I had big dreams, I wanted to become an academic, but I'm nearly 30 now and I haven't even graduated, my ADHD has fucked me over so many times that I reached my 7th year in college without graduating. I also failed in love, every woman that ever loved me I treated like garbage and they ended up getting away, now I'm all alone regretting all those choices I made in the past. If those aren't enough I also failed in all of the hobbies that I try, I have a bunch of books I never read, I bought a violin that I can barely even play, I don't even finish most games I even buy. I'm truly pathetic, a complete failure in every aspect and yet despite all that I still dream big, I still think I can amount to something, but deep down I know I'll always be human scum, and this hope that I still have hurts so fucking much. How can I accept myself as a failure and stop this pain? I don't wanna stop loving life, but it's getting really hard when all I do is dream impossible dreams.
>>34723989Well except for the ADHD, these things all sound like your fault and therefore things you can change. As for the ADHD, have you tried meds?
>>34723997I take the meds and they help, but this semester I fucked up even with the meds, maybe I'm growing tolerant to them. I also don't know until when I'll be able to keep taking them because they're really fucking expensive and once my family hears that I failed again and will have to stay another year in college they might cut my supply. Shit's really ogre right now.
>>34723989feeling like a burden on our families is probably the most insidious mental effect adhd has on ppl like us, the financial strain especially.
>>34724018You've stated it perfectly, man. I feel so bad for being a burden, if only my failures only affected me I wouldn't even be creating this thread, but feeling like a parasite sucking off people that love me is really tiresome, being a disappointment to them is also extremely distressing. I literally feel ashamed of going to college nowadays and having to interact with people that started at the same year as me that are already doing their PhDs.
>>34724018better fail out of college and stay in your bed all day, then! that will surely help unburden your family more then continuing to try even at a low efficacy rate
>>34724018Totally. I cope with telling myself that it's my parents fault anyway. It is on some level. They're not well mentally either.
>>34723989>I reached my 7th year in college without graduatingkek, same thing happened to me. also just got diagnosed with ADHD half a year ago. the crazy part is that my family and friends just sort of let me keep digging myself into this hole without questioning it or noticing something is deeply wrong with me in terms of self-organization.I ultimately pushed through and got my degree, and the process helped me become more organized, though still within the limits of what being a scatterbrained retard permits. I'd recommend you start by cleaning your room, having dedicated devices for work that don't allow you to distract yourself, and try building routines. Focus less on getting shit done and more on the process.It's the best shot we got
>>34725590This is the real based brutal redpill. The idea of friends and social life from whatever autism programming dysfunctional brain gave birth to, is the main enemy. Just one more try at making friends "proper" and with tricks doesn't work. Nobody gets "call to adventure" like an anime irl.
>>34723989Lol same. I gonna kms soon.
>>34725619Calm down, things will get better.
