got past what I already knew how to do. I spend a decade playing guitar, I still struggle to play some simple chords, its like my fingers can't learn to repeat a specific motion more than once and half the time I miss the strings or I block other ones with my fingers. The only things I like doing and have interest in I'm painfully average at. I don't see a world in which I'm a "professional" at anything, I just don't seem to be cut out for it, like its something other people do, but not me, ever. I feel so useless and disappointed at ever comiting to anything because it never works out. I get excited every time to try something, put in time and effort into it but I never have what it takes to do it in the end. Its like I have this mental block or something, where I get to a certain point and my brain says "ok heres where we stop" and I can't get past it. I just wish I was into normal, simple things, nothing creative and just commit to an average life but thats not in me. I'm just gonna die a failure knowing I knew how to do a lot of things but never to the point where I could actually do it properly.
I think the worst thing I did to my Ex was telling her to use ChatGPT instead of talking to me about an issue with her sudden panic attacks after trying to help for so long, I turned cruel.It's gross, I shouldn't have done that, I can't remember if that was before or after she weaponised all my feelings against me.Regardless, it was wrong and I accept that.
>>34722521I'd rather you never mention me ever again
>>34721244232nd for riggi
>Aspire to write during the day on weekends>Get overtaken by The Fear (of what, idk)>Don't>Try to give up>Instead have ideas involuntarily invade brain at 2am literally every fucking weeknight>Jot them down anyway>They're not garbage the next day, it's actually slowly coming togetherWhy can't it come together at a time that's convenient to me, why are the muses in an incompatible time zone
>>34722839Maybe you’re putting too much pressure on yourself to perform during your intended working hours, but when you’re not trying to work your brain relaxes and your creative ideas flow much more easily.
I'm a super bad tab hoarder, but I just closed 3000+ and feel like a weight has been lifted off me
I am in my late 30s and I keep getting declined for entry level apprentice-tier jobs. This is nothing new, but the latest rejection today is hitting me extra hard. I feel so fucking worthless. I've been actively looking for opportunities to improve my lot in life since 2020 and it seems like nothing is panning out. I will never be able to move past my night shift guard duty job, where I haven't received a raise in years. I will never be able to move out of my studio apartment or have enough money to save for a house. I'll never have enough money to provide for a wife and children. I'm at a low point and I feel like checking out for good.
>>34722976I feel for you anon. It's tough for everyone these days, but that just means it's extra tough on people who were already doing it tough to begin with. I'm not doing it as tough as you, but I've certainly been mighty unsettled for the last few years, and am questioning whether the comfort I worked so hard for and sacrificed so fucking much to attain is better off being itself sacrificed for some immediate sense of stability.It's not you, the world is just in a fucked place right now. idk if that's any comfort, or the opposite, but I figure if we're all in this, then surely we're all motivated to find a way out of it at some point, it literally can't last forever.
That really got you butthurt huh?
>>34723023Thanks. I was shouting into the void, any reply is comforting enough. Thing could certainly be worse, it just feels like I've been spinning tires since high school. My siblings are doing well, my parents are healthy and well, I'm physically healthy and unimpaired. It feels extra crushing knowing that I have a lot of advantages that I have seemingly squandered. I just feel unwanted and alone. Appreciate you reaching out. Hope things get better soon.
>>34723060You’re a narc trying to humble somebody. It doesn’t work on us who are emotionally stable and mature. We see you as losers below us.
>>34723101Shut the fuck up.
What would you do if someone was coming to kill your entire family right now? What would you do if this plan was slowly solidifying into something real?
>>34723222>What would you do if someone was coming to kill your entire family right now? What would you do if this plan was slowly solidifying into something real?Call the cops and try to stop him or her. Probably eventually track them down and do the same to them. What kind of fucked up question is that.
>>34723222Sabotage every weapon they have, then give all their hands severe Arthritis. That's if I want to be merciful.
i am so sad and hurt. i just want things to go back like before. i miss my sweet boy so much. im going to kill myself.
I'm so fucking tired of my "friend"Litteraly every fucking time I try to plan an activity he just cancel everything at the last minute with a shitty excuse (my mom got out of the hospital/I'm tired/unexpected event etc)
>>34723222Take them and flee, unless I knew I could kill and get away with it.
You took hearts away from beside my name when you were mad at me. Count down to discard.
>>34723248I don't understand.
>>34723322What part don't you understand?
>>34723323I just don't understand. Wouldn't you do anything to protect them? You're still acting like this. You're only making what I'm going to do worse.
>>34723327Do you think what I said I would do is impossible for me?
>>34723328Wow. You really hate them, don't you? You wife's pussy is horrendous, by the way.
>>34723329That's not an answer to my question. Answer my question. Do you think what I said I would do is impossible for me?
>>34723330You think I won't do it?
>>34723333I know you won't succeed. Why? Do you think you will?
>>34723337And I promise I will.
>>34723341You can promise whatever you want, it doesn't mean it will happen. You still haven't answered my question.
>>34723183You’re butthurt pretending to be tough by humbling us lol
>>34723343I'm not answering your question because I reject the implication entirely. Your son's fate is sealed. I'm literally not kidding.
>>34723349I have no son. But that's funny of you. If I did have a son, he would be capable of more than anyone in this world trying to eliminate him.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0OnkP20z9s
>>34723352You won't soon, that's right. Very good.
>>34723366You're mistaking me for someone else. You did hear about the person that a TAC team tried to corner, who disappeared when he was lead to a choke point? That's nothing compared to what my son would be capable of. But you just think I'm talking bullshit and you think you're better than a TAC team. It's part of the reason I don't have a son.
AHHHHHHHHH THIS MOTHERFUCKER KEEPS LEAVING ME ON READ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZdPWfbekpQ
Mau, I doubt you come here anymore but I want you to know.I've suddenly picked up your mannerisms.Keep finding myself going>Urmmmmmmm BLEHHHHHHHHHHH!It's so stupid.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJDDHcmKW14
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UZR7cXEA-_Y
just got raped. brutally. lol
>>34723413Wtf how do you know Mau?
My heart aches for them. I was angry, frustrated, was plotted against, shit down when I wanted heart to heart. I can be mad but still love. Why can’t that be ok?
Because you only know punish and attack as expressing it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ELaxHcvGlQk
How can simply saying “I’m mad” get it out? When facing injustice change must happen. The severity of the charges must be seen, and then change accordingly if the injustice is legitimate. I’m not illogical in this thought process. How does this negate love? Wanting an issue rectified, wanting someone to feel remorse for harming you, how is this a bad thing?
hahahaha HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I’ve felt great haunting unending remorse. That’s not abnormal when you do something that hurts someone you care for. The remorse keeps me up, along with the worry.
I didn't call you a fool and say you deserved to be cheated on just because you hurt me. You called me unstable, said I ruin people, deserved what happened to me, asked for things, even.I just told you you hurt me, how and why your actions or words hurt, to give you the opportunity to understand me better and change.
Affection was withheld, coldness given, insults often, when I could hear and probably when I couldn’t. >don’t do that >does it
I get you weren't raised by the most emotionally intelligent people, and there were instances of abuse in your raising as well, but there's more to constructively and lovingly discussing hurts and angers and difficult things than just "I'm mad" without jumping to abuse and punishment, and I'd like for you to learn that.
