>>34830017
nahhh

Being 35 khv is pure depression. Not even one girl in the whole world.

I feel exploited at work and am very angry nobody i know will support me.

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I hate my mother so much i want to kill myself, she sides against me so much that I'm now permanently mentally scarred, i always expect everyone to betray me and stab me in the back brutally harming mostly physically but sometimes mentally also she always made me feel like im less of a man, i genuinely cry myself to sleep sometimes because i feel like I'm unloveable and I'll never be married, whenver i try to go out to try to make friends with acquaintances from college she always stops me and throws a fit and demeans me, i hate her and i hate myself and i hate that i even exist it's so fucking painful and she's never reasonable no matter how much i help and how nice and obedient i try to be she never compromises anything i ever help with has to be done "the way she wants at the time she wants how she wants" which is fucking retarded in some situations since she asks for the impossible, like asking me to fix something immediately without buying replacement parts or in the middle of the night when the shops are closed.

it's over.

>>34830247
Then leave. Tf are you still doing there if all you feel is negativity? What good could possibly come of continuing that cycle?

>>34830247
I have similar experience with my family, I want to move out and never see them again.

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I'm so tired of normalfags larping about being romantically inadequate. Nobody is actually trying to obsess over their growth in tandem with their lover except me and roasted out non virgin beckies and fags. Im trying to cope by focusing on my art but it's hard not to compare myself to people who make art for a living and have clout doing it. I'm doing it for the love of the game. I dunno. Hope you anons are having a good day

>>34830254
>>34830257
I'll get my degree soon and it pays well, or at least i think it does, should i really just go away and not look back? It never occurred to me that i can just do that, also i have 2 little twin sisters and i kindaof feel bad leaving them, am i being retarded? Like will they be fine and am i being overly anxious

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>>34830276
Realistically they'll see why you left and get creative and / or become her punching bag. It's a hard situation but overall not really your responsibility. If they are really young ask CPS what's possible but otherwise just keep in touch with them desu. My sister did that with me, kind of, even though she got the worst of it and I help her out every now and then. She got raped by an older cousin and beat by my father so eventually she ran away in silence. Her life is still shit but at least she makes opportunities to grow

There’s no shame in admitting you made the wrong decision.

>>34830349
What was the bad decision you made?

>>34830017
Im trying really hard not to get banned on tumblr bc thats where I read my smut on but holy shit its so funny to mess with the leftoids there

I hate being lonely. And all of you still make me wish I never have to see any person ever again. I have so many things I could do, I could love, I am tired of living for your sake.

Do people who use AI to right their comments and posts genuinely not understand that other people can recognize the AI writing style? Like these idiots think they are so clever.

>>34830357
The December 2018 Tumblr exodus ruined the internet.

Don't know how to navigate the following situation; There's someone I went to elementary school with, I recently reconnected with her and started exchanging messages when I followed her on Instagram. We're both 30, she's married with 4 kids.

However about a year ago, I was browsing a hookup reddit and her husband (I assume) posted nudes of her and I think they were looking for a third or something like that but I don't remember all the details. I did message her husband (anonymously) at the time and confirmed it actually was this chick, since it had been so many years. Is there anyway I can test the waters with her and see if she's in an open relationship or anything like that?

>>34830218
Same and very much. Just document things and in the mean time find another job.

>>34830082
Date a black girl then

I do wonder if fighting her own battles will make her crawl back, or if she'll double down and become a shell of a human again, making all my work and all my money wasted.

>>34830835
Your supposed to marry her if your spending 1000$ a month in her deadass bro

>>34830872
Why buy the cow?

>>34830017
Women will do shit like this then demand respect and for men to fight in wars with no reward
https://youtube.com/shorts/OwEDAFPhfAU?is=smrSArF_VVVW9SNm

>>34830891
Imagining you need respect when you will never fight in a war or for women in general.

>>34830877
Your the reason why women are on BC.

>>34830821
Why a black girl specifically?

wanna see how it would look if i were to pump my cum into your infested bpd womb?
they made a movie about it https://youtu.be/DVXEYksoE6c

I’m such a lame dorky bitch and that would be okay if I also wasn’t so god damn boring. I wouldn’t want to talk to me either

>>34830017
I jerked off to my dead girlfriend. I think about her from time to time and use a pillow to imitate sniffing her hair. I feel disgusted

>>34831023
Because I'm a black

>>34831148
geez howd she die

>>34831033
>implying you can get anything but a dead rat to practice on

>>34831195
Brain tumor she was too poor to treat. She was 19

>>34831231
geez absolutely terrible

sorry to hear that anon, hopefully you can get over her

>>34831286
I have dated in the past and would say i moved on but in reality i still think about her a lot. It's kinda hard to move on from someone you knew since you were 8 (she was a year older than me)

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I'm retarded, I'm autistic, I'm worried about my friendship dying. I'm worried about love fading out from the world.

>>34830891
If the founding fathers saw the future they'd have scrapped the constitution and gone back to England.

The reversion to hatred of one's own flesh.

im just so sad why cant i just have one person that i can nurture and love and will do the same for me and we just stay together forever

too many people say they want this but in reality they never really do, they just replace you after a while, all i want is to dedicate my life to this one person and we both put in so much effort into it forever but after a while people just get lazy and content and they will not be grateful for what they have anymore it makes me so sad

Why do people lead themselves on so much

>>34831825
Hope is a powerful drug. Even if plan a doesn’t work out, if you just keep moving eventually you’ll wind up somewhere better.

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
SOON
FOREVER

Wait you're not mad with me or sick of me are you

>>34831858
Who’s not mad at you or sick of you

>>34831844
Makes more sense than what everyone else has told me

>>34831858
You confuse the hell out of me and upset me sometimes, but I've never been mad at you.

i hate women so god damn much, except for my mother. my mother i only seriously dislike but i appreciate everything she's done for me. every other woman on earth is awful.

there is no emotion that will plunge you into the depths of depression and burnout more than perpetual anger.
remember to unclench your jaw and relax your shoulders from time to time, anon.

>>34830017
Hello asshole, let's let the campaign of terror begin then shall we?

I need my emotional support 4chan husband

>>34832086
Sksksk

>>34832086
Listen you dumbass why don't you check the post again?

>>34832121
He'll choke you out for calling me dumb, anon, watch yourself >:u

I suddenly knew you’d care again

I just want to dedicate my life to one person and obsess over them and love eachother why cant i have that

>>34832013
no grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

>>34832222
checked, you're unlovable. good luck

My brain is on fire. Is this what heartbreak by a woman feels like?

>>34830942
Imagin you're a dumb nikker who knows nothing about anything.

>>34831406
Well my objection is women can go out and lez out just about anyday or get naked with women for just about any reason, but if they are going to get naked for men its a series of hoops men have to jump through and even then if they want to say it wasn't consensual at the end she can and all of retard society will believe her.

