I was officially medically discharged from the army last week for mental health reasons. I don’t know what to do now, I don’t know how I’ll pay rent now or really do anything, especially since this is really the one job or organization I’ve been in that I didn’t actively loathe.I’m in university still but don’t know where I’ll live especially since I gotta leave my current residence by the start of September. I just have no drive to do anything however. I’ve spent months actively egging on myself to commit suicide, be it driving my car off the road or when I’m sitting at home where I feel the urge to hang myself or cut my stomach open and bleed out. My depression has gotten so bad I’m near catatonic a lot of the time, just don’t have the energy or will to get out of bed. I just spent the last four days in a weed binge, I don’t normally smoke that often and a part of me doesn’t even really like being high but a large part of me doesn’t care anymore.I don’t know if you anons would have advice as to where to go or what to do. I’m taking meds the doctor gave me and I go to therapy and have for a while now but I don’t feel anything improving and a part of me just feels too tired to go anywhere or do anything.
>>34726822Don't kill yourself because you have youth still it's something everyone wishes for but can never ever buy. Just relax get deep into FFXIV and become a freak for a little while take enormous amounts of Rick simpsons oil and veg out playing FFXIV for years nigga u can fuck e thots or whatever
>>34726865That is true. I’ve been no-lifing Project Zomboid since I got let go. Shit’s fun. At least I don’t want ti actively kill myself when I’m playing games
>>34726822Get your basics in order.Be depressed all you like once you get housing figured out. Start with family, then friends, to see if anyone's got a room they'll rent you. If no one does, try craigslist, the offerings will be sketchier but you can get some crazy good deals on cheap housing, you can often get rooms in major cities for a few hundred bucks.Make that your first and only goal, if the choice is>be depressedor>be depressed (and also you're a fucking sidewalk bum and it's fucking hot/cold/dark/scary outside)you wanna be depressed indoors.
>>34727137That’s true. Gotta get essentials in order. Shit will not be nice if I gotta live in my car when the snow rolls around. Thanks man
>>34726942zomboid is fun.well at least you're in uni, try to not fuck that up. also don't cut your stomach open and bleed out that is a fucking awful way to go and you will immediately fucking regret it. you need to ideally get into a normal sort of schedule/rhythm and stop fucking binge smoking weed- which unfortunately i do not have advice forstick to school and try your best to use that for your next career. 1000% talk to counselors at school- any sort of staff and professors. you have this resource right now, use it to the best of your ability. like military didn't work out, so you have this whole other civilian sector to work with now, university would really help depending on what you want to pivot into, but even without uni there are options. so don't go blowing your brains out yet.i'm not sure about housing but either you live in your car or maybe there's something the government does? sorry i can't help much but i do feel for you to a certain degree. obviously i'm not you, but in regards to the feelings we all have as humans, i do feel for you. i was really depressed at one point, i remember not showering for weeks and moldy paper cups in my shitty roach-infested apartment. i tried to drink myself to death in the bathroom.
>>34727148Thanks for the advice man. Yeah I’m still gonna stick with uni, I might even try to go for a master’s program since my stuff is actually nearing it’s end and then go find work somewhere. Something that is good is that since I was honourably discharged I should have less trouble if I wanted to go work for the government in the civil service or something of the sort. I’ll get in touch with some people there and explain what’s going on and hope I can get some help there. Thanks man and I hope you’re doing better yourself
>>34727195no problem. it's not the end of the world. honorably discharged is good too definitely. i ended up at the time quitting school, but i lived with a friend and took a couple of horrible neet years to get back to working and eventually schooling again. i'm in a much better position now, but it took a lot of perseverance on my personal part as well as support from a friend, classmates, professors, the rare old coworker and supervisor. you're going to need that grit but definitely reach out to people for advice, especially school people who might help you get on a good track. and nobody needs to know all the details of your shit probably and you don't want to rely too hard on others, but it can really be nice to have people you can ask for help in a professional manner like getting recommendations and whatnot later down the line, as well as advice for academic/job stuff now. and it doesn't cost anything to be respectful and friendly to people and show interest. i got one of my less shit jobs from a classmate recommending me, and that company actually wanted me back way after i had quit for a better job. and i started with zero experience. so you never know what could happen just being around other university ppl and being chill
>>34726822abuse the fact that jobs favourably hire veterans>depressed and not able to perform at a high level at the moment work security, it's deadend, but you can wait out the depression here, before moving onto real work
>>34726822Also pause your studies until you're able to return, if you're not the type who gets fired up by throwing yourself into something. It's a big waste of money if you can't perform