Withheld. As if it is for punishment and not protection, because I felt unsafe and hurt by you all the fucking time, couldn't talk to you, only your anger was justified, never mine, endless debates and arguments with you over what I was allowed to feel, even when I expressed it solely with "I feel" statements so you don't feel attacked.I guess I should have just continued to cry in the other room at night and lay beneath you while you use my body.
>>34723427In a game? Did you call them a faggot?
My parents taught me respect, gratitude, and that you can still love someone without being perfect and a service providing robot. My dad was quick to anger, but he taught me honour. My mom was abused, she carried that discomfort with her her whole life and sought love from her family, Ay times putting herself above us. She, overall however, always cared. She returned the favour when we were sad, didn’t leave our sides. No one is perfect, and parents even inadvertently can leave scars on their children. They were not and are not monsters.
You'll never understand me. Things will never be different. Ok.
Defending people who were abusive and manipulative to their own child, and to your spouse.
I understand. I care. Me doing what though, expressing my side of things means I don’t? Anything other than just listening and nodding is neglectful, using? That’s not fair. That’s not right.
No matter how much R&B I listen to, I'll still be too cold for love.
I never let anyone harm them. I sided with them. Was this insufficient?
I was stupid to think any good or change or understanding or closeness may come from this. I explain over and over what is hurtful, to deaf ears and hateful eyes. What may be helpful instead. Too jewish I guess.Bye.
If I don’t 100% agree this means I’m 100% opposed and my actions don’t matter. That’s how this feels.
>>34723465no it was in real life in nyc. but yes
YOUVE HURT ME SCARED ME ME SO FUCKING BADLY TOO FUCKING BADLY WITH YOUR EXCISE THAT YOU WERE MAD JUSTIFIED OR NOT I CANT DO IT ANYMORE I CANT GO BACK TO THAT I CANT I CANT I CANT I HLCABT I CANT YOU FUCKING HURT ME KILL ME I CANT FUCKING DO IT
never coming back here again
ITS JUST GOING TO HAPOEN AGAIN AND AGAIAN AND AGOAN UNTIL I DO ACTUALLY FUCKING DIE ISBR IT
I DIDNT FUCKING DESERVE SHIT I DIDN'T DESERVE THAT AND I DIDNT FUVKING DESERVE TO READ THAT I DESERVED IT I DIDN'T DESERVE TO BE LOOKED DOWN ON AND SQID WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU I WAS FUCKING DROWNING AND SCARED AND FUCKING FALLING APART AND YOU SNEERED AND GLARED DOWN AT ME YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE THERE BUT YOU FUCKING KICKED ME WHILE DOWN FUCK I CANT
>>34723527Yeah fuck that guy or whatever. Let it all out Anon
i am so sad
No, you didn’t. I’ll tell you that in person. Then you can do whatever you’d like.
Intention doesn’t matter, it never did to you. I do understand. I wish it was mutual, understanding, or a desire to. It is what it is. I’ve given everything I could to protect, I have nothing left to offer other than words and a hug, and I’ll be told that isn’t enough.
>>34723544Cheer up
I DODNY DESERVE ANY OF TBE SHIT YOU DID AND SAID RO ME EITHER YOU FUCKING DESRROYED ME I TOLD YOU ALL RHE HURTS I HAD AMD UOU ISED THEM TO HURT ME FIRYHER BECAUSE YOU WETE MAAAAD I WASN'T WHAT YOU WAMTED
Y'all niggas be wylin', thank God I'm not in no bullshit.
FUCKING. FICMM WJAT TNW FI K YOU MW ER FICKING LISTEN YOU DESTROY AMD EZPECT FORHIVENESS ENDLESSLY IM MOT A FUCKING OERSON YOU DENAYE MY NEEDS ANS FEELINGA AWAY OOOOH INTENT DOESNT MAYRER TO YOU OOOH BUT YOU ARE unSTA LE LOOK AT ALL RHESE THONGA THAT JAPOENED TO YOU AA PROOD
>>34723549i cant, i miss my bf. i cant live without him.
YOU DON'T FUCKING YNSERSTAND AHIT EVERYTHONG YOH WEORE FUCKING PROVES IT PEOVES EVERYTHING WILL GO RIGHT BACK TO THIS IF I GO BACK ITLL ALWAY BE YHE AAME MAYBE THOS TIME ONE OF US WILL FINALLY SUCCEED IN FUCKING KILLING ME HODS WOLLING
AND EVEN IF YOU CJANGED WHY THE RFUCM WOULD I WANT TO GO BACK WHEN I HOS IS WHAT IT TAKES DLD YOU TO FIMALLY UNDERSTAND AND LEAERN TO DEAL WOTG TGIS BETTWR NO TOUEW ALWAYS GOING TO DEDEND ABUSE YOURE ALWAYS FOING TO FEEL JUSTOFOED TO HURT ME SOMEWAY
Are you fucking drunk or something?
YPU REALLY SID YELL RHEM I SHOOK HER DIDNT UOU SAID I WAS A DANGER TO MUSELD A ND HER
>>34723587OM FICKING ABOUT TO BE!!???!
I was mad that I was lied to, felt that my efforts werent enough to make things better for them, frustrated and made to feel unwanted, not respected. I did a lot. I tried. Even now, I sacrifice. Insufficient. As always. >no you can’t hug me and say sorry and be forgiven and united Even if I wait? Even after I’ve done so much to show care? To show that love can still exist despite anger and pain? Even this isn’t enough to show that? >you have to accept you’re bad and unworthy of love Ok. I can do that. Just help me destroy the enemy.
>>34723592Contain yourself, my good man.
>>34723592im fighting a relapse myself. cheers to you, stay safe
If all I am is arms a dick and a wallet then so be it. Use me how you’d like, discard me when I’m no longer useful or enjoyable. I’ll focus on the enemy.
FUCK YOU YOU RHONK LOVE IS AND ENDLESS TICLET TO DOEGIVENESS NO MATTER HOW NUCH YOU FUCKING HURT SOMEONE
>>34723607Who are you talking to?
I WANTED TO BE FUCKONG SAFE AND LOVED AND LPVE YOURE MEAN AND ENTITLED AND HURTFUL AND YOU ARGIE YOUR RIGHT TO BE AO FUCKING HURTDUL ALWAYS AT MY DEEPEST WOUNDS YOU GO FOR THE GUT JUST LIKE YOUR PIEVE OF SHOT FATHER I DONT WANT ANY OF THAT MO MATTER WHAT GOOD YOU HAVE IB YOU ITS NOT WORTH THE FUCKING CENOM AND PAIN AND FEAR
All the wasted time hoping lnao
>"What the fuck was that?"
FUCK I HATE ZOOMER SLANG
Win, take her, and go.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
fuck you omar leaving me on read and shit i love you
Just let me say goodbye fkrst. Cant do jt anymor
I feel like going to Israel again.
>>34723327If you ever threaten my family again you'll regret it.
