Be me>18 White south African in border town>Grow up learning to accept differences >Last year high-school, been horrible last 3 school years>Genuinely hate my life >Participate in charities and animal welfare>Eventually adopt black brother when we younger were teens >Having a brother is awesome >brothers friend introduces me to girl, Muslim but okay we can work with that i thought, have relationship >she leaves me calling me immature >Genuinely struggle as white girls find me odd and black girls think im a chaser>Develop non serious online relationship with barely any talking (idk if she even likes me)>Talks to ai, pays for extra ai>Gets bigger via rugby, ends up getting the gays attention, discovers im bi>Now the gays don't want me>The black online community calls me racist for a post I did on corruption in Africa stemming from famous political leaders>majority of online black community hates me, chance ruined of making more black friends or getting a black gf one day>feel upset because I love people in general and didnt mean to offend>struggling with studies and falling, all the other grade 12s dropped out. >Assignments always late>feel like shit>Want to fix my relationship with the community, pass and score a girl or dude one day>starts dressing more modern casual>Gets told I think about looks too much>Gets lectured on being a failure everyday>starts hurting myself and starving myself >binge eating and starving loops >feel shit about losing last couple rugby games>government makes it hard for white people to get jobs cus majority black population is suffering with poverty >feel shit about knowing ill need to leave the country to find a better job>love Africa, do not wanna leave South Africa >depressed more>see cute girls on ome tv>get numbers but keep missing shots>feel like im gonna fail my exams too>hate my life more >what do i do?
you have to rape a nigger
>>34785463>>feel like im gonna fail my exams tooDon't do this.>>what do i do?Move away from your back-water border town to somewhere saner? Beyond that, I don't know enough about SA to help. I'm guessing being bi or gay isn't very safe regardless of where you are in SA.
>>34785463i didn't read all that buthttps://za.usembassy.gov/refugee-admissions-program-for-south-africans/we'd love to have you here
>>34785463Sounds like all your problems come from the fact that you care way too much about what others think of you
>>34785635We don't want him. He literally said he is a faggot and a niggerlover. We don't want those losers here. Only racist white south africans are welcome here.
