one self bump before I let it die

>>34811850
>met 6 months ago
>blowjob on 1st date
Stopped reading here. You're both degenerates, so I would say yes.

>>34813922
Better than my ex who sucked my dick on the 6th date then wouldn't actually fuck me for the entire relationship trying to use it as a carrot to get me to be betabux. I wish I could take every penny I wasted on those whores and give it to my slutty Asian kween. Not even joking.

>>34811850
Just come clean. You told her you don't support Trump but used to, which is apparently the truth.
As for the job, just pretend you lost it a week or two ago so its not obvious you lied. Trying to please your ex gf after shes your ex is really fucking dumb. Its a good litmus test for as to whether your current gf is suitable as a longer term partner, any woman who icks out over her man losing his job is just gold digger trash and should be swiftly discarded.

>>34811850
>>also she is not white and I am, and I want my kids to be white because I am pure white
don't fuck women you wouldn't risk having kids with retard

>>34811850
>is super liberal, goes to Trump protests
You two are fundamentally incompatible at a very deep level and you should be glad you see that now. Have fun if you feel like it but don’t advance any of this into more serious territory. You do NOT want to be in a live-in relationship with the equivalent of a demoralization agent being around all the time. Don’t try to change her. That’s not your place. Don’t change yourself because it won’t be true.
I’m the same way where I don’t support Trump at all (though I never voted for him), but that still doesn’t put me in “team blue” camp. Being “team blue” can be whatever if you’re both mild about the whole thing. She goes to fucking protests, dude. Seriously.

>>34811850
It's nice that you're getting good treatment but it sounds like she knows the deal here, which is as you described "a long fling," and you're the one coping about hurting her if you break up. The "what are we" talk is long overdue but you can still do it, if it's weighing on you that much.
Just remember though, that "badly hurting this girl" should never ever be a worry for you, unless you're talking about cheating on your Godfully married wife. I guarantee this woman would not put in nearly that much emotional consideration over dropping you, if the tables were turned. None of them do.

Finally
>>34813970
Fucking date some higher quality women who are actually attracted to you. I've never been in a relationship where we were officially "boyfriend and girlfriend" without banging involved. Yeah yeah premarital sex bad and degenerate yada yada, but the truth is if a girl is really attracted to you it should take God or a similar force for her to restrain herself from jumping your bones. No sex = no attraction

>>34814026
>You two are fundamentally incompatible at a very deep level and you should be glad you see that now. Have fun if you feel like it but don’t advance any of this into more serious territory. You do NOT want to be in a live-in relationship with the equivalent of a demoralization agent being around all the time. Don’t try to change her. That’s not your place. Don’t change yourself because it won’t be true.
Cope. If you're a strong man who commands a woman's attraction she's going to believe what you believe. The problem is that 90% of men lose frame in relationships and their women lose attraction to them, which is why they suddenly turn "libtarded" and try to trans the kids or some shit. Just don't be weak.

>>34814035
He’s not saying she suddenly turned libtarded. He’s saying she is so to begin with. He could try to command her into being different and probably could accomplish that with even slightly above average IQ if he has it, but is this girl worth that time?
Personally, I wouldn’t try if they’re already at protest-level. Genuinely too much work when other women exist.

>>34814015
>Trying to please your ex gf after shes your ex is really fucking dumb.
True and I wouldn't. In fact I texted my ex once solely because if she didn't reply I was going to firmly put her in the "never again" camp. If I ever get successful somehow and single, I will absolutely fuck my ex, however I will NEVER marry her.

>>34814029
>Fucking date some higher quality women who are actually attracted to you.
That's what I'm doing now. I will never waste my time on low-interest whoers again.

>but it sounds like she knows the deal here, which is as you described "a long fling,"
That's good. I guess I also feel bad because she is almost 30 and if she wants kids she should get serious about finding a husband and I am hoping she isn't expecting that from me.

Maybe I should have that talk with her.

>>34814026
I agree with you, but it seems like 95% of the women I've known have been liberal as hell. The only conservative women I know are online friends who are mostly married or in relationships.