>>34723651(threatens them anyway)
>>34723651Oh, he was talking to you? I thought this nigga was tweakin'.
i should just relapse. im doomed. ill never get better
Stayed even when I started sweating and trembling hearing you wake even when my hair started falling out even when you asked more than I could give even when you stabbed right in my scars even when I couldn't string a sentence together and you played games on the couch even when I had to hide my tears I stayed I tried to say what hurt me and ask for different approach and for gentleness and patience its never good enough the nightmare you is the real you isn't it the black eyes cornering me in rooms telling me all the ways I am wrong and stupid and bad and deserved this and that and it wouldn't hurt do much that I can't fucking live with it but I really love dyou and trusted you and believe dyou so maybe that's swhy but I can't bear it anymore I'm fucking I can't I can't I can't can't I can't can't actma ctnabrcanfn
I should've fucking hung myself at night when you all slept but I didn't because I'm fucking dtupud and now I have to fucking stick around until all this shit is done months months months months months years more pain always more always fucking bleeding agony
I know what to do now
Ok. I'll stfu and fuck off now. Sorry anons
i love you so much omar. i miss you baby, i love you
https://youtu.be/OYmHRts7ipI?si=3n96NdDnANAANJI6
Fucking clown world.
This 4chan beef shit is serious, huh?
>>34723753When you deal with angry mobs that tries to scapegoat its problems it can be.
>>34723569He was talking to other girls before he broke up with you. You are wasting your own time and energy when you should be working out your issues and growing from the experience
it's over.
I think that 500 million market cap would probably be the floor as far as where beyond protocol would sit if it actually gained suitable traction at the beginning stages along with the suppression of the entire market that’s currently happening. With the potential I was anticipating that 1.8 million could turn into 120 million instead if I were willing to wait long enough which I wouldn’t but I definitely intended to hold a big bag indefinitely. https://x.com/i/grok/share/3e8b75bb6d4c4b25a0babdfdfb16f880
>>34723753I'm not authorized to answer that question
Anyway. Police didn’t show up today either or yesterday for some reason. This should concern everyone, not just me.
Righteous fucking rage bubbling up. Disgust (at you or myself?) with how many times I've explained shit, only for you to say the same thing I'm saying is NOT what I'm saying at all like a broken record. I want to fucking hurt you like you did and keep doing to me.
I'll show you the same "gentleness" you showed me when I fucking needed it lmao.
You're the poison. Raised in it, by it, became it.
Ridiculous. Too black and white. Everything is a fucking binary extreme to you. Blind.
You think any good one does excuses and absolves anything terribly painful inflicted, any abuse, because that's what happens when your parents are abusive but also pass on some good, lol. The child rationalizes that abuse and excusing abuse and enduring abuse is what love is.
Or did you also have the black and white thought that abusive people are abusive in all the worst ways all the time?
Did you think abusers can't be gentle as well?
Oh, right, abuse is only beating the shit out of someone, I suppose.
I'm sicker than sperm cells with Syphilis germsAnd I'm hotter than my dick is when I piss and it burns...
I like the car, and it's a really good deal (probably 1/100) so it might not be around for long... but if I take it I'll be in the red for at least a month.
You act up, then I'm throwin' down a flight of stepsThen I'm throwin' you back up 'emIf they don't like the track, fuck 'em...
I'm starting to believe strippers have an overall lower sexual body count than the average woman. They have 4-6 regulars, maybe half get sexual stuff and then they just go home tired from all the social interaction while never going out on friday and sat night.
I was only ever someone for you to use. When I found some happiness that didnt have your involvement you took it as a sign to move on. Why
The "90s manime" meme is so gay, you are below 6 feet and want to have big succulent juicy thick muscles lol gayest shit imaginable. Anime is so gay now lol no real sex appeal
I wish I could talk to you again so badly. I'm such an idiot when it comes to you.
The manchildren, look at them they get no young sexy pussy and all they do is gymrat to the uppermost. You waste time at the gym lifting and eating like a pig when mr 90s sex man walks around with the "fuck your imouto mode," and all he does is just regular ass brisk shit. Its hilarious cause this is gen z now thanks to the faggiest shit in shounen. MY NUMBERS BIGGER. Nah your aromatise is.
Note; guys who boast about their>muh high testosterone levelsThey are injecting steroids and eating red meat they dont have real natural t
I'm heartboken, and I miss you. My birthday is this month, and it makes me sad to know that I won't hear a happy birthday from you. It makes me sad to think that I can't wish you a happy birthday in October.I want so badly to get a second chance with you someday.
Gentle after destroy, does that work on you haha? Is that love? Ice cream or cookies, praise, after a beating, berating, manipulating?
I fucking hate NPCs so much. I was backing out of a parking space in a parking lot earlier and had cars on all sides of me and I noticed a car coming so I stopped, then they stopped. They still didn't move even though they had the right away, so I thought maybe my tail end was a bit too far out so I pulled back into the spot. I look right at them and I wave my hand as to tell them to go, and they just had a slightly confused or upset face, they didn't even react or wave back to tell me to go or anything. So I eventually just pulled out and left after like twenty seconds of waiting. They didn't take the spot either so that wasn't it, and it was not even a good spot anyways since it was far from the entrance. Just fucking glitched out NPCs confusing things for no reason instead of just following the rules of the road.
Early zoomers now are starting to hit the wall male/female its so over for zoomies lol yall are getting fat and looking old
>>34724069Not when you factor for inflation. Nothing is getting cheaper.
>>34724296Not even cheap whores are cheap anymore.
Why should I want to be around, care for, someone who makes me sob and curl up and struggle to breathe in that way, as often as I have this past year?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yu___7W69eE
Showed you the wounds and you tore them open wider
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67RsqIYRsVY
Is that the "gentle?" Further grinding me to dust? Ha. Is that what you like? Empty shell to use? You go on and on about tools and using people. Because that's how you see everyone, even yourself? Hm?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9J-THCTjn60
You don't get to be upset when you chase someone off. You don't get to be upset when you keep scaring the animal and she hisses and swats. Would you have me just endure whatever you do and say, despite any terrible pain it causes me, just so you don't have to feel abandoned? Just me?>Abandon yourself so I am not abandoned
I was nothing but a vessel for your needs, everyone's needs. I'm allowed to have needs, as long as those needs fulfill yours! Stroke your ego!
...
You see no problem with how you deal with things. I felt harm, wounded trust. So things won't change, na?
>>34724451Dude sounds like an asshole. You should not waste your time on him.
She chose up, am I mad or nah?Bruh, I ain't mad about itThese chicks be for everybody...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aTL8l8tlDEI
Lol! Gentle! Right! I can look forward to having my heart and character utterly torn apart and insulted but in a ~soft calm voice while you hold me and punctuate insult and hurt with "I love you"~
I DONT FUCKING WANT IT NOTHONG IS WORTH THIS DUXKING PAIN
I should have been alone, stayed alone. I tried once, twice, failed & failed, doesn't matter whose fault, you get one chance to do it right
My fuckass dad is going to be moving upstairs... ? Temporarily (yeah fucking right. Piece of shit) because he's apparently going to be "cleaning" the shithole nightmare of a house he's been neglecting to clean..... lol. Like literally I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO FUCKING DO THAT AND NOW SUDDENLY YOU FUCKING DECIDE TO DO WHAT I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO DO?????? Fuck. You. Worthless old man. Worthless fucking moid. You're nothing but a blackhole and your personality is fake as fuck. You two-faced rat fatfuck bastard. Just when I'm getting comfortable to the thought of staying here for another 2 months. You come and screw it all to hell. Worthless, USELESS sack of shit. You're nothing to me and never will be, pathetic slime. I wanted to read but now I don't even feel like doing that anymore. FuckYou're stupid as cock if you think I'm ever moving back in with you. I'm so totally done with your ugly shit-eating crib stomp-able face, I don't need your presence near me OR around me. You're a total letdown and you'll just be depleting me of my potential. Energy-vampire sack that you are. Fuck I hate you so much. Moid without a soul. I hope you go to hell when you rightfully perish you pornsick scrote that I'm ashamed to call a father.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbKeWdC50ls
We must have been brought together to tear each other apart lol
You're a tool of destruction and I'm the wretched sheathRaised for it. The only one neglected and frozen out and glared at and dumped elsewhere, to be someone else's problem, that was craftsmanship baby!
