>Went to college as a dumb fuck 18-year-old and blew it, thinking I didn't have to change my high schooler mindset (gifted kid) >Absolute failure>A.I. Boom happens and lose motivation for many things. >End of NEETing life away for a few years>Unemployed and never had a job >Fast-foward age 23 and realize I want to do more with my life>Don't want to do trades because I'm more the type to prefer using my mind> A.I. basically killed any hope of getting a decent CS degree; either that or some offshore jeet will get it for a few rupees. >Don't even know what degree would be worth pursuing>World's also going to shit.I genuinely don't know what to fucking do with my life. I'm unemployed; my room hasn't been cleaned in years. I just live day by day, helping my family whenever they need it(I might be a NEET, but I'm not gonna give them hell). I just want to go to college and get a good degree, man. I'm willing to put in any sort of work so I can get something, but all these shit degrees.Trades do not appeal to me. And I am absolutely not getting a nursing degree. I know I'm not willing to clean some emotionally overweight sow.I just don't know what ot do, guys. I had big aspirations in high school, and I just fucking blew it. I could be working somewhere, having a semi-decent life instead of being some trashy NEET rotting away waiting for death. I just want to go to college and succeed in life.
>>34837192Are you really sucidial or did you realize the world actually sucks, no one cares about you and everyone in your life is trying to make things as difficult as possible for you?
>>34837193Sometimes when stuff go really bad I do generally feel like ending it. It is partially the urge and wish that I could reset things in the past and do them over much better. But if the worst ever comes I do have a suicide note, and a spot of death planned.Is life really worth living if you can't even properly provide for your self? Or have a fulfilling existence? Any sort of minimum wage job sounds soul-crushing. Well maybe security might not be too bad but I'm getting ahead of myself. I'm just worn out from this trashy life where I can't get shit done. And my ambitions are probably impossible with how shitty the world is.
Still want college? Engineering.Most types of engineering are fun and not absolute physical torture in 100°F weather
>>34837235Yeah, but like? Is the pay good? Yeah, I know I shouldn't be chasing money. But money gives me headroom and allows me to enjoy other minor passions in life.
>>34837309nta, the pay's generally quite good (starting at 60k-100k depending on where you are in the US, with decent career progression), you won't make as much as a (successful) lawyer or doctor but it'll probably be less stressful. the real issue is that the job market's pretty tough and even people with engineering degrees are having trouble finding a job, but as long as you go to networking events, have a linkedin and go for a few internships you'll be fine.
>>34837192I'm 24 and suicidal, no help
>>34837192all jobs are effectively "service" jobs, all the matters is who you know and if people like you. work on getting a good baseline, dont be fat and look good etc. 23 is still pretty young, better than 33. having a job sucks and will not make you feel better, you'll just feel like an idiot