>>34814048
Most women are liberal on the basis that “everyone should be nice to each other and learn how to share”. It’s going to be that way every time because that’s “team blue’s” [excellent] appeal to women.
The difference is how they externalize it. Do you think protesting actually works these days? Do you think protesting with all the flock cameras around is even a smart idea? Probably not. Me either. She probably understands those risks and thinks it’s worth it. Meaninglessly symbolic action which accompanies genuine risk is actually retarded.
There’s no problem with women being liberal, like you said it’s almost always true. You’re asking to what degree it is true and how deeply this stuff is buried in their psyche.

women were right about trump

i voted for him in 2016 but he turned out as bad as they all said

not saying hillary is any better but look at this mess

>>34813970
>Better than my ex who sucked my dick on the 6th date
Sodomy would be degenerate even within marriage. Counting the number of dates as a metric is just a joke.

>>34814065
I've tried to use Peter Thiel, the Flock cameras, etc.. as a common ground for us. Maybe Muslims and Indians with how rapey they are. I doubt I can "redpill" her. I don't care. I just want her to accept my views.

>>34814099
Yeah I don't like the shit he's done but I wasn't gonna turn away from him over that.
The Iran / Epstein shit and not giving a fuck about the economy, yeah that meant it was over.

>>34814176
>I don't care. I just want her to accept my views.
Yeah, therein lies the problem. You’re here trying to figure out how to simply be understood rather than force anything on her. Would she be as thoughtful in trying to accept you? Or would she try to change your mind? You do seem truly capable of being with somebody you don’t agree with about politics all the time and that’s great. Is she?

>>34811850
>also she is not white and I am, and I want my kids to be white
>she hates Trump and is super liberal
Okay so not only is she psychotic but if you ACCIDENTALLY impregnate her you're going to produce disgusting mongrel children you'll regret for the rest of your life?

Dude wtf are you doing. The liberalism is concerning but the race mixing is a complete deal breaker. That girl is never going to produce white children.

>>34814322
Genuine question to you and people who think similarly, I am not trolling and simply do not understand:
>why is having a white kid so very important in woke world?
>do you want your kid to get discriminated against and shat on within every power structure they ever have to navigate?
>if you child is male, they will bear the original sin of “privilege” everywhere they go outside of your zone of control
>every.where.
>wouldn't it be better, for the sake of continuing your genes, to have a mixed race child who is thusly accepted by society?
>if it’s a son, he has my Y chromosome anyway which is the important one
I guess I’d get it if there was some obvious plan to reenfranchise white people to their own society but there’s not. There’s just trump pushing everything non-woke into the ground by forcing war with iran. There’s no fucking plan for anything to get better. Why commit to that? Why commit your child to that! You know goddamn well what is going to happen even just next presidential election election here and if you’re being honest with yourself you can probably surmise what’s going to happen in the one after that too.
I’m not saying any of that shit is good. I’m just saying it inarguably exists.

>>34814336
Utterly delusional. You are totally, hopelessly utterly delusional. And pathetic.

The civilized world runs on White intelligence. The moment White intelligence is removed from the workforce and as an organizing principle, the entire system collapses.

If this is not readily and obviously apparent to you than you truly are a lost cause. You cannot discriminate basic reality.

>why is having a white kid so very important
Because they are my people, because they are the nicest and most wonderful people in the world, and because when we think "Man" and "Humanity", "Civilization", and "Hero", the striking image within our minds is that of a White Man.

>>34814354
>Because they are my people
That’s all you had to say, despite the fact that the rest of your post is based on delusional optimism.
You think anybody gives a fuck? They are dead serious in thinking that 3rd worlders can replace everything white people do. They’re not ever going to change their minds. And THEY are in power. Not only are they in power, the have consolidated power in places voting cannot touch for many decades. Again, you have presented nothing which indicates anything will get better. Just a delusional insistence that TPTB are going to make good decisions.
It’s not a bitch move to acknowledge your people are in a shit situation. It is gigacucked to delusionally deny it on the basis of “well I’m the best so obviously all the people who explicitly hate me and are in power won’t obstruct everything”

>>34814361
God you really are a golem aren't you lol.

Sorry I cannot explain such concepts like love, care, passion, responsibility, or hope to an individual which does not possess them.

As for the rest of your post, it seems to me that the major driving forces in your life are fear, pessimism, defeatism and very likely a mindless pursuit of material gain.

>>34814376
lol
Lmao, even. You’re genuinely ridiculous. Are you some kind of increase-white-population shill? If so, you guys should use that money to re-enfranchise white men to society.
You haven’t even acknowledged anti-white power structures as existing. Why? Because it deflates your delusional worldview.

