Well, this is my first time using 4chan because this is something I feel bad telling to anyone in my circle.During the first week of July this year, one of my acquaintances died after falling from the 15th floor of the building where she lived. I wasn't notified until two days later, and at first I didn't feel anything. The way I found out just made me think about my Christian confirmation.We had a friends in common, and I really liked her style. She had short hair with a blue streak in the middle, and the way she dressed made me feel comfortable around her. She seemed like the kind of person I could tell my secrets to or go to karaoke with.I really wanted to build a better connection with she, but there were three problems:1-I was 16, and she had just turned 18.2-The way I used to be was kind of weird and very different from her group's vibe. Both they and I felt like I just didn't fit in.3-I'm not an introvert, but I'm extremely shy when it comes to meeting new people.When I was told about her death, I was eating lunch. The person who told me was someone who never stopped annoying me. At first, I tried to hide how I felt by making jokes, like, "Poor... she was only about months away from playing GTA VI Haha." Looking back, that was stupid.Later I realized that she was the girl who had died,in the lunch i really forget shes name, I never say that she committed suicide because I don't know for sure, and my heart doesn't want to accept it. But when I think about everything I knew about her family and her quality of life, that possibility sadly makes sense.Once again, I just feel powerless,so many things passed in my head,I am a coward who never put the papers on the table in the moment.Today reading this i started to cry . This admiration I had for she makes me feel strange. It's like I don't have the right to be sad because I'm crying over what could have been, not over what actually wasI just need another pov,a opinion about how i need to feel
>>34736863Fuck five different women to get over her.
You're crying over someone you barely knew except they had some uwu goth outfit that made your heart go doki. Go talk to new bitches because you're missing out on even more "could have beens" by getting your panties into a twist over some dead bitch you barely even knewAnd please run your ESL English through AI or something to make it more legible
