I want to completely escape my life.I’m 19, and diagnosed with ASPD. At twelve my therapist told my mom in front of me, “The more I look at anon the more I see psychopathy.” Then in another session I guess I manipulated her or something and I spent ten minutes convincing her I wasn’t because I genuinely didn’t think I was.I’ve hurt a lot of people. My dad, my mom, my sister, my friends. Everyone loves me, but nobody likes me. I have a habit of meeting a bunch of girls online, chatting with all them at once and flirting and then for some godforsaken reason, I get bored. Then the cycle continues. I also sleep with a lot of men. However, I can’t feel love. I literally feel no attachment to anyone whatsoever. So, I’m constantly alone.I already have a solution. My stepfather disappeared when he was 17 and joined the French foreign legion for ten years, then reappeared after being a vagabond on his motorcycle for two. He also has ASPD.So, I want to join the Ukrainian Foreign Legion. Not because I’m political (I am a libertarian though), I simply want to escape my life and I don’t care whether or not I die. I picture myself doing ten years or something and not communicating with friends or family at all.I’ve been working out. For some fucking reason I suck at push ups, but can do an absurd amount of sit ups. In eighth grade, during class, I did 200 sit ups consecutively. I’m also pretty good at running and enjoy it. In fact, I love running.Is this a feasible option to escape my life? What other alternatives are there? I just want to disappear for several years. Enough time to get a break and a reset and feel okay with my life.To quote my favorite band Failure, “I’m on a mission to escape from what my life has been.”
>19Just invite a girl out and for the love of God do not get a credit card>t. 28 year old
>>34731101Yeah, but then I’m still here.
>>34731104Great so am IJust make some decent decisions instead of retarded onesLike for example, open a money market account and put a good chunk of your money on there to build through interest
>>34731111I actually like this one. Will do.
I wouldn't join the FFL unless you knew French or were good at learning languages. You will be expected to do everything in French to actually serve. I don't know what country you're from but if you're American there's generally very few of them allowed in. If you're in a western / developed country you'd almost always be better off in your native countries military unless you're just obsessed with France or want to live there. Americans are also very rare in the FFL and if you're American they're likely going to be baffled why you want to join them instead of the US military. I'd consider a different career. Like a skilled blue collar job like electrician, plumber, or even cop before I'd want to join the French foreign legion.
>>34731071>Is this a feasible option to escape my life?No, there are no options for that because it's the same as trying to escape yourself. Wherever you go, your giant goes with you. Your only path forward is making your life one that you actually want to live in.
>>34731071That therapist was stupid asfYou haven't hurt shit mate, wow so edgy and powerful no, all you did was sext some bitches online which is par for the course shit. You're gonna run away from your life because you're addicted to gay sex?Why the hell are you in therapy at 12, your mother probably was warped as fuck