>>34814386
>Are you some kind of increase-white-population shill?
As opposed to your race-mixing shilling?
>wouldn't it be better, for the sake of continuing your genes, to have a mixed race child who is thusly accepted by society?

>You haven’t even acknowledged anti-white power structures as existing. Why?
>The civilized world runs on White intelligence. The moment White intelligence is removed from the workforce and as an organizing principle, the entire system collapses.
I've answered all your questions, you just refuse to see.

As for you as an individual, you are *deeply* disturbed. To even CONTEMPLATE sacrificing your needs, desires, and the things you love to be "socially accepted" is the making of a Frankensteins Monster. I am a little disturbed that someone could consciously say that they would willingly, intentionally, going out of their way to race mix because the power apparatus "told me so". It expresses a truly servile soul that does not reach the minimum benchmark we call "human".

>>34814181
>You do seem truly capable of being with somebody you don’t agree with about politics all the time and that’s great. Is she?
No and she explicitly said not. Thus this is a short-term thing ultimately.

>>34814322
True but if I am never able to have kids anyway, does it matter? I'm in my 30s and still can't buy a property. That's part of why I gave up on wagecucking and decided to go back to college instead.

>>34814416
>I'm in my 30s and still can't buy a property.
Bro that's literally all of us lol. You're in a much better position with 100k in savings.
>True but if I am never able to have kids anyway, does it matter?
Honestly a peculiar way of framing the problem. Would you truly want children you aren't satisfied with? Is the purpose of your life to find fulfillment, true fulfillment, and to struggle and strive for those things, or are you here on this earth to just check things off a list?
>That's part of why I gave up on wagecucking and decided to go back to college instead.
That's very likely a bad call, colleges are 100% a scam and totally pointless at your age. At your age and experience you CAN break into any industry except engineering/medicine if you can just get your foot in the door and know the basics.

Tbh it sounds like you're not really motivated in any direction. You know you want white children, but you're dating a nonwhite girl. You have principles and beliefs, and your girlfriend believes the polar opposite. These aren't small problems broski, they're deal breakers. It sounds like youre kind of in a rut without any clear goal or ambition in mind. You should forget about your girlfriend, college, and whatever you've got going on in your life and spend some alone time with yourself. Find out what you REALLY want, what REALLY drives you and motivates you, and then go for it.

>my biggest feel is badly hurting this girl because she is sweet and she treats me SO MUCH BETTER than my exes ever did.
It sounds like you're on damage control, like you feel like you've got "a good thing going" and dont want to potentially ruin it, although you know deep in your heart that it's never going to workout, but you don't want to rock the boat.

I'll tell you right now, if she's in her 30's and she's not even thinking about long term plans like getting married or having children, this woman ain't any good for being a wife and mother.

>>34814443
>I'll tell you right now, if she's in her 30's and she's not even thinking about long term plans like getting married or having children, this woman ain't any good for being a wife and mother.
Most likely. But I also don't make enough money to have a family really.
>You should forget about your girlfriend, college, and whatever you've got going on in your life and spend some alone time with yourself. Find out what you REALLY want, what REALLY drives you and motivates you, and then go for it.
It's mostly dumb hobby shit I'm already doing.
I want to have kids because I have nothing else in life and I need to pass on the family name. Unless my brother does.

You seem pretty wishy washy on your answers, OP. I agree with some posters above telling you to really dig deep down on what you truly want and maybe undergo some ego death.

I once dated this girl for 2 months and when I found out she smoked weed, I instantly dropped her.
You are a racist chud too extreme right to support Trump and you have been dating a hardcore liberal asian chick for 6+ months that you are afraid to break up with because "she is nice" to you.
>>34814497
But also, the foundation in which you want to build a family is flawed already. Forget the money (which is a non-issue: there are single mother niggers getting by with 3+ kids), but wanting kids for MUH PURPOSE (expecting a child to fix your broken self-esteem) or MUH BLOODLINE (they could easily turn trans or go no contact, so what was the point then?) are spiritually utilitarian and non-life affirming.

What I'm getting at is that it feels you constructed some identity from /pol/ that you yourself deep down don't really believe in but feel like you need to keep up for some reason.

>>34814707
>What I'm getting at is that it feels you constructed some identity from /pol/ that you yourself deep down don't really believe in but feel like you need to keep up for some reason.
Yeah it came from reading A Game of Thrones 6 years ago of all things.