They'll get angry at lewd comments, but if the day ends in y they're getting naked withother women for no reason.

I thought forcing you to reject me would give me peace of mind, but it didn’t. There are so many second thoughts and mixed feelings I have about the last 8 months that I can’t shake. Did I blow it? Did we both blow it? Was it all just bad timing?

>>34832445
And worst of all, why did you suddenly go so cold the last time we met? I wish we had the chance to just come clean to one another and say what we were thinking all along, but now I don’t think I’ll ever get that chance.

Oh well, I’ll be in touch in a few months. I just hope to hear from you sooner, but I never hear anything from you, even before our last exchange. I won’t get my hopes up.

>>34832019
You will get the dog shit beat out of you

Just let me post god damn it

>>34832351
What happened?

She's just my type. Taken.

>>34832660
Youll find another woman

>>34832674
It was a joke, dummy.

Once again, I need to accept the way you treated me was unacceptable - as a friend or as a love interest. I will find people who treat me right, and I need to move on from you.

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>>34832704

I would drive x2 what I did tonight just to eat tacos with you again and talk about our respective lives. You truly are a best friend to me. You always have my back. I will forever be thankful for you. I wish you luck with being a father someday.

You're cute and you should DM meeeeeee

I wish my boss didn't get fired for such a stupid reason. Things went a lot more smooth when he was in charge.

>>34832788
Who?

LET'S GET RETARDED IN HERE!

>>34833049
Girl who posts on this board.

>have a hard orgasm first one in a week
>Instantly want to cum again
Being a woman actually fucking sucks

>>34833317
But you can cum again unlike men.

thinking about her tiddies

My fears of abandonment are kicking again.

>>34832158
fuck off to cringecord faggot
>inb4 but I'm a gurl
post pic of tits on top of your screen with my comment highlight led by your mouse

I hate mornings

>>34831395
>>34830017
I've never found nietzsche to be smart/deep/profound or poetic. 'words don't do experience justice'. 'deaf people can't hear music, but the deaf people and the music are a metaphore that's what makes it profound!'. What do people get out of this pseud. extremely pretentious like his fucking moustache. How can you not see through this guy's shit. What am I missing. Nietzsche sounds like a fucking cockroach. What a hypocrite do you really need a paragraph to say that words don't fully describe stuff. how do you people read this slop and think wow
>>34831395
I'm sorry to hear that and I'm sorry to rant unrelatedly to the image

I went from totally content and happy to "oh turns out my future is ruined" in the span of a single day. I keep trying to distract myself but then my mind goes back to it and this wave of horror washes over me. How do you guys stop from ruminating? I guess normies talk to their friends but I'm an autistic misanthrope.

>>34833541
i think in terms of solutions or tell myself to/ask what the solution to this is

>>34830247
my mom is sort of the same way, like putting me down and always demanding I do things at the drop of the hat... and nothing is ever good enough.

I've sort of switched it up lately though. Since I contribute A LOT as it is, I've started to trust myself that I'm doing enough, and started to just ignore her unreasonable demands. What's she gonna do? I know she relies on me a lot. Notice how ppl only treat you like shit when they feel safe to do so.

i'm tired of living

Im struggling with seeing those with in friend group from university thrive with their loved ones after studies, getting jobs and finally living together, being generally supportive of each other and getting to the goal. The one I was doing all that effort for decided one day I was taking too long and left at the finish line, and previously was a struggle at every turn. I feel inadequate even though I have stable work, savings etc now - I feel I will never be good enough.

i should be good, my throat was shit for a temporary thing due to eating thick foods and then talking a lot

according to christian beliefs, which is considered more sinful:
- having sex before marriage or
- freezing one’s eggs (lol)

>>34833358
It's actually a lot of effort though. Imagine cumming and then instantly needing to again but you're spent everywhere else.

>>34833541
Ive mentally aged 20 years in the span of 5 from stress and anxiety over her
-m1

I feel like I just lived through a nightmare. People next door were loud and laughing for more than a whole hour, I have no idea what can possibly be that funny. I'm struggling to understand if there is any reason for me to keep living, and I just don't understand. Maybe it's a sign that I'm finished.

I genuinely hate snobs. They suck the air out of every room they're in. I just ghosted a friend because every time we go out he insists on eating at some boujee sit down place because he thinks fast food is trashy. I literally don't have money for that. At that point I'll just eat stuff I cooked at home. He kept getting pissed that I didn't use hand sanitizer after I touched anything or that I only applied deodorant once a day. He literally thought I was nasty for being normal.

Test

I just finished a big tidy. Feels so much better, god damn.

>>34833541
Did something happen to cause the shift, or is it just some "mood's gonna mood" shit?
The latter happens to me a bit, and I just try to observe it. Like, I might go from feeling healthy to having a headache in the span of a day too, but I know the headache's not my standard state of being and is gonna pass. So if I feel like shit for a bit, I guess I'll feel like shit for a bit, but it's not gonna be forever and it doesn't necessarily say anything about the things going on in my life.

Big daddy's pizza

Which rope size and type is good for hanging myself? I would like something comfortable but effective, or should I go with my belt?

>>34830017
Just a random I had that's eating me up way more than it should: I like the way my life is right now, but I also hate that if I got taken back to this very day 10 years ago, the only thing I'd have to do to have a completely different life would be joining a gym.
I'm so pissed at my past self for having everything else going for him, but squandering it by being a lazy, unathletic, undisciplined bitch.

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I stumbled upon a really depressing realization regarding my eating disorder in that... I don't remember what I look like. Which sounds absurd because I look at myself every day, even without a mirror I can't physically not see myself. But the distortions are almost nightmarish.

I wear the baggiest clothes I can find, long sleeves are a must even in the summer. I never look in the mirror. When stepping out of the shower, I close my eyes because I can't to see my "beautiful" body which i know by now is sick and in a state of decline. I don't look at my hands unless I have to because they look massive in comparison to my arms. Of course I know how I used to look but that was me years ago. Today? I can't even properly imagine it in my minds eye anymore. My body feels like a horrible mixture of horrendously fat and worryingly emaciated. I'm more like an amalgamation of shapes that awkwardly mesh into a single whole, a whole I can't visualize. This thing just... it steals everything. Everything. It even steals your face. I am literally in hell. I don't know what I did, but I am in hell.

>>34833540
You sound like a midwit and you made an unjustified amount of assumptions over a single image that I posted, not out of any perceived profundity (at all) but because it adequately describes a phenomenon I've perceived interacting with people and trying to meet them on a deaper level, which is utterly bastardized by your description "words don't do experience justice", which really misses the point entirely. I don't think you even perceived what was written.
Yamamoto Tsunetomo says something similar in the the Hakagure, about affection, the deapest form of which being that which isn't expressed, the meaning of which is lessenned when it is.
I'm sorry to here you consume feces and care too much about being a smug redditor to not struggle with the sharing of ideas and transferral of human experience.

