I have no idea how to fix my life and lives around me other than leaving country (their dumb demonic chessboard game falls apart), getting married (to a normal person, but I'm not even straight so just formality), having a child (muh female duty) and joining military (to off people so everyone stops bullying me). I really hope all that spiritual stuff gets solved somehow idk about it. I really don't want to be some sacrifice and get tortured in life and then go on to get tortured in death some more, so some racists can steal everything from me and get a huge advantage, and then some group can make a new religion with a martyr to kill those racists.Because then eternal life is just eternal torture. But if I join military and kill people then yeah I may or may not die (I've survived countless times already) but I'll also have a decent chance at getting a promotion and just working a nonviolent role. How do I fix my life and others lives other than this? It feels like I've been set up.
>>34727000Why don't u stop living for the fake ass symbolic world that doesn't give a fuck about you. Nobody is going to pat you on the back for getting married having a kid you don't want and joining the military. Nobody gives a fuck you will not be rewarded. There is no god there is no hell. It's up to YOU to be the person you want to be. For example: i want to fuck bitches play raves and do drugs. That's what fulfills me. No one can take that away from me. Once u realize all this shit is fucking fake u can finally grow up and take responsibility for your life.
>>34727046>Nobody gives a fuck you will not be rewarded.I'll probably be rewarded by whoever is in charge of keeping earth existing, but if not then atleast the world will keep existing. Can demoniacs stop trying to end the world for ONE (1) decade? Or is that too much of a challenge? Death cults are so f'ing annoying... if they want to die so badly then don't make it everyone else's problem and just go commit suicide if you want to die so bad. >There is no god there is no hell.With how much people fight over it, it must be real. >that's what fulfills me. No one can take that away from me. Once u realize all this shit is fucking fakeAnd what would fulfill me would be killing all the people who ever hurt or used or sabotaged me and then going on to have a normal life, but apparently that's bad muh mercy muh forgiveness can't just kill everyone who hurts you, will just have to settle for killing none/just the worst offenders. >finally grow up and take responsibility for your life.Yeah that's literally what I'm trying to do by leaving country and doing all this stuff I don't want to do. And no "just do whatever you want" is not a valid life philosophy unless you want to exist in a tribal basic society and die at 40 from some infection.
>>34727046>Why don't u stop living for the fake ass symbolic world that doesn't give a fuck about you.Even if they don't I still have to give a f about it because I exist in it and don't want demoniacs and sh%tskins to pollute it or destroy it.