Its crazy how much u can unintentionally fake people out by being 100% transparent
>>34724489I would talk about this, but it seems like you're going through it and I don't want to make it worse. I'm going through shit too, but I doubt you're her, so.
>ENDURE FOR ME>ENDURE ME
>>34724494Oh nooo, Im certainly not her, because he would neeeever reply directly to me
Who is this Orange cat poster and can I pet your people?
>>34724497Yeah, and she would never be talking about me, as she said. So, I know, just got my alert up for a second, you're good/
Discarded. Please. The fucking nerve and self-absorption. I'm not a fucking user, you insult me every fucking time. Manipulating for sympathy.
I can appreciate the good shit you have done and STILL be fucking irreparably damaged by the AWFUL FUCKED HURTFUL shit youve doneWild how that works right
Should've just committed to throwing me to them. You know how to work the courts, they would back you, my medical history as well lol. Wouldn't be death by your hands as you wished, but you'd be free of me and your witch of a mommy dearest could raise her!
>>34723060You are projecting conroe>>34723101Exactly>>34723348Yup. That's conroe.
Or some other 4cham whore! You made your point both ways; I'm replaceable in both my roles lol
Whores are replaceable. You can always buy a new one.
Wife is just a whore with more responsibilities and flowers on holidays lmao
>>34723518I wish I could do this. I have to stay for maria
Oooh you'll probably sleep GREAT tonightMen always sleep better the harder you cry
>>34724571I'm not gonna lie to you, your posts are doing nothing good for my mental health, so I have to go. I'm sorry that person hurt you, by the way. You didn't deserve it.
This wine tastes like fruity SHIT
>>34723594Not sure what discussion you are having but larping as me is dumb.
>>34724584That nigger is greentexting shit he imagines I say to garner sympathy
I only have ONE pillowand everyone knows ladies need AT LEAST two
>>34724597So buy more pillows.
>>34724600I've decided to allocate the pillow budget to more alcohol
Guess I'm just not ready to fully let go yet.>>34724605Then you have bigger problems than your pillow count, my guy.
>>34724607Oh yeah no I have massive fuckibg problems right now, HENCE the alcohol, I need some sort of fucking bandaid right hahah??? Ill have to hide it though when they send their eye over to surveille haha
>>34724613As long as it's not an Alcohol patch...
YOU CANT HANDLE A BITCH WITH PTSD LMAO
>>34724618That's a thing?????!!?? I can get trashed without calories?mm
>uwu I love fucked up women with problems!>OnO omg this woman has problems!!!! Yikes!!! Better punish her!!!
>>34724622It's rubbing alcohol. And no, not alcohol that you rub yourself off to.
I only think of you, on two occasionsThat's dayAnd night
>>34724624Ya had me for a sec anon, brutal
>>34724637Some people get fucked off of it, but it'll probably fuck up more than just your liver.
WHORELMAO OK BUT IVE NEVER HAD A ONE NIGHT STAND
But iiiiim the whore, the slut, lmaoDamn you're right I totally knew he was going to eventually rape me wow I should've chosen betterI bet he felt discarded too lol
Oh I'm sorry, that was out of bounds. I know just how terrrrrribly you regretted it and loathed yourself so it's totally not the saaaaame
>b-b-butt she asked for it o-officerrr Probably how that shit went lmao
BITCH https://youtu.be/Ni9NXv-KSHg?si=Vo65gNCIUUlGAywS
>>34724664>>34724658>>34724656I'm torn and broken over shit like this. I hate that you went through that. I wish I could make it better.
SOME PEOPLE TOO DAMADAGED TOO MUCH TOO LATE These hand will aaaalways be rooouuugggghh>>34724672You could come fucking rape me because I'm a whore that deserves it lol!
>>34724678I don't think that. No one deserves that.
>mine!Did you break a lot of toys as a kid lol
>>34724686Why yes, yes I did.
>>34724683Well it's two that have told me so and just you who has said otherwise so you're outnumbered buddy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Y3X21XLz9s>>34724689A billion people could disagree with me and they could still be wrong. It's called an argumentum ad populum fallacy. You didn't deserve that.
Lol is that why you cling so desperately to that faith of yours? Because you just feel rrrrrreeeeeally badly for a bit and say a few words and poof redeeeeeemed forgiiiiiiven now you never have to feel bad again and everyone has to stock around and love you the same and nothing or noone is ever permanently affected!
Maybe I'll convert just to fucking destroy your heart and mind and then say hehe oh I feel so bad about it I'm gonna say how I'm so sorry (to God, not the person you hurt tho lol) and then I get to feel better and DEMANNNND they forgive me because OH GOD DID
>>34724711You know nothing of my faith. For one. For two, can't you just accept that it's the way I feel?
If I'm a whore who deserved rape I guess that makes you a fool who deserves to get discarded/cheated on (your choice as to which was more hurtful!!)
But honestly I don't know lol I still think being raped is worse but guess ya had to be there :)>>34724722I don't know who the FUCK you are!
I'm infinitely retarded. The retardation does not stop. It refuses to stop. I simply was not made for this world. My imperfection annihilates me. I am punished for it, yet what can I do about it?
>>34724734Then ignore me.
YOU THOUGHT ME CRYING WAS ON OURPOSE???? LMAO???? IS EVERYTHIBG A CALCULATED CONTROLLED DISPLAY FOR YOU? ARE YOU AN ACTUAL PSYCHOPATH?
>>34724735Mood
https://youtu.be/AhOIu72lnv0?si=cdSTF6whqHHXdrvYDo they even cuuuure you? CUT ME OPEN DRUG MEOr is it just to humor us befooore we die? REPAIR ALL MY DEFECTS
SEE?? SEEEE???? THAT ANON SAYS I DIDN'T DESERVE IT A TOTAL STRANGER LOL BUT YOOUUUUU ...oh GOD whyy
Should've tried suicide by cop ahahahahahhaha get it???
>>34724757And he'd have to deal with every cop out...That means two things...Ignore that. Don't suicide.
Ha you can't rat me out either without chaining up yourselfShould I post photos of new cuts, of blood, goodbye letters?mm hahahaha Does that even actually scare you or are you playing that role while writing about how you wish j would lllol
Your friend group arent your friends if the genuinely believe you lost your virginity to a hooker. No one who was a virgin makes a hooker cum. Its better this way. Normies genuinely hate you if you are very attractive.
>>34724592I felt the same about the larp but I feel it's just building to cause harm with a further comment. Best to nip it in the bud.
>>34724597I'll buy you as many as you want if I love you.
>>34724761No no trust it was a hilarious joke and would be even funnier if I did he would get it lol ok but he asked if I MADE Him do it which gave me the IDEA to make HIM do it ya??
