I was raised by a crazy BPD cunt woman and a pussy father who let her do whatever she wanted. I am 23 and feel like husk of a person just going through the motions. Food masterbating video games manga are just ways to pass the time I don’t truely enjoy them. I blame my completely. I think her constant unpredictable meltdowns caused something to break in my brain leading to semi-permant dissociation. Is there any way to fix this or am I just fucked for life? I haven’t talked to my parents in three years. I thought I’d feel better when I got away but don’t.
>>34775342O K. We believe you. You had shitty parents. At what point do you take the responsibility of making the most of that and building your own life?
>>34775342you left the tutorial at 18-19 and had years to figure it out. you can't blame them on the past few years. ironically you might as well apologize to them, and just move on from the situation.no one emerges from their parents in a perfect situation and your addictions are fairly regular societal norms.you've got self work to do and it starts by blaming yourself instead of others.make a chart with 4 boxes: need to do/want to do, need to do/dont want to do, dont need to do/want to do, dont want to do/dont need to do. you can reorganize your life around those.find apps/programs to ban the addictive sites and undownload the games you dont want.ive already answered like 3 masturbation ones in the last hour but you gotta spend as little time in bed as possible. set up an alarm in the am away from bed so you have to get up and dont sleep with smartboy.you're disassociated because you're spending the majority of your time online. just retard max and spend more time outside whether its clubs, hobbies, staring at the sun, at the library (even if you bring your faptop and play games there).the sooner you stop blaming mommy and daddy the sooner you will start finding answers. you sound like you got some pent up rage you need to let out
>>34775342I (23M) have been struggling with similar issues. I'm an only child of two retarded parents who, despite their good intentions, were never suited to raise a kid anyway, which led to a lousy and predictable divorce. They were too angry, condescending, and overbearing, so I kind of started resorting to escapism as much as I could, too. And just like you, I started to look back and feel regret, shame, and self-hatred. But, like >>34775356 and >>34775364 said, overly blaming them is just another form of self-sabotage that wastes your time—time you should start using to get out of this hole of self-pity and learned helplessness. Find ways to gain autonomy and confidence, and become an active participant in your own life instead of a victim of your previous circumstances.
>>34775342>Anon feels lack >Need to justify it>Had bad parents must be it>Turns out lack is fundamental can't be filled>It's an engine, an unfillable hole is what? >An unfillable hole is a engine for unlimited motivation
>>34775342>sons of Arnold>one raised by two parents with hundreds of millions of dollars in privilege>the other raised by a single mother with a deadbeat dad and a modest income
>>34775342> Food masterbating video games manga are just ways to pass Then do something else? How are you feeding yourself if that's all you do