>>34811850
That doesn't seem like an actual relationship. Enjoy the sex. Enjoy the lack of emotional manipulation. When you're in a real monogamous relationship expect the woman to constantly be a cunt to you.

>>34814398
>You haven't even acknowledged anti-white power structures as existing. Why?
>HERE'S A COMPLETELY IRRELEVANT STATEMENT
Heh. Got 'em. You show him, brother.

>>34814955
>When you're in a real monogamous relationship expect the woman to constantly be a cunt to you.
Yeah man with that I don't think I'm ever going to go back to a "real monogamous relationship" like I've had in the past. What's my reward? Commitment? Women don't commit. Regular reliable sex? I get that from this. Children? I guess that's the only real reward. And in return I get constant shit tests and bitch treatment. No thanks.

Wow. Not one person suggested the obvious way out from all this so I will. Get a job.

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>>34811850
I can tell shes brushing from root to tip because her hairs all fucked up at the root from breakage, thats not normal frizz from curly hair.

>>34819169
Still I have to deal with the fact I lied to her about not having one for months. It will come up someday. And I'll have to answer for it. And she'll also find out someday that I went to 2 Trump rallies and said nigger and fsggot all the time.

>>34811850
Is that her?

>>34824385
No that's some pic an Indian scammer used to try to talk to me.

it’s 2026. How can anybody still support this israel loving cuck president?! you both are normies.
Why even bother with her if you want white kids?

>>34819169
How does getting a job get him out of a relationship he doesn’t fundamentally want
He already said he wants white’s kids and she’s not white.
It’s not salvageable, he’s being a retard lmao

>>34811850
you too hard on yourself king

just enjoy it while it lasts, if you wanna go reg say it if not take it as it goes.

a lil initiative goes a long way for a man, if she asian she probaby expects it more so than other girls

but I will say this:
being heavy into politics is stupid of anyone, and going to protests sounds stupid
you worrying about your political past sounds stupid also

Generally as a Libra and overall balanced and fair person:
you are too hard on yourself, take more initiative, dont worry about petty worries you have, women have much stronger emotional buildup than men think (they are volatile but not as fragile as you would assume, volatility and fragility is not same).
they are (if immature) quick to feel extremes within an hour, but also tomorrow they feel nothing.
They recover quickly. Its probably self defense system so they dont go insane.

We feel deeper but we switch up less also. So our emotions run deep.
Calm river run deep eh. That basically.

Anyhow, forget about your kids being white man, those times are gone.

>>34828152
>Anyhow, forget about your kids being white man, those times are gone.
How do I cope knowing my ancestors kept my bloodline pure white for over 450 years and I'm the one who ends it?

>>34811850
>I might be able to move past this, especially since I am unlikely to be able to support a family

By this do you mean, therefore you will not be having one?

>my biggest feel is badly hurting this girl because she is sweet and she treats me SO MUCH BETTER than my exes ever did.

Ok then never hurt her and always do what she tells you to do at all times even if it hurts yourself. Anyway what's actually gonna hurt her is you leading her on and wasting more of her time, so to reduce hurtedness, be fully honest as soon as you can. So they can decide on dropping your ass or staying, on their own accord and not yours.

>>34829100
Iunno, maybe by fucking your sister to keep the bloodline pure?

>>34832399
I don't have a sister.

>>34832382
>Anyway what's actually gonna hurt her is you leading her on and wasting more of her time
That's what I don't know. I don't know what she wants. I feel like I really need to tell her I don't have a job but maybe I should just get another job after I finish my degree and not tell her I was ever unemployed? But my family will bring it up at some point so idk wht to do. I can't hide it forever.

But it's been 8 months and I never met her parents or friends. She met a couple of my friends. I just like keeping things casual but passionate. She's sweet and it's going so nice and I feel like turning it into a long-term relationship will ruin it.

>>34811850
>Save your words if you're gonna type out what a piece of shit I am,
I wasnt going to say that lol. I was going to say your low IQ

>my biggest feel is badly hurting this girl because she is sweet
that makes me think you arent a POS, despite your actions
> and she treats me SO MUCH BETTER
maybe its still just selfishness

Anyways, most of what you said was noise.
A root problem is you dont know what you want. Figure that out then take actions


> I don't know if we're ever compatible. I make her cum every time we're together, she thinks I am so sweet and I am sweet to her, I always pay for our dates.
listen to yourself. Your mind is a vulgar mess. You dont know how to think.