>>34834089
You should go with none of the above. Tell us what's bothering you instead. Why the rush to end it?

>>34830017
How can I get banned for 4 months or so, I have a lot of things to do and this place kills my volition

>>34834260
I suppose you could request it, and report your own post.

>>34830017
Saved a Sumer related meme think of sending it to my girlfriend.
For a moment I forgot we broke up over a year ago.
>>34830082
The crime really is that you didn't even try.

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I had a breakthrough in therapy that changed my life. I will share it with all of you, maybe it will help and even save you time.

You can tell the voices in your head to shut up.

I don’t mean hurr durr schizo voices, I mean the nasty shit you say to yourselves all day everyday.

I might be your dads voice when he called you a loser, your bitching mom, that teacher or girl who said you couldn’t do it. Doesn’t matter.

You are verbally kicking your ass all the time, it’s unconscious and you aren’t aware of it. Until now.

Here is how you do it.
Step 1: start making yourself aware of the voices. When you are alone or working or whatever, set an alarm and when it goes off, ask “what was I just mindlessly thinking about? What was I saying to myself?” It might have been some mean shit.
Step 2: tell it to shut the fuck up, whatever it said, isn’t true.
You can scream it inside your head, or literally go someplace private, look yourself in the mirror and out loud say “whatever it was that just spoke
In my head, shut the fuck up!”

And it will. Every time.

Eventually the voices stop.

They aren’t voices, they were negative thoughts about yourself. You will feel so much better than you ever thought.

Good luck.

>>34834292
>you didn't even try
I just didnt know what to do or say, like a complete mental block. It doesnt matter anymore eitherway.

my 'bf' revealed after a year how he feels about me: im a loser, dumb and annoying. what do

>>34834396
Thanks anon will try. After how long did you notice improvement for yourself
Seems hard since I often don't even notice these thoughts, hard to be aware of them

>>34834487
Learning to catch the voices is step 1, it can be challenging at first, but you can do it, and it’ll get easier.

Try setting your phone to alarm once every hour for the next three days. When the alarm goes off, ask yourself “what was I just thinking about?”

Most of the time it goes off and you might be working on something, so that’s not it, but one of those alarms will go off and you will catch your thoughts.

I was able to do it the 1st day, I was just mindlessly playing a video game, thinking bad things about myself.

Takes about two weeks of really catching them and stopping them, that was when it all changed for me.

Just tell yourself “this is what I’m doing for the next few weeks, I’m working on consistently monitoring my thoughts, and choosing which ones to keep and which ones to stop”

>>34830017
I have to find some work for the winter.
I don't want to, but I'm running out of money.

>>34834084
Can come right here I'll be right here

FUCK THIS SHIT

>>34831148
It's okay to find a harmless outlet for those emotions anon. You're just crying with your penis.

>>34834163
Everything is wrong, my life is a nightmare and there is nobody who will help me

>>34834624
what's wrong?

>>34834706
>Everything is wrong
Can you expand on this? Relationships? Money? Work?
>My life is a nightmare
Do you feel like you have no control over something? What would an ideal or perfect life look like to you?
>There is nobody who will help me
Do you feel this way because you're too afraid to reach out to people in your life, or have others let you down so much that you don't want to try again? I'm sorry anon.

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>>34834717
Check out this picture of getting it off my chest—it's pussy weight. how can i write something under this pic

>>34834749
I was raised by physically and emotionally abusive parents, it caused antisocial behavior. I wasn't socialized well, just taught Christian extremism "turn the other cheek" went to school, nobody would be my friend I was very quiet and at. They saw me as a target, beat me up, bruised and bloody the teachers ignored it. Parents ignored it. "Ask them to stop" I developed debilitating anxiety, no skills, dropped out in high school because kids were threatening my life.. Parents didn't care. Never there for me.i reach out to family, government, can't figure out why I can't think or behave like regular people no matter how hard i try. Can't go in public for some reason, leaving the house is extremely difficult, stay home for 11 years without leaving, have mental emotional breakdown. Struggle every day to get better but nobody will help. Therapists just "how does this make you feel" "take these drugs" makes it worse. Parents die, no way to pay bills. Going to lose house and be homeless. Rather be dead. No way out of this other than death

>>34834777
I'm like 75% of the way through that story.

>>34834396
>>34834487
This technique does work. You basically challenge all those negative thoughts.

>I'm a fuck up at this!
Is that really true?

More often than not you'll find out that negative thought doesn't really have any factual basis. It's helping you to change the way you think about your problems and it does help you move on with life.

>>34833867
Make more money

>>34833703
God wants you to have lots of sex! and sex is a bonding experience. God paired up Eve with Adam pretty damn quick so I don't think people need to overthink dating for a long time to "find out if you're compatible" or some bullshit. Kick the can down the road mentality. Gets to sex quicker, everyone's happy. Why bother freezing eggs?

>>34834777
thats terrible, im sorry to hear that anon
its not to late to fix things. dont let yourself get homeless. take action now
you say nobody will help you, what do you need help with specifically?

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My brain is just fundamentally broken. When I am by myself it got endless ideas, conversation topics, cool shit to discuss and so on. But when I am with other people it can barely conjure up an "hello".
I hate myself

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I'm having a mid life crisis (or whatever you call it at 33)

>33
>NEETed for health problems growing up into early-mid 20s, didn't graduate until 30
>useless degree
>Job lined up, goes well until layoff a few months ago
>Interview to multiple final rounds, but not good enough for an offer
>Live with parents
>piss poor social skills
>no friends, gf ever, duh
>not eating well or getting enough exercise
>stressed, anxious, depressed, angry

Not happy seeing everyone else get ahead in life. Moreso when I know how much of the fuckups are on me. I've signed up for a life of poverty and low value in society. Offing myself has never seemed more attractive. Going to doctor for meds tomorrow.

>>34834834
I don't know. I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe it's just that nobody can help me, not that they won't. I've been to therapists and doctors. I don't think I can be helped now that I think about it

>>34834859
Securing your house or a place to live sounds like the first step here for you. What's going on with the house? Did your parents own it and you can sell it? Did you miss too many payments due to low income or no job or something and it's going to be foreclosed on? Also did your parents leave a will behind?

Fatliker dm me

>>34834859
you can be helped anon, pls dont think so low of yourself. you are worth helping yourself. dont let it come too far, take action. find the strength. you can do it

>>34834879
The house is paid off, just the utility bills and taxes can't be paid. I live with two siblings also in my situation. Could sell it but then what? Then have no place to go

>>34834149
Woah.... hits close to home. I'm at the 4 year mark in my ED where I don't even care about the physical aspect as much anymore. I'm just horrified to stop doing what I'm doing. I still see the version of myself I used to be and I hate it.

