I take hormones to jack off to my emasculation. I've decorated my room girly, I play girly characters in games, my pc theme is girly, I listen to girly music, I look up to my posters and I get turned on from thinking of being like them everyday. But I'm actually am a straight man (a masculine at that) and want to be normal and have a girlfriend and shit. I'm growing boobs from doing this hormone shit. Do I stop? I'm in my early 30s I've wasted my life because I'm avoidant so it's like I wanna stay pursuing this. I've considered laser and surgeries, I jack off to the idea sometimes. It's like if I become normal in my 30s how successful could I be? And how to define it? Fucking random women? Just getting one girlfriend in some beautiful poetic relationship that lasts for life? Why would a woman be superior to my lifelong sexual fetish that I indulge in almost all day? But I know it's rather lonely. Another fallacy is maybe the either or idea. I can do both theoretically. But I hate having to hide my boobs or probably growing them and I hate becoming infertile. Help me out give me some clarity pls. Also a part of me will get aroused from putting this out there, but I also want maybe some feedback.
>>34779949post a picture and we will let you know if you passalso please use the enter key in the future.
>>34779956I look like a man but exceedingly more faggy
>>34779964that's not a picture. just blot out your face.do you want advice?the obvious answer is stop taking hormones, but you're probably wanting more so. pictures please.
>>34779949Bruh do you want to be a 60 year old man with gross man boobs and no family? Fix your life. Go. Do it now. Hit the gym. Fix your hormone problems. Find a girlfriend. You've become so deranged by isolation and porn that you are filling the absence of women in your life by being your own girlfriend. It's not going to work.
>>34779949If you genuinely aren't sure what's the right step to take then you really a soulless goy cattle and there's nothing for you to do.Find another hobby, take an interest in something "noble" (history, maths, art of any kind like literature or classical music...) and you'll find that there are probably deep down that you have a strong enough bedrock of moral principles that it is just not worth it to throw your life away to jerk off. Also for the love of god live your room. As soon as you enter your room your brain goes into sissy mode. Change room one way or the other, and delete all your accounts, throw your posters and your clothes etc. Then see if you actually want to return to it.
>>34779997I ESL'd hard here gomen. Didn't reread myself
>>34779949you have AGP, anon. part of this comes from not integrating your anima, and not accepting your feminine qualities inherent within you as a man, and the other part of you is riddled with porn sickness. you are self harming.
>>34781657>>34779997>>34779985Alright thank you I will stop HRT (again) seems to be fucking up my sleep anyways for some reason