>>34814019
sex isnt just for making children. Sometimes you fuck another mans future wife to lower his social status.

>>34832905
Yeah I brain damaged myself by sleeping 5 hours a night for 5 years while wagecucking. Now I have to put effort into writing coherently. And I often don't.

>don't know what I want
I want a white wife and kids, but I don't make enough for that, and now I lost the only white woman I thought was wife material. So now I just want to enjoy a nice time dating a girl and not having any expectations that drag down the mood.

>>34832925
This is a horrible story. Im sorry you have to exist in America.
Id say your problems with this women are solvable, your problems with the economy are more difficult.
I advise many people to flee the country. Most only listen after being damaged, and they usually say 'now its too late'.

>>34832946
How do I solve my problems with her? Today I told her how Islam is an incel religion, and about black Israelites, but if I ever admit I voted for Trump once, let alone the three times i did, she'll dump me. She talks all the time about cutting Trump voters out of her life.

>>34819694
What should she do, instead?
>>34811850
Leave her.

>>34811850
You have lied to her a lot. Worst thing you can do.

Come clean, it’s on her to forgive you at that point, and if she doesn’t? Well, you have only yourself to blame and you can do better next time.

>>34814106
There is absolutely nothing wrong with your wife using her mouth to get you ready for procreative and unitive sex

>>34829100
If anyone is to blame it's your parents. They threw you into this deracinated, mongrelized world and expected you to go your own way. If they or any of your other past ancestors really cared you'd be in a community where it's easy to find a traditional White wife.
That said it is pretty rich of you to complain about "muh white heritage" when you purposefully are fucking around with this Asian chick. Nothing is stopping you from converting to being a Mormon tomorrow and be well on your way to having 8 white kids.But you won't, because you're more satisfied sliding in and out of that yellow pussy you already have.

>>34834521
It's unhygenic and thus degrading. Anything else is pornbrained rationalization.

>>34834537
Its because white women are intolerable dude I even went to this one girls house who was messaging me every 5 minutes and when I put her arm around her she just stayed leaned away from me like she didn't want my touch. Wtf? Only white women do this.

>>34834504
Is it bad enough that I'd be better to just softly break up with her in a way that won't hurt her so we can keep good memories at least?

>>34811850
100k in savings is better than most people who have a job. I make six figures and don't even have half of that in my savings. I would just go get a job for the health insurance and never mention the trump stuff. If it ever comes up just tell the truth and say that you don't think that way anymore. Also, you both need to make it clear if you want an exclusive relationship or not. Communicate.

>>34836135
What do you think would happen if years later she finds out I was unemployed when we first met?

>>34837262

has she flat out told you she has something against you being unemployed? did you lie about having a job when you didn't?

>>34837262
First of all, how would she find out? Just get a new job and tell her you switched jobs because you didn't like the last one lol. If she finds out somehow just tell the truth and she likely would not care. You have money anyway. Insurance and a steady income is really the only thing you need at this point.

>>34837435
>did you lie about having a job when you didn't?
Yeah I pretended I still had my old job because my ex dumped me for not having a job.

>>34837438
>First of all, how would she find out?
I don't know. My brother and sister in law kind of want to meet her so we might double date at some point.

>>34811850
You're overthinking all of this. Just get a fucking job. You're trying to justify misleading her instead of fixing your problems. If you confess all this shit, she'll definitely get the ick, and it'll be less about the facts of the matter and more that you think this is some huge issue you need to confess rather than fixing.
Girl likes you.
You like her.
You have a healthy savings for your age.
All you need to do is get a fucking job so you stop overthinking this shit.

>>34839332
I've never had a girl dump me for not having a job. Only for running out of money to keep up with her while also not having a job.
That meme format where it's some super hot party girl smoking a cigarette captioned "The girl you pull when you're unemployed" is real.

>>34842818
alright. I'm planning to go back to college though and I'm gonna be there 4 days a week with classes spread out through the day so i can't get another job for at least 5 months. I'll be fine financially but should I tell her?

>>34842821
>I've never had a girl dump me for not having a job.
idk my last ex did and she got all distant when I said I wasn't planning to get another one but rather finish my degree instead. Even though I had 100k. She was fucking weird. But I think she was cheating on me too.