>>34834906
so you live with the three of you in the house? and nobody of you works?

if you sell the house you could rent something cheap and pay the rent with the money from the house
you dont want to get into debt bc you cant pay the bills, eventually you have no other choice than sell the house if there wont come a solution for paying the bills

My grandmother's funeral is coming up and I've already said I'll go. I don't like this side of my family. I've hardly spoken to any of them in the past 10 years and I have no regrets about that. A lot of them are nice enough, but I feel better staying far away. The cousin who molested me is going to be there too. I hate him. I wish I never had to see him again. It makes me feel sick. I went to his fucking wedding and it felt like a nightmare. I wish I had the balls to tell them I'm not going and I'm never going. FUCK

>>34834426
>It doesn't matter anymore eitherway
It matters a lot.
Try and get with a 25 year old or something, whether you have the wealth or not, relationships are usually just a matter of trial and error, a social game that you need to learn the rules of the game of.

>>34834906
Are there any other assets you have that you can sell at this time to help get the money you need? Cars for example? How about reaching out to extended family for the money and offering to pay them back when you can?

>>34834814
>POV: you're a bitch doing a staring contest nobody asked for with your crush
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__Q6zM5euJw

>muh bonding experience

i feel so fucking alone
im so fucking hurt
people bring nothing good to you in life, eventually you just end up more wounded than before

I should have stayed alone. Now I have these attachments to people that mean I'm also attached to and have to endure people and situations that cause me excessive stress, anxiety, misery, anger, insecurity. Being anything but entirely removed from the human race brings an unbearable, untenable, amount of disrespect and mental damage.

Grow up and take some testosterone

I'm a 30 year old guy and a virgin. At this point I just wanna get fucked by anyone. Have some 50 year old milf have her way with me or a transgirl (who passes) dick me down all day long.

>>34835142
just go on grindr if you want to get dicked down lol

>>34835160
I only get men and I'm not a faggot

>>34834915
I worked out the math, and it wouldn't be enough to sustain us for the rest of our lives unfortunately.
>>34834962
No there's nothing else, and nobody will help.

Exiting truly is the only good path forward. Looking at it from a logical, mathematical perspective. I don't really want to, but it is what it is. I just want it to be effective and not too uncomfortable

It can't be that hard to get a one night stand
I mean, I'm not short, I'm not fat, I look skinny, some days I even consider myself to look like a 7 out of 10 and a 6 most days. I would have to dress nice. I could easily pick up a chick if I went out.
Thats the issue I don't go out and I don't talk to women, I don't really know how, and I don't drink or smoke so bars are a no for me. Don't want my first time to be with someone who doesn't even know what the fuck is going on.
Idk, I'll figure something out. Want to lose my virginity this year, it's my last year of college. I can absolutely make that happen.

>>34835214
okay so you all three have mental illnesses unable to work? are you sure theres no option where the gov helps? are you us or eu
if you sell the house, you could rent a cheap place and invest the money, that will buy you some time to figure it out.

if you dont want to, then thats your choice. but i dont think you should give up. please. if you are not trying for yourself, then try for your siblings.

>>34835224
or save yourself till mariage and be a purecell

>>34835163
damn you dont even get trannies on dating apps? grim. at least i can rely on matching with them and i get maybe 1 girl match every month or so.

>>34835066
What happened?

>>34835225
I'm US. There are things like ABD (Washington State) but you have to be somewhat functional and social to jump through all the hoops to get support. I've tried, years ago I applied for SSI disability but they needed an in person interview, and I couldn't leave the house so they dropped my case without care. I mean, they don't really try to help me unless I'm functional enough to push through the anxiety and confusing system.

>>34835234
I have never seen a tranny in my city

>>34835224
>a 6 most days
a 6 is bottom 40% in my book

>>34835240
oof.. that really sucks, do you think you could try again? maybe one of your siblings can come with you, or another family member if you have one? do you never leave the house like, at all? not even for grocery shopping or something else?

i know it's even harder in the us but idk i just think it is worth trying. do your siblings never leave the house either?

>>34835267
Yes I can try again. But it's all I've been doing practically my whole life. I feel like maybe I'm cursed if such a thing exists. Seems that I don't communicate well or people don't understand what I need for something. Or I'm not really seen as a person out there I'm just seem like a number. I can try again I have a few years before a forced foreclosure would occur due to unpaid property taxes. Hey be by then I will know the best way to go out with as little pain as possible.

>>34835250
Really? And what's the name of your book?

>>34835298
in a lot of cases, the government and help programs see you as a number, but that doesnt mean it is not going to benefit you. it sucks, but you kind of have to fend for yourself out there, learnt it the hard way myself too. that doesnt mean you are a number to everyone, and there are people who genuinely want to help. if you struggle to communicate it would be good if you can ask someone that can help you.
yeah its not a good thing to not pay those things, eventually you end up in more trouble.
but what about your siblings though?
i think you can still find a way out, you just have to get over your anxiety and depression and have to push through it. i dont know all of the situation but if you could find cheap housing, then renting would be much more beneficial if you can invest a part of the money. but i would first focus on trying the government help again, it can really make a difference, just push through

>>34835332
My siblings are the same, they can't leave the house or socialize, physical problems also. We try to find online jobs like data entry but can't find anything we can do. Like DataAnnotation, it was really difficult for me. I couldn't answer all their questions even just for the intake.

>>34835174
Well he didn't make it for no damn reason. He coulda made it mundane

Why the heck is it so hard to socialize?
Why is not socializing easier than socializing?
It's fucked up isn't it.
There must be something in how I look that makes me repulsive.
But don't blame me then for preferring to have no friends and to not be in a relationship.

>>34835332
>there are people who genuinely want to help
Who the fuck would genuinely help each other in 2026? We're all distant. We're so dehumanized we forgot we are more than photos on a screen

>>34834040
I'm an immigrant in the middle of applying for permanent residency, but with no warning the govt changed the rules. Now I can't get it and I never will at my income level. I'm too old to change careers and there's no room for advancement in my current job. My skills aren't transferable to my home country so no hope of a good job there even if I wanted to go back.
I'm trapped. I can keep working until I'm 65, then they'll kick me out and I'll have to uproot my whole life to go back to America.
It's a unique kind of anxiety, knowing that something terrible is coming at an exact point in the future.

>>34835504
I won't repeat the message but only because your a low IQ person

>>34830017
No one will believe me, but who cares. I posted onto this imageboard. Keep in mind, I'm 19 and an incel but I've spent about an year never talking to anyone. I posted images of myself (not of my face because I'm not a retard). I got positive feedback from it and have been craving the attention every since.

>>34835555
with that attitude indeed, no one wants to help you.

>>34835356
oof yeah that makes it even harder then. so you don't think you could go for the interview for gov help with one of your siblings? even though its hard i think thats the low hanging fruit to opt for first. if you can find someone to help you through the process it would make it much easier

>>34834717
I'm lonely, broke, hungover, overwhelmed, and anxious.

