>decide not to kill self>pain still exists>added on that I'm so cowardly I couldn't even take my own lifeSo...now what?
>>34765925So now get on with the job of living.
>>34765925What exactly is the problem? Either get busy living or get busy dying.
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>>34765925Hit the gym anon. I'm not even joking
>>34765925>added on that I'm so cowardly I couldn't even take my own lifeThis is irrational. Suicide is called the cowards way out because you choose to take your own life rather than live it out and deal with the consequences of your actions and the pain of living. All of my suicide ideation stemmed from the irrational idea that killing myself would be the solution to my loneliness and the mess I made out of my life. It isnt. It takes fucking balls to face the music and keep pushing even when it feels all is lost.>so now whatIt is all up to you. It took me a very long time to figure out what I find fulfilling in life. Pick up whatever hobbies or skills entice you and don't lose heart if you give up or if it isn't for you. I fucking love playing guitar and it is the only thing that keeps me sane. I dropped it 3 different times in the early stages before I stuck with it. I feel like many things in life are like that, you gotta bounce back instead of breaking. Live your life.
>>34765925You're not cowardly to not take your own life. Think about it, if you're resisting that there must be a reason. Why don't you think the suicidal thoughts are wrong and your desire to live is the correct one instead of the other way around?
>>34765925If you're not gonna get busy dying I guess you gotta get busy living
>>34765925Buy a shottyThat’s fill proof
>>34769607>>34765988Hivemind.
>>34769728Fagmind
>look in thread>no real advice>just platitudesThat's what they don't tell you. You call that number. You talk to that therapist. It doesn't matter. The thoughts don't go away. Not really. And in your mind you'll know the REAL selfish ones are those that told you not to jump. They've done their good deed and you were the unwilling target of a feel good story. The victim. It's like when people say >if you are unhappy when you're single you won't be happy when you find a gfWhen you really look at all the mounting problems that drive you to the edge do you think they'll disappear simply because you didn't take the plunge? Sorry OP. You got fooled