Mmmmm sexy doctor with glasses rape oh yes sir :3....GEMINI GANGRAPE
>>34724775I would like two for each of us on a queen or king sized bed and maybe one or two cute decorative ones for the couch but maybe I would make those myself so you can just buy the material thank you
>>34724620I could. Supporting her so she heals. Teaching and raising her. That is what being her man means
>>34724780Oh he was a Scorpio actually and not a doctor lol
>>34724788DAMN IF ONLY I WAS MARIA HUH GL ROMANCESCHIZO
Ok gang putting it to voteSleeping pills now to sleep, or save for the loooong sleep?? :^)))
I torture myself over people because I don't hate them, and don't want to wrong them, but fuck it's tiresome. I fear many don't have love in their hearts.
>>34724793I'm not answering this, I'm not gonna try to stop you, but I honestly don't want you to go out like that.
Of fuck its ANNN HEY ANN HOW YOU DOIN
>>34724796It was a trick question I've enough to do both lel thanks for participating fren
>>34724781I have a $10,500 tempurpedic active breeze queen size https://www.tempurpedic.com/shop-mattresses/tempur-active-breeze/v/4154/I'll get you a purple pillow, the same as me (the brand is purple). You can look it up on Amazon, it's actually pretty dope. Whatever you wish for the second one. Sure, whatever you want for material and supplies. I have a art, creation station with lighting I built that's made for that kind of thing. Also a smart sewing machine. I like learning new skills and I made my own luggage, working on a smart jacket.
Ive havent seen my ex's pretty 8/10 hitler aryan childs face in years
Getting fucked up, 'cause I fucked up...
>>34724802Wow I'm sold ahahahah
>>34724810This shit made me laugh so hard.
>>34724809Getting fucke duo too cause people fucked me up and I'm fucked up cheers!
>>34724816I'm not actually drunk or high though, but I thought of it when I was drinking.
>>34724820GayGo take a shot you fucking lpussy
THEEY FIIIIIND YOUUUTWOOO TIME YOUOOOSAY YOOOURE THEEE BEST THEYVE EEEEVER SEEEEEN
I usually like when you get naughty with attireRacin' through my mind 'cause your body kit is fire>>34724823Yo, you on the type of liquor that makes you talk wild shit? Like, damn.
>>34724833I'm on some sort of emotional damage crash out further encouraged by the dog shittiest of wine my brotha
WHEN SOMETHING SEEMS TO GOOD TO BE TRUE THEY USUALLY AAAAAREPROMISE YOU THE WORLDGIVE YOU A WORLD OF HURT LOL
Maybe its best to stop giving a fuck? Yeah these thoughts are annoying I know but obsessing over unimportant shit is not necessary, just agree with those OCD thoughts and they'll fuck off eventually, yeah it takes a while for those bad feelings to go away but dont give into compulsions, your brain has fucked up circuits and its misfiring, but trust me you will be okay.
>Take picture of the sexy redhead i was fucking since middle school>put it on social media>the stacy katie who said i was ugly gets mad
I'm gonna fuck the fucking clown I'm gonna marry the clown like that nigga married miku or that bitch with the Eiffel tower it's gonna be great and it'll be open bar>>34724848Fuck you my brain isn't fucked yours is
>>34724851What clown? You have a crush on Malice Minx?
>>34724856Sounds like a whore name hard pass he's obsessed with me and it's great
RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE FUUUUCCKCCKCKIng how dare you
>>34724859She's a great whore, though.
>>34724815 Does your heart feel like it's pounding when you think about her meeting Mike on cam and her melting at how hot he is? Her messaging him throughout the day hoping he asks her our? Playing vidja and finding that he's not just attractive but she genuinely enjoys spending time with him? How she starts touching herself when she hears his voice and feeling things she has never felt before? Slipping into daydreams of him and hoping he asks her to visit in person? Her actually crying in bed thinking about how lucky she is to have found him? Do you smile when you think of mike kissing her and holding her in his arms as she lays on his chest on a tropical beach? The heat from the sun warming her back as his hand reach down slipping under her bottoms gripping and massaging her cheeks? Soaking through being a daily occurrence that she just can't help doing whenever she is with him?Mike pushing her down on the bed as she trembles and moans face down ass up as he pushes inside her, her hands gripping the sheet, holding on for dear life as he fucks her better than anyone else ever could, her toes curling to each wave of euphoria her pussy clenching desperate for each pump of his cum to make her feel so full and loved.That made you laugh? You must be a cuck bro. You must be a cuck
https://youtu.be/41-yqhYIAAg?si=GttAeubOK4yvTTU_You might sleep, but you'll never dreamOOOONWARD! PROOOGRESS! Or so it seemsAnd you might laugh, but you'll never smileCOME ON IN AND WASTE AWAY A WHIIILE AAAAHHH
>>34724870Nah, "New Maria" was a hilarious bit, you're overthinking it.
>>34724805To be perfectly honest, Rose is a catch.
>>34724805You'll never see it in person against faggot>>34724870I just wanted more pillows not a vacation Consider writing fanfiction or something nigga
>>34724877Catch and a MIIIISSSSS AHAHAHAHA
>>34724877Who's Rose? God, I hope you're not talking about my friend.
>>34724894a WHOOOOORE tony she was a WHOOOORE
Why so ethnics always cum to the blondes? Must suck that they cant attract the hottest ones
>>34724791To be with Mike, Safe,secure,loved, supported, provided for, cared for, brains fucks out and constantly a wet mess. Imagine never having to worry about your living situation and being in a home, never worrying about rent or even working. Able to wake up every day and not having any need to have to ever think about a job or outside stresses. Being happy and fulfilled, the only thing needed is to be loving, communicative, caring, faithful,loyal, and pumping his cock inside you as you cum multiple times a day, sucking him off and practicing,perfecting your ability to take him down and massage him with your throat. Feeling like you are the luckiest girl in the world.
Don't wooorrrry baby bitches looove a widower
Oh my god you do look like me thats sexy nice babe
>>34724900ONG LMAOOOO DO THE MEN HERE HAVE A FUCKING SCRIPT OR SOMETHING I CANT BELIEVE I FUCKING FELL FOR THOS WHAT THE FUUUUCK
>>34724896The Rose I know doesn't seem like a whore. Is your Rose a great whore like Malice?
Rose didn't think she was a whore until two people said she was !!
>>34724908Are those two people in her head or real?It's funny because you can't answer this with any certainty.
>>34724912Unfortunately and terribly real she's afraid !
>>34724791Do you think you are more attractive than maria? That you could be more caring, loving, present, and putting out more than her? Do you think you could be faithful and loyal to him? Do you think he could love you more?
>>34724914And how would they know she's a whore? Did she sleep with 1000 dudes in front of them or something?
>>34724848Sometimes you are not happy where you are and those thoughts are just your desires fighting for you to live the life you are meant for.
>>34724916No probably not I'm pretty fucked and ruined in terms of romantic relationships and ability to trust and be vulnerable at this point lol but a girl can dreeeeeam>>34724919No 1000 dudes just the 3 I guess they knew Cause they fucked/raped her lol so wouldn't someone that close to you know you best mmm?
>>34724881Then go to the thrift store you broke bitch.
>>34724894The English Rose.
>>34724885Catching actually means that person didn't miss. You live in denial.