>>34835659
I'm sorry to hear that. How come though?

the universe dislikes me personally

25M fucking a 36F from Ecuador I met at a music festival out there. She would fly out to visit me. I ended things with her cause I felt like she wanted the green card. Did I make the right call? She tried hiding her age from me for a while.

>>34835677
I know that feel

Cursed be the day I met them

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>compliment friend on accident, say she her voice sounds nice today (shed been sick for a few days)
>she turns the entire conversation into fishing for more and more compliments, sending voice clips
>made a 20 minute video for me to watch of her talking
>do NOT have time to watch all of her shit
>dont know why shes doing this
dude
how do I discourage this behavior without being a dick

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>>34835717
You can actually fuck someone without marrying.

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>>34830017
I like how my gym is not busy when I go at a different time at 2pm on a Saturday, and its a literal ghost town in the gym (anchorage) , then try again (same time) on an expectingly slow Sunday and its busy densely concentrated with people. what kind of passive aggressive behavior is this. Do I literally have to switch up every routine? like some sort of mental Olympics?

>>34835787
send her to >>>/soc/fsa

>>34835797
its legit so weird though I wish shed have a little self awareness
like wtf how am I supposed to react

>>34835832
just blow her off somewhat politely
>hey I don't know much about this, I was just happy you were recovering from being sick
>here is the link to >>>/soc/fsa
And you're done. Give those soc fags something to jerk off to, and her a place to direct her autism.

>>34835843
i said she sounded nice a few times and just stopped replying desu like what else does she want from me

>>34835850
want to fuck her? why else would you keep giving compliments

>>34835854
im a foid too and its just being polite
i didnt give anything new i literally just said, yeah you sound nice

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Some people just don't belong anywhere, I guess I'm one of them

I am carefully planning out how to become an archetypal hermit without upsetting my parents too much

>>34835858
I see. Well. Just move on. There is literally no problem. Anyway I'm glad you got it off your chest.

seriously i fucking hate women so much. i absolutely despise women my age. im going to have to pay for eggs and a birther to have tall chad children

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>>34835876
its not the first time its happened and wont be the last
just annoying idk why they are like this
vent over. . . .

>>34835888
fuck and i got trips too which means its true. i looked it up on grok and it can cost me $350k+ which means i really need LINK to moon

>>34835869
How would you define belonging?

Your dick was in my mouth and it didnt do it for you. So pathetic. Like I guess I'll just be cringe. In a way it's like I'm a dickless faggot/twink (who has a vagina) but you're a faggot/top

>>34835900
Being in company of people who have similar sensibilities to you that you are comfortable being around. On paper I'm not that unusual but I don't gel with anyone. Kind of hard to describe without verging into "I'm so unique and misunderstood" territory, but my circumstances speak for themselves. I can definitely act normal enough when needed though

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>>34835793
Yeah but she kept wanting to fuck without a condom shit was pissing me off. Would’ve gotten her pregnant eventually

>>34835928
What are the external signs that someone belongs? Their body language? Number of good friends? That there are no negative rumors about them?

>>34835928
Similar sensibilities aside... what other conditions with a person or group do you consider enabling for you to just be comfortable being around them?

>>34835947
I was being melodramatic, I don't really feel the need to "belong", I'd just like to meet someone that I can intuitively get along with on a genuine level. And "like to" doesn't mean "need to", but it would just be nice is all

I don't think im insecure about being a 30 year old virgin and stuff, but if some outsider or colleague asked me if I was, I'd absolutely lie. It's when I get home, my safe spot, where the debilitating meltdown kicks off. I don't care about sex, but other people "caring"/gossiping, playing their social game, forces my psyche into some subservience that wouldn't exist if people would stop being sheep or if i never had to see them again.

The inferiority of it makes me lose control - involuntary rumination on the moment. I'll audibly shout at myself to "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" but its incessant. This is obviously insecurity, dont get me wrong. But when I say outsider, its because I don't want to have friends. I don't want people prying. I want to just be left alone, where I feel free to be myself and happy - regardless of how sad it seems. Motherfuckers out here acting like LOVE or pounding cheeks is the goal for each and everyone of us. I don't feel ANY desire for companionship, partly because I live with my brother, who's much like me, suffers from the same problem im describing too. Im happy when we smoke cigarettes after work and have long chats to help each other through this shit, he seems happy too though I watch and listen carefully for signs he wants to move on - NOTHING! HE'S 35! Everything else is pointless. Women, kids, and all the superficial shit they try sell to us.
But the dumb cunts that think of it the only way to exist, make me so fucking uncomfortable dude.

If I had the characters I'd explain exactly what led to us being this way, but after writing this out, I suppose just telling people "yeah, im a virgin, so what?" is probably more feasible than I've ever imagined it being. My pride would never let me I guess.

>>34835968
therapy or prositute now

>>34835971
Damn was gonna give a whiny response, but this is sound advice I haven't read in a while. Thanks.

>>34835888
Whenever you have a sweeping statement to make like "I hate women", you should take a look in the mirror. People who hold dumb beliefs like this are never happy with themselves, so start inside, not out there. Thats your best chance of changing.

>>34835968
unpopular opinion but you should just tell people that with pride
a 30 year old virgin is *much* more respectable than a manwhore, but whatever, i guess society is out of touch with reality and pathetic lol
idk man fuck society, people fucking suck lol especially normies

You don't know what the fuck its like to always be the "mentally ill" one and now I'm taking on that fucking g moniker forever to everyone including people you're making me have some semblance of connection to, making me hand over my kid to (at least sometimes) you have no idea how much it fucking destroys you to be constantly viewed as fucked up and inferior and be constantly disrespected and looked down on and be STUCK tied to people like that because of "relation" you're asking g me to endure a lifetime of humiliation and belittlement for fucking g jOTHING

WHY DOES SHE KEEP LEAVING!

WHERE THE FUCK DOES SHE KEEP GOING!?

AND WHERE THE FUCK IS SHE GETTING ALL THIS MONEY FROM!??

IS SHE A HOOKER??

im pretty sure my neighbor is a hooker.
she always leaves her house and comes back. then leaves then comes back tjen leaves then comes back. every single day non stop. thinking of reporting her to police.

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>>34830017
My new job is boring, but better than expected. I don't have to do much, and there is no boss constantly watching what I do. I'd like to stay for a while, then find something better.

>>34835786
ghost em. duh. not hard to do

i know u motherfuckers are watching me. i know u live in that house behind me.
i can hear your voices talking and mocking me with songs.
ive bern knowing.
but im alwsys steps ahead
just when u think u got me.
i actually got u
u all got sonething coming soon
blood will be spillef

Fuck your stupid venomous two-faced family

fuck fuck fuck fuck FUUUUUUCK I want to gift her something last minute for her birthday but I don't want it to come off as rushed or creepy

Always just have to fucking endure some sort of strife to make a man happy or to at least avoid fights lmao
And you thought I never fucking sacrificed??? Fucking fuck off fuck in not even my fucking self, FOR YOU, AND WHAT YOU WANT, AND YOUR GOALS

I only cut to feel like I can take myself seriously. Which only makes me think I shouldn't be taking myself seriously in the first place because then why would I need to self harm? The only way to close this mental loop is to repress everything back again and go through life like nothing happened even though there's clearly something wrong.

