I can't fully focus on anything and it feels like I'm just forcing myself to do things. Like reading new stuff, watching new things, or researching anything at all. It all feels so hard for me. I feel like a complete idiot. BPD and ADHD are basically controlling my life right now. What should I do?
>>34775660Sleep nigga. And stop caring about incredibly difficult stuff, or feelings of shame or so on. Put them on a bottle and throw them in the ocean. Only way I ever focus on shit is if they genuinely interest me.
>>34775672Thank you, I should do that.
>>34775660think of it like a song. you're at a constant high beats per minute song.choir classical ambient trance or any slow song would drive you insane, but you need to enter a slow song to enter consciousness and not play the queer europtra[ mixtape on repeat.sleep, take a step back from electronics. try to read, journal, stare at the sun, draw, people watch go for a walk. gay shit that feels like its trivializes your unconscious quest for running in circles.writing shit down helps me think through my retarded thought processes and diagnose/remember what's wrong. we're all creatures of habit so what you're doing isn't atypical, you just have bad habits like most of society.serenity prayer also helps, not for praying but just not trying to change shit you cant. most this shit doesnt matter, so you get to be the arbiter of what does. if you try to care for everything you'll be fucking useless.
>>34775660Instead of passively feeding, active talking to hoomans. Probably more at stake will force attention. Only passive read for answers when something couldn't be resolved