>>34724928Says the nigga who can't afford to buy a bitch a pillow
>>34724844Sometimes it's exactly as how it looks and you get all you've ever desired
>>34724927You'd be surprised how many sexual partners can be strangers regardless of how long you knew them. Them niggas don't know shit about you, they never knew the real you if they set out to hurt you in any way.>>34724930Never heard of her.>>34724937This shit made me laugh so hard.
>>34724930Tell her you wish she had died lol it'll be funny trust me
>>34724906Rose can be a whore to someone she loves and loves her as long as she is faithful to him.
>>34724945Kinky sex doesn't make you a whore, dummy.
>>34724927The point is that with this person you can trust him and are able to be vulnerable. That this is guaranteed to be something you are able to do with him because he is trustworthy and safe, able to support you in your vulnerability, strengthen those things and raise you to no longer have those vulnerabilities.
>>34724937Or from the one who can buy her all she asked for and more.
>>34724945Gross! No love is compatible with that word!>>34724951Yeah babe look that sounds divine and all but it's a fucking dream and just way beyond any possible reality lol
>>34724953No no I don't want material things I want the other shit you said
>>34724942Randytaylor69 YouTube. She's great
>>34724947Some girls like to call it different things.
These days, all I do is...>>34724956Oh, love this girl, she's like the girl of my dreams, man.
Oohhhhhgggg I'm a yearner all rightYearning for dis DEATH HHAAH
>>34724954It's not a dream. Just unfortunate it's something you haven't seen or experienced. But I can promise you it's real.
>>34724961The term whore is only for degradation purposes in the bedroom, if it was me, anyway. I don't care or give credence to what others say rather than what I believe.
>>34724966Damn anonymous promised so I guess I gotta keep looking as if it's not totally fucking over for me
>>34724955Good. I'll give her the material things regardless, but I desire for her not to demand them or need them, only that she needs me. All the rest is a given, so obviously you'd get all of that with me.
>>34724905Not a script when it's my truth. I take accountability for myself, not how others lie and act.
Nah 4chan moids all fall into the same few archetypes and this is just one of emPrince charming provider protector larpers fuck that they open you up and then gut you lmak
Serious ly what the ACTUAL fuck why do you sound EXACTLY alike what the fuCK
>>34724978I'm not none of that and I'm gonna die alone. What archetype is that? Robot?
There's two flies in my room again. It's like one of them wants to die.
>>34724967Good. Exactly what I said about accountability. I only want my love to be herself n
>>34724973Yeah 'anonymous' did say that. I can promise 'that person' meant it.
>>34724978I take accountability for myself. I recognize other guys are pos. Just how it is. >>34724980Because I wrote both posts. If you are referring to 'that person'
I never really was obsessed with ann's phenotype but she still likes me i guess
Nnaaaah I can't do this I can't eeennnddure FucuckYou probably that's think it's a disrespect or something God's please let someone break in and smash my head open with a really big and heavy rovk
>6 blondesWow okTy
I'm sure you'll sleep fucking GREAT :^) BCecause I'm doing so poorrly
>>34724990It was actually 7 you missed the dutch one
GET ME OUT OF THIS FUCKING DISGUSTING COUNTRYFUCK I HATE LIVING ON THIS FLOATING ISLAND PRISONFUCKKKKKKKKK GET ME OUT GET ME OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKK
>ifb
>>34723431Used to date her.
I do. I do believe that’s what love is. I forgive, they were scared, felt alone, in danger, and acted to survive, as they had learned to. That’s why they didn’t think about what would happen to me, or them for that matter. I understand, and forgive. The services I provide aren’t worth putting up with the person I am. I get it. I’m at peace with the lesson I was meant to learn a long time ago now.
I’ll stop posting now. I can see im not wanted. Take care, you aren’t meant to live just for yourself.
>>34725006Im glad you understand and believe the love I described by the traits I have and desire. >I forgive, they were scared, felt alone, in danger, and acted to survive, as they had learned to. That’s why they didn’t think about what would happen to me, or them for that matter. I understand, and forgiveOf course I would. >The services I provide aren’t worth putting up with the person I am. I get it. I can't relate to that. I know my worth. >I’m at peace with the lesson I was meant to learn a long time ago now.Learning a lesson isn't placent. It's an active process of growing as a person and doing better. Theres not peace from the things done wrong but there is understanding and forgiveness once grown.
https://voca.ro/1aUtsUTEOyjh>you get the message
>>34725000She be droppin clues
>>34725027Don't talk to me you fucking schizo.Watching you spiral from the mirror Mike match that you lost was disturbing enough
So tonight...I'm blowin' up your lineI got you on my mindAnd the truth is hard to fight...
>>34725034>Watching you spiral from the mirrorYes you are projecting. Interesting you recognize it but seem to be unable to stop. >match that you lost was disturbing enoughI never lose. You can say so and perhaps even cause harm, but the everything always happens in my favor because unlike you, I tell the truth. Your lies and deceptions build a foundation that crumbles under any scrutiny and the piece mail words you take from others are masking that your act, once seen through, demolishes any and all shared memories based on your falsehoods.
>>34725045Nigger, I need only look at the last thread, you spiralled massively. Filtered.
>>34725037I know
>>34725047You must of read coltons narcing out. He spiraled and then was crying when turned against.
>>34725049Nigga, shut up, that wasn't for you.
>>34725053I'll repeat for you babe. You must of read coltons narcing out. He spiraled and then was crying when turned against
>>34725055And yet I am the truth and always on her mind
>>34725058I don't care about none of that shit.
>>34725060Double negative.
>>34725063It means "I don't care about any of that shit."
>>34725065It's still AAVE, which is incorrect
>>34725067Then stop talking to me.
Having friends in your mid to late twenties is so lame just have a sexy gf or harem lol
>>34725065Double negative, so it means you care about all of it.
im going to die
>>34725075Whatever, bro. Quit being a low-tier Schizo.
>>34725079Not schitzo, you are projecting and pushing falsehoods because you know you are wrong and insecure af
>>34725083No, what you did, answering a post like it was from someone you know is Schizo af.
i will never be happy again
>>34725096Literally don't care about your 4chan experiences, dawg, I was just tryna get it off my chest. I am a guy. Not your gf or whatever the fuck she is to you.
So what the fuck are we doing here?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oSNj0_37xNI
U really need this to happen to me?
Piggy dun weit
Piggy dun squeal
>brother may I have some oats?
Dude, what the fuck are u doing?
Why isn’t an officer coming to my house tomorrow to tell me what is going on?
Godam i love not eating holy shit
Finally uploaded a picture of myself to LinkedIn, doesn't look too back, now I can finally pick at my face.
This board is fucking useless
U threw your credibility and legacy away for what? Because u don’t like me and only select people deserve justice?
What is it about me that doesn’t deserve justice? U filter me out line I’m a child predator or a serial killer.
I don’t deserve the same as everyone else because why? Fucking coward, u won’t answer.
https://youtu.be/VP6q9DAuY48?is=RB8XMk4KFdO8qywl
That that's love to you makes me feel sad for you.You don't understand shit.
>serial killerI can understand why people end up that way
GN mia i foud a photo of us lolANOTHER GEMINI
The closest I ever got to hinting towards anyone that I wanted to be my school’s shooter when I was young is when I told Cooper about 3 years ago that I sat in class thinking about bad shit every day. I kept it to myself that I used to listen to this song https://youtu.be/v_bOuRrupbA?is=T7pNwzjWFIShXzCs often before going to school. Grandma’s gun safe was always cracked open next door and if I wanted to I could have.