>>34834152
Nietzsche is the patron saint of philosophy reddit
> which really misses the point entirely
what was the point
>our real experiences are not at all garrulous
words dont do experience justice
>they could not communicate themselves even if they wished to
the failure of words to convey
>omitted for brevity
etc
>speech... was only invented for mediocre things
words dont do experience justice

I love my rapist blonde doctor

You clearly expected me to make a move and I didn’t and that upset you. That’s why you ran off. Women get upset about that kind of thing and I didn’t realize it then. But given how you treated me between then and the previous time we met, is it really surprising to you that I wouldn’t try anything?

Ok I'm on every single thread aside from generals. Fina fucking lly, we fuckinf outta here

So I'm in a bit of a weird situation. There's someone I went to elementary school with, I recently reconnected with her and started exchanging messages when I followed her on Instagram. We're both 30, she's married with 4 kids.

However about a year ago, I was browsing a hookup reddit and her husband (I assume) posted nudes of her and I think they were looking for a third or something like that but I don't remember all the details. I did message her husband (anonymously) at the time and confirmed it actually was this chick, since it had been so many years. Is there anyway I can test the waters with her and see if she's in an open relationship or anything like that?

>>34835581
Damn dude, that's crazy lmao, I'd be shitting bricks too.
I guess one way to look at it is that you have until you're 65 to figure something out. The change is sudden, but that doesn't mean the solution has to be. And in that amount of time, who knows, the rules could shift again in your favour.
Any chance you could take online/night classes in your free time to retrain for a more lucrative field?

>>34835615
Being a virgin at 19 isn't that unusual these days. Most self described incels are perfectly normal looking, just with malignant self esteem issues.

>>34836440
Sneed

>>34836526
What happened?

Another "date" night at home playing games. Still not received a compliment and you shut down my giving you your precious "words of affirmation" by telling me it's okay not to talk sometimes. Sorry you think my sentiments are disingenuous. You also left me on the couch wtf

>>34836526
You should see that if someone is blocked, it's her action of unblocking,messaging that is next.

I just need to vent. Skip reading if you want, just be nice to me please if responding

So, I met somebody off the Roomies app, shes young mixed black girl, with first impressions being that she is very pretty and vocally kind in a sharp straight forward way cutting through any bullshit with her voice having a strength to it if that makes sense.

I was electing to room with her and she picked out a small 2 bedroom apartment we could afford and then shortly before signing the lease, literally about an hour before, she pulls me aside and tells me that she needed to be frank and share with me that her dad is having difficulties with finding a home that it probably would not happen but just in case she talked to the landlord and had him added to the lease.

Just a technical thing she wanted me to know so I don't feel misled when I see his signature line above mine because he has met with the landlord and already signed. She talked to me about how because it is a 2 bedroom that he would need his own space and would take the bigger bedroom and that we would share the smaller one. The reason I had to be with her is that it would be inappropriate if she roomed with her dad (we laughed over the concept), and it would be awkward if I roomed with him because there isn't room to put a second bed in either room.

I want to do what is best for her because I do care about her so I gave in to allowing the possibility of this happening, she has a nice queen size bed and with us both being relatively short (im 5ft6 and she is 5ft8.5),sharing the bed is not a big deal and obviously we would share it strictly as roommates, and I agreed that it really did feel good to make the best of having a place to call home with her as my roomie. Also given the circumstance of cost of living being so high, splitting the bill 3 ways instead of just 2 makes it alleviates my finances quite a bit so i didn't really mind in all honesty to this surprise she threw in top of we had agreed upon.

>>34836688
We moved in and initially I had the second bedroom, but 3 weeks in and asked to talk and informed me I needed to move what I had in that room into hers because it turns out her dad really does need that room now.
Frustrating but this is what I signed up for. The room I shared with her was a smaller room and because she had claimed it first it is decorated to things she is into. It's fine, just difficult with no space for my things I like, like posters and such. I decided not to push for any of my things because despite the visual differences in color and such the quality of things like the blankets on her queen size bed are a lot nicer than mine. To save space we both recognized we had a lot of 'duplicate' things we both use and could share with each other.

When her dad moved in, I initially had some feeling of not being safe related to stuff that is not his fault, and I had to work through that angst,anxiety, fears and give him the same kindness she gave me to see him as he actually is. Her dad largely keeps to himself, spending a lot of his time lifting and such. Something that initially made me uncomfortable is his size, it's not not worried about my safety or anything lol, but it too getting used to being around someone quite a bit more imposing than me.

She is gone for a week at a time visiting and staying at her mom's, as well as every other weekend. Despite her absence I still feel it's her room and I'm super respectful of her belongings recognizing the personal vulnerable trust she has in me, and how she returns it making me feel so comfortable and safe sharing such a small space together. We both felt that the moment we met we felt more for each other than we have ever felt for anyone else, we fell into place with each other and we are both grateful of each other, so lucky to spend time with such a close caring friend.

I don't have anything left to say.
Things are what they are, and I can't change them. I can't change me.

I won't get better. Things will just continue this slow, managed decline. I'm just dragging my feet to my grave.
The worst thing is I don't care anymore. I'm not scared of it, I'm not dreading it. I just watch it creep closer.

Maybe I'll get out one more time. Maybe I'll pull out of this latest tail-spin. It won't change anything. Not really. I'll just have less time to watch it close the distance.

17 years I've tried to fix this.
17 years I've failed.
I accept that it's inevitable. What else could I give you?

>>34836689
Living with her dad has also been kinda nice, i get along with his personality and He'll make dinner to share and ask me to watch movies at night with him even when she is gone. I've been enjoying his taste in movie picks. I think one of the reasons we get along as well is despite him being older and all that other stuff is that in the way he interacts with me, treats me, it's the same way he treats her.

Our living room is 'Comfy' and she and i had pooled out money to buy a couch that fits the space. We ended up with a small 2 seater, recognizing that any bigger really is not possible with the space we have.

So that leads to one of my frustrations i want to just air out is that when it's just me and her there is plenty of space, but when I'm alone with her dad, he takes up more than his side. Not his fault but there is no room for me to move without touching our sides. I've been so uncomfortable with this situation, but I am fortunate that whenever he sees I'm tensing up he is reassuring in a warm way, which does help a ton.

Then there is the third situation where she is here, as a third person sharing that space and with her to my left her body presses against mine pressing me into her dad in a way that feels there is more of him touching me than the couch is. I've been trying quite a bit of shuffling and squirming to find a position I am comfortable but there really only is that one I described. He understands the situation and explained to me that it's also important to give her the most space, so she is comfortable. Putting her first.

>>34836693
Another thing on my mind is that sometimes I get this feeling like I actually got bait-and-switched to room with her dad.
With every other weekend, even a week and a half the very month she is gone at her mom's.. I feel somewhat like I have been swindled or lied to. I thought of talking to her but I don't WANT to pressure her to stay here with me more, which I recognize is completely inappropriate to ask of my roomie. It is nice to have shared rent and when she is here, the arrangement feels better because I feel super comfortable with her and we spend a lot of time in our bedroom hanging out because we are so similar in so many ways, we recognize we are pretty frickin lucky we found each other.

Sorry if this was a lot. I just wanted to let some steam out, get the situation with her dad and her off my chest. Thank you.

>>34836691
It depends entirely on who you are talking to.

>>34836585
Yeah, it's so unfair. If they'd rolled the changes out gradually I could understand but having it happen suddenly like this is such fucking bullshit. If I knew it was coming then I could've started training in my 20s when I still had time. Oh well.
I'm taking IT lessons now, in my country there's an IT labor shortage and it's not likely to get better soon with the anti-immigration stuff. But it's what every middle-aged loser like me tries to do and I'm not getting my hopes up. At this point I'd take a job cleaning toilets with a toothbrush if it came with PR.

Anyway, thanks for hearing me out bro.

>>34836688
>>34836689
>>34836693
>>34836694
You're either diverting your Wattpad smutfic since they banned porn, or you're getting trafficked

>>34830017
what would you do if a brunch of normies harrassed you for 4 months because you used to like vidya

the past is gone the future isnt here. will there be a future? i dont know.

>>34836728
I don't know what you mean by the wattpad thing. I dont like porn. I'm also not being trafficked. I just needed to get my frustrations out. Thank you for hearing me.

>>34836773
Idk why but it feels like you get to choose any way you want

If I could choose between being given an ultra gigachad body or being the same but my body doesn't get negatively affected by alcohol aside from getting drunk, I'd choose the latter.

>>34836778
does it? i sort of believe in hard determinism. choices are but an illusion. even more so, most of the life altering events in my life sort of crashed upon me rather than me initiating them. so im curious about what the future brings, although i realize it also may bring a whole lot of nothing.

>>34836684
what?

>>34836133
Mind your fucking business and dont bug the police with your school snitch bullshit.

>>34836124
She's also probably running errands or getting food or seeing friends or going to the gym or going to a class or minding her fucking business like you should.

>>34834777
You're gonna have to come out of that hole buddy. Its not about meaning, or being successful any more, you look on life with what you think is a more "realistic", detail-oriented eye, and it's too much to handle, but there are basic things in life, like work and exercise, that you need to choose to do, even though they seem optional. Otherwise you rot away and there's only 1 solution to every single problem you face. Its a sad way to live - I know.

You posted, so you must have at least a shred of pride, first thing you have to do is pick a direction, and no matter what anyone else says, unless asked, you follow the path till you cant any more. You can't really plan without resources beyond saying "Fuck it, I'll do it!" and charge through like a bull. You're gonna fail a ton, you'll learn, you're gonna be anxious about looking and smelling weird until you fix that/conform to social norms. Just focus on the one goal of having some kind of a job in life, no matter how degrading, and a lot of other shit will fall into place if you let them.

Go buy a garden detailer and offer to fix people's yard for free or something. Film it, edit it, put it on youtube, build a business. People out there aren't like your bullies or your cunty parents.

>>34836124
>>34836133
Faggot bitch, get a life.

>>34835923
Maybe you just didn't turn him on and you are taking your frustrations out on him.

>>34835086
Shrink your nuts and stay dependent on drugs to compensate for lack of actual testosterone like a real man, ya fruitcake.

>>34836781
I love drinking and refuse to work out.

>>34836773
What happened

relapsed

gg

How do I heal from someone leaving even though I tried my best for both of us, I kept to the plan but there is no longer a path ahead, they found a new one I did not.

>>34830017
Im not attracted to my girlfriend at all, Ive always pictured myself being with another man, but gay men are shallow and would never date an ugly man like me.

>>34836906
There is only my m and my future together

>>34836909
I am m's path

>>34836909
Blue pil: The wound already existed (loneliness). The band aid you put on that was keeping it closed is gone, so go find another band aid. It's pretty simple.

Red pill: Become emotionally independent, accept the void inside as an intrinsic part of you and see everyone else as the problem. Stamp out your weaknesses. Be a better human being overall.

I know what to do

>>34836901
I love drinking too but it's beginning to catch up to me.

>>34836652
I’m still confused about something that happened weeks ago and trying to make sense of it.

>>34836901
>>34836950
I love drinking and I love working out, life is an eternal battle

>>34836922
Just leave your gf. There are non shallow gay men you just have to be extremely cautious.

>>34836694
Get the fuck out of there. You got scammed.

Been feeling a bit bad lately and cutting because I feel stupid about it and like I'm exaggerating. But when I talk to my friends about the stuff in my life (superficially) that's making me feel bad, they feel like it's not that bad, and maybe they are right, but it makes me want to cut more.

terminating myself in the hopes of being reincarnated in a more attractive body

>>34836993
Dont do it.

Terminating myself because she doesn’t want me

>>34836932
I am reminded people see me as lonely as a part of who I am, an acquantinces mother asked her if I was okay and the response was " that is normal, he is always like that ", my face carries this void visibly. I will do my best. That is what I always said when first going down the path it is just that it was nice for awhile to accompany these efforts made. Thinking about it lets tears go which confirms I am still too weak.

>>34834955
Anon, you seem to forget that Im 35. What was endearing or excused at younger age, seems like a massive red flag. I'd have to be a completely different person to try it.

Terminating myself because I will never live up to the standards and expectations of the world around me.

I don't know how it happens but God says you are coming home to me and things are different than how they look from the outside. -m

>>34837068
When he larps as me to manipulate you, it is only is in my favor. -m

I see you make compromises now that you never made for me when it mattered and would have made things so much easier. I feel you set me up to fail.

We still matter. Its not too late.
-m

When I was 13 I was kneeling on the balcony railing thinking of whether to jump or not, then I got cold feet, stepped down, turned around and my mum was there looking at me very quietly. I got scared and defensive, went "what?" as if there was nothing going on and she just shaked her head in disbelief/disappointment/exhaustion/shock and it was never discussed again.
And ever since I feel like not even killing myself would help or solve anything because ultimately no one gives a fuck about my feelings, not even myself. Fire emoji or whatever.

>>34837112
*shook her head, damn

I think I might be an ephebophile

My ex would tell me stories of her childhood and it would compell me to try and be there for her no matter what but all it really was for me to forgive egregious behaviours.

>>34837117
What is that

You said it's okay not to talk, true as that is - I wanted to say it's okay to talk too

You said its no bother to talk to you but when I sent my long term bottled up thoughts I got nothing but silence.