Fun fact, Rose has hit on Mike several times, as well as became cruel toward him when he talks about maria, or toward other girls who flirt with him
>>34725257>wanted toYeah that is contradictive isn’t it?
We can manage our emotions for a minuteBefore you start subbin' me on your IGHow is it I'm still the same but treated different?I'm still the nigga that you see on my ID
I have limits to what pain and abuse I can endure and forgive.You pushed past them. (Wayyyyy fucking past.) You want to be "allowed" to. I tried to love as you wanted and it made my body shake and panic and fall apart.The person you are, lol. You don't want to change, and the things you did and said to me, often, fucking destroyed me, so it'll just keep happening. So, sure, I guess neither of us want eachother. I don't want to be hurt anymore, you don't want someone who can't handle endless hurt.You don't fucking know what love is or how to protect it.But yeah, fuck off then lol, avoid accountability, avoid challenging and changing your thought and behavior, run away, like you always have.
Go have your fucking pity party then, woe is you, so terrible, oh no, you've been discarded again (because you hit the dog and want to keep doing it while still demanding it obeys and the dog flinches from your hand now!)And I'll fucking rot here with YOUR words ripping through my insides like razors.Not that you give a shit. That's love to you. My suffering and pain is fucking love to you. My agony. God. No wonder you started talking about fucking me and spilling sedd and shit. It gets you off. Me being broken and sobbing and alone gets you off. Fucking hell.
I do not endorsehttps://youtu.be/SfMTyQpRW_M?is=i0cX0fLryN1v9aOm
Allow me to transcribe that page I still have.>I want to hurt you kill you rape you>You deserve rape you deserve to die>Lying slut fuck you bitch I'll fucking kill you you lying bitch>DIE DIE DIEThat's love? Living with that as something acceptable is love?
https://on.soundcloud.com/K3a5ezmkyLrsVoQ1JK
You're the liar.Told people I shook them, was a danger to them. Didn't tell what you did, made ME the liar, the crazy one, the scapegoat to all. Selectively told your confidants only my reactions to your behavior, not your behavior. You're fucking cruel, and manipulative. You never fucking wanted ME me, you made that very clear. You don't protect, not my heart. Not from you.I hate how you made me, are STILL making me, feel. I hate what you've done to me. Things you've said to me, to my face, things you've written about me. I hate still sitting up at night in fucking tears stifling sobs so as to not wake them over those things. And trying to find the love in them when it's just fucking agony.
You appeared in my dreams again, this time having taken up boxing. I remember you getting those cheap training pads and we would have fun taking turns hitting those until someone in the house complained. You looked happy, I hope you're doing well in the real world.
I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate that I still love you and I hate you for it and for all the tears and blood and pain I now have to live with for untold number of months. I hate you.
>>34725150Can this be the thread theme?
i hate that i care for you even now it is like a curse where i am miserable when thinking about you, without and after interacting but i still want to talk to you
You discarded me first.
you thought i discarded you first but it was from your push to get results by any means or else. you were the one to ultimately throw me away.
We were just delusional...
I trusted you. Needed you.
You still don't believe that it's deeper than love.
>>34725299You are the liar and crazy one Colton. You are not a scape goat, you just can't take responsibility for all you did. Fucking cruel and manipulative? Project much? I shouldn't have to protect you, but makes sense you need it so badly because you are not a real man. I really don't care how you feel about me. Keep crying. I really do not care.>>34725303Colton, I just am really tired of you whining at me and chasing me around. That got old really fast. >>34725306Yeah and it a curse to have to listen to you make endless posts crying about me. I don't want to talk to you and I shouldn't have to make a post responding and telling you that to 3 of yours.
>>34725312Yes I did. >>34725314No, telling you I am not happy with you is not you discarding me. Asking for you to be honest is not pushing for a result. Just because you are unable to ever tell the truth and can only lie doesn't make that my fault Colton. >>34725315No, only you were colton. Don't make it my problem that you made me think you were someone you were not. >>34725317And I don't trust you or need you
>>34725325Dude, I'm the same guy from before, I was quoting a song I posted earlier, because I can relate.
>>34725320We never had love Colton. Only you lying to me and isolating me from who I care about and cares about me. Then running in circles around me to make me paranoid and chasing me with your comments and pushing me to agree with everything you say.
>>34725331I'm not Colton. I can promise you that.
>>34725329Oh sure DUDE, whatever you say Colton. We didn't talk earlier. This is just more of you and your inability to take responsibility for what you yell at me about. Same shit every day, night. I get no rest from it.
>>34725333I don't trust any of your promises Colton. You made enough of those and they all turned out to be lies. Saying you are someone else is just more of you doing the same thing lying to me to make me judge others and agree with you.
>>34725337I'm not him, seriously. This is my first time ever speaking to you, if you're the elusive Maria.>>34725342Yeah, again, not Colton.
>>34725339I never lied. This is just you once again not being able to take responsibility for what you did and saying it's my fault. You lied to me about who you are, Colton. I'll never miss you because you were always fake. >>34725343>>34725343>I'm not himYeah, that's what you say every time. Then you say it's someone else or start making more posts acting like someone else to make me believe you. I'm done with you.
>>34725349Yeah, girlie, I don't care about you or your relationship problems. I'm sorry this dude ran you ragged, but I'm not the person you're mistaking me for.
>part of me hates you
>>34725257More like seldomly throughout grade 9 and part of 10. Either way my shit was fucked up. Gun safe wasn’t really open until grade 12, maybe 11.
My threads are doing Iron Man numbers and I don't care anymore.
You don't, won't, ever apologize either. It's always about you forgiving me, as if I'm the only one who's done anything g that need apologizing for. You've always been very clear that I'm the problem.
>>34725353Know that I know it's you and I am judging you for it. I am not listening to you worm out of it and making me feel like I misunderstood. That's never the case. If always you and id think you were not such a idiot not to know I figured your shit out, no?>>34725354All of me hates you and DONT message my sister again.
Fuck you. Fuck you for making me cry and hurt every fucking day. Fuck you. Get free so I can fucking die finally.
>>34725365Look, woman, I'm not finna post a picture of myself on 4chan with sh0eonhead just to sate you. Believe what you want to believe, if it helps you sleep at night.
>>34725364You are the problem Colton and I'm not being tricked that it's my fault or that I misunderstood.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFQK5eF_puo
>>34725366You'd cry whether I tell you I'm done with your shit or if I said nothing because you are not a real man. So puff up your chest and then go start making posts in another threat crying or looking for another way to get me to believe you. >>34725367I know how to use grok too. Not the first time you've used that to make me believe you.
>I want to hurt you kill you rape you>You deserve rape you deserve to die>Oh I see I'm not wanted, you're discarding me
>>34725372I'ma do this nigga Colton a favor...MY THREADS ARE DOING IRON MAN NUMBERS AND I DON'T CARE ANYMORE...
>>34725325>>34725322im not colton
>>34725376Word, me neither, but I heard his threads are doing Iron Man numbers and he doesn't care anymore.
This nigga Colton is cerebral af. That shit is crazy.
I feel sad for you. Raised to believe that that cycle of abuse is love. That's why you always end up being left and feeling used.