>>34837137
Liking older teens (15-19)

>>34837151
I did this and spilled my emotions to someone once and they didn't even acknowledge the points I made regarding how I feel and why.
You deserve better.

Since I was very little, younger than 4. I knew I wished to be a girl. But I didn't dare say a word. I don't hate the man I am, I feel great pity. I lived to be nothing in hopes to disappear. Because I knew I can never live the life I wanted. In the back of my mind I was always drowning terrified of any hand that reached to help me. I don't trust any of them to understand. I tried pretending to be many things, tried to be a lot of different men. But it's obvious to me, my soul never got to live a single day. I don't hate the man I am. I wish I knew how to make him happy. I wish I could do everything he needs. But I can't. I can't keep it going. I don't have the strength. Or the purpose. I feel like I'm crying nonstop even after tears stopped falling. To the people in my life, I am sorry. I am very sorry. For all the burdens and trouble I put you through. For the poison all of us drank together calling it hope. I am sorry. I can't say it enough times. I am sorry. Whoever read this, take care.

>>34837165
I feel because it wasn't acknowledged that I dont deserve better yet and must continue to be burdened by those thoughts, and led to more and more questions and recount on why things are the way they are..

>>34837165
Yeah this is my life- we're in therapy but he's very controlling about when/how to deliver emotional content. Trying to give him grace that this is not to overwhelm him.

The things unsaid overwhelm me though. Things said, even if not delivered/received appropriately still are valid :/

>>34837178
Thats great youre doing therapy for it. Patience will be the decuder , do not give ultimatums especially with ambiguos deadlines, that is what happened to me and it only served to stress, but do not become uncaring on progress either. Having someone go from being the one to be excited to share however little progress with to being cautious and anxious to even mention the topic without news of the end goal is an experience i would hope to never done to another human being.

>>34837188
It's the lack of enthusiasm, embracing the process, this is such an intimate/vulnerable time in our marriage.

Sad it's resorted to this sink or swim mentality

Wish more people would politely sage posts instead of needlessly using up the bump limit.

What the FUCK
Did they lie to me??? They said it was dropped. I don't understand. I'm going to throw up

>>34837306
Does that actually increase the bump limit? I thought that was strictly based on post count.

>>34837313
It doesn't increase the bump limit, it just avoids using it up. Put "sage" (no quotes) in the Options field to use it.

>>34837306
>>34837325
wtf are you talking about? The whole point of saging is to use up the bump limit, historically being used as a way to quickly tank a shit thread en masse.
If the bump limit is 300, that's 300 opportunities to bump. If 50 of the first 300 replies are saged, the thread will only have had 250 bumps before hitting the limit.

>>34837333
Thank you, anon has no idea what they're talking about. I was like wtf?

Test

>>34837419
Stop fucking spamming the thread

>>34837333
>>34837346
I learned that earlier, and I was about to post about it but I couldn't do the captcha since it was down for maintenance. So disregard this shit, I've been using sages wrong the whole time: >>34837325

In a situation where I'm about to be in a relationship with someone and I'm happy about it, but I'm also anxious. I've loved someone else for a long time and I've been too afraid to tell them because I don't want to lose her. She's spent a lot of her life questioning her romantic feelings and sexuality and I didn't want to force her progress. In the meantime someone else came along and while I would be happy with her, and I know she'd be loyal to me, I can't help but know that deep down I love someone else and it's causing me to feel endlessly guilty.

>>34837562
Who are you going to be in a relationship with? Are you moving for them? Initial?

>>34837605
Relationship is someone that's about an hour away, the person I can't get over is on the other side of the country.

>>34837609
I can't be with anyone local because I can't feel true love for them, I only feel that for my m
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>>34836471
too bad he thinks your extremely ugly, and doesn't bother to put much effort into your diagnosis. White is right, but yer not.

>>34836029
no, not sorry, women are retarded, have retarded beliefs, vote in retarded ways, date retarded men, have retarded babies, and live retarded lives. i hate women and always will.

>>34830017
Wayne do you know that you bought a Garret 250 metal detector from me? And you're hiding in Las Vegas?

Your passive aggressive bullshit will build up into us fighting, I can feel it. Push my buttons and I will break you.

>>34839532
I got 10 fingers and they be button pushin machinations!

>>34830082
I feel ya brother

>>34830082
Nah, I'm good and don't need your larp

I want my sex crazed wife back. She used to dirty text me at work and send me pics back when she was a house wife almost daily. We were teenager levels of horny all the time. Then she got a job and we had a kid and now I'm lucky if I get two or three dirty comments a week and no actual action. My libido hasn't changed, but her priorities are always elsewhere. I want to influence her into being my slut again. I would be willing to give her supplements to achieve this. Does that make me a bad person?

Those were my nudes, but they were old. I shouldn't have given my bf the greenlight to share them without being clear about where he should do it.

>>34841079
No reason to believe harmful words

I only spent like 30 minutes at the gym today and I'm already sore

Same boring old conversations I’ve had before. Same pie in the sky do nothing bullshit. No substance.

>>34840061
Pussy

>>34842168
Oh you mean the tongue punching button

Women have no concept of discipline: when a man gets a dog, he instinctively and intuitively understands that he has to train the dog or else the dog will misbehave if not grow up a completely wild animal; but when a woman gets a dog, she expects the dog to learn magically by itself how to behave, and if that doesn't work, then she either simply lets the dog turn wild and completely dominate her (the dog owns her rather than she the dog) or she lets other people deal with the savage dog as it is and turns it into other people's problem.
The greater problem is that they do the same thing with their own children: they do not teach their sons how to be men nor their daughters how to be proper women. They either let their sons grow into spineless arrested-development low-test submissives or criminal retards and their daughters into naive retarded sluts, or they let malicious third parties brainwash their sons into simps or homosexuals or trannies and their daughters into worthless whores, bringing ruin upon them and their future.

>Jennifers my real yellow
Ah shit
I hope we meet,
Who ever meets me irl and wants to be close to me is my yellow
Why is it always gemeni tf
I remember you

Jennifer SHOULD meet me cause YOU TECHNICALLY SAVED ME, from DIRE ILLNESS

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Damn thats hot

It is important to me that I am all your firsts and you are shaped to me. I've kept my promises to you. I would like our home now, each other. I love you.

>>34836932
Or actively change and be a friendly person and find someone else. It's what I did and it's better then feeling sorry for yourself and gooning to your crush or ex

>>34840604
>larp
If only I was larping

I maintain that I was cute and funny.

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This....this is...

i gave, i hoped, i forgave, and i loved. i didnt ruin anything. you did. i just made sure we would never make the same mistake ever again. i will love you forever, but i will never be yours again. please stay away please, please

>>34844424
Dam disney sex lol

>>34846302
We never dated

Most girls just wanna use me, but do you really love me?