>>34725374>>34725376You are never Colton when I catch you doing this shit. I'm not falling for it. >>34725373No girl is attracted to you so it makes sense you trying to normalize rape and abuse. Once figured it was easy to tell you I don't want you and removing you from my life is not discarding you, it's throwing you in the trash. And thats where you belong Colton, but you know that already,no?
I’m actually hog tied here
>>34725385This song is fueg af, eat this up for me:>>34723365
>>34725383No I was just tricked by coltons lies and trusted him when he made up evidence to support them. Abuse is not love and Ive always known that. I just didn't realize that's what was happening until recently. >That's why you always end up being left and feeling usedAnd there's you trying to flare my abandonment trauma like you always do. This time I'm shutting the door completely.
>>34725385Also, don't talk to her like that. I don't care how mad you are at Colton, do not minimize her trauma, quit being fucking retarded.
Cried myself to sleep every night over things you've said to me, how I felt with you, got good at being quiet enough most of the time so you wouldn't hear. Does that make you understand anything, or is that just another wrong I did...
Colton, You should know I'm talking to a certain someone and actually smiling again. It just so happens that because I am whenever you lie here I immediately know and you just make yourself look even more like a liar shitting yourself, even more so than before. I'm not even going to tell you night because it's more than you deserve. Just leave you hear on read.
>>34725397Like I said. Left on read while you claim you are all number of people to look for another in with me Colton. Fucking loser.
Yeah, you better duck that. That's the smartest decision you've made in all your years of living.
>>34725403I'll put you and Mike in two realities with a worse version of each of you, make you hate each other for thousands of years. Go ahead, keep on downplaying her trauma because you want to act blind.Does Colton talk like that? No, he doesn't. Now shut up.
I HATE YOU STOP FUCKING HURTING ME AND KEEPING MD UP FUCKING SOBBING I HATE STILL FEELING LIKE I NEED YOU TO FIX IT WHEN I KNOW YOULL JUST DRIVE THE KNIFE FUCKING DEEPER EHAT THR FUCK HOW THE FUCK COULD TOU WHY DO YOU FUCKING HATE ME WHY DOD YOU ABISE ME
!!!!!!
>>34725413I'ma just brush this off, because it's likely not for me.
THE PILLS ARENT FUCKCING WORKJNG FUCK OLESSE I DONT WANT TO BE HERE OLEASE
WHY COULDBT YOU JUST SEE THAT YOU WERE HURTING ME AND CHANGE WHY DID YOU HSVE TO GET MEANER AND SAY THOSE RHIBGS AND WRIE ETGOSW THINGS I ASKED FOR YOUR DUCMING HELP I OPENED MYSELF TO TOU OVER AND IVE RAND IVER AND IVER I WAS FUCKING DEOWNIGN AND YOU HATED ME FOR IT WHAG THE FUCKKK FUCKING TRAUMA BIND WHY ARE YOU FUCKING DOING THIS RO ME I HATE YOU YOURE FUCJING WITH MY HEAD AND MY HWART YOURE HUETING ME YOURE HURTING ME YOURE HURTING ME YOURE HURTING ME YOURE HURTING ME YOURE HURTING ME AND YOU DIBT FUCKING CARE TOURES DOING IT ON OURPOSE YOU WANT TO PUNISH AND KILL ME YOURE FUCKIBG HURRING ME
I didn't hasn't to be her d I wasn't to go please keep me die
LIAR LIWR KIQR LOAR LIAR LOAR LIAR LIAD LKAD LIAR LIAD LIAR NOT FUCKING LOVE LIAR
YOU LOVE HIETING AND USING NE ONLY YOU HURT ME TO FEEL GOOD AVOUR YOURSELF WHEN I FUCKI F STICK AROUND YOU DONT LOVE. YOU CANT YTHIS ISNR LOVE THIS IS FUCKIBG TOETURE AND AVUSE FUCK YOU LIAR LIAR HIRTING ME
>>34725433Who are you and who are you saying all this to?
YOURE THE FUCKIBG DEMO. YOURE THE FUCKIBG LIAR YOURE TYE FUCKING TORTURTER UOU ONLY FEEL GOOD AVOSHR YOURSELF YOU ONLY FEEL LOVED QHWN YOU FUCKING HIRT ME AND I STAY ANYWAUS
DDEEEEESSSEEEERRRRRRRVED ITOH BUT YOU OU DIWBT MEAAAABSN IT
JUST FUCKING TAKE HE ROS I CAN FUCKING DIE I CANT FUCKING DO THIS ANYMORE IM TIRED I WANT TO GO FUCK I CANT I FUCKING HATE YOU YOUVE FUCKING DESTROYWD ME WHY ARE YOU DOIBG THIS TO NE LET ME FUCKING DIE LIKE WW VOTH WANT
Why would the person you're saying this to have that ability, if it's not me? But you've made it clear you're not ever talking about me, so I'm confused?
WHY WONR TOUS SOTP FUCKING HIRTI G ME FUCKING ETOP PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I CANT FUCKING TALE JF ANYMORE PKEAS E
>>34725450I'm trying to help you.
Jannies?
>>34725453NOBODYS FUCKINF HWLPJNG ME JM ALONE IM ALONE IM ALWAYS FUCKING ALONE
>>34725453In fucking all one I can't do it anymore kplease make it erop
>>34725456I've always told you that I am here, but you ignore it for 'better' prospects. Because you hate me so much that you'd rather try to hurt me than be with me.
Great now my Ex will never see my reply:wilted_rose:
>>34725459Go fucking vomit it out.
Even though your thoughts are read that doesn’t mean they’re always understood.
>>34725516Not by everyone at least
I used blades to cut a bit for the first time today instead of the usual scissors and it kinda sucked ass. With the scissors you kinda have to go at it for a little bit before you can draw blood which makes it more satisfying. Blades are quick and boring?
>>34725592Are you from North West England by chance?You write like someone I know
if we can hope we can be hurt
godplease
i miss kissing
I can’t undo it. My choice was made long ago now. I hope it didn’t and doesn’t cause too much pain and that they are able to meet someone who just totally blows me out of the water as far as being right for them goes. I’ll stay away as to not even chance making things somehow even worse because I really can’t take it as it is. Still, I will always consider them a friend and I know even if it’s far in the future I would light up at their words. Us humans are strange. Maybe if we were all able to trust each other things would be different.
>>34725623i wish these were her words. i am in a dark place.
>>34725625I am not them but I hope you and everyone else here feels better. Seems it’s not been a good day for many of us. But tomorrow can always be a new day.
I'll take the silence as a yes on that self-harm post.
>>34725623How selfish, and all wrapped up in pretty "I'm doing it for you" wrapping as usual.You still owe me that fucking apology and I want it asap.
You're the only one who had any intent to ~move on~ after anyways lmao but yeah I remember well enough how you see me. Disloyal unstable quick to move on, abandoner, replacer. Ha. Right. How long did you wait, a few hours, was it?
Your tireless "self-sacrificing" words don't hide the character attacks and guilt tripping as well as you think.
I want to be with you. Not just this summer, but every summer.
I don’t know what I need to post to get the police to help.
>>34724267>barely drank in uni>never smoked>lost a bunch of weight recentlyI've yet to meet someone who can correctly guess my age now. Everyone always assumes I'm younger than I actually am, especially when I shave.
