> be me, autoimmune loser who’s had a huge fear of needles since she was a kid > autoimmune, so I need blood tests quite often and IVs for when I get infections > absolutely terrified everytime I get one, the sensation of the needle under my skin makes me feel dizzy and faint > decide one day to cope with it I should just think about something not scary > for some reason start thinking very graphically about sex when the nurse is inserting the needle > realise it feels kind of good > realise the pain feels like satisfying? Like it’s a sharp pressure that feels numb enough to feel good > yeah it just feels good > yeah I’m just turned on now> wonder if when they leave the iv in if id have any time to jerk off with it in just to know what it feels like Now this is every single time I get a needle inserted. I feel so awkward at medical appointments because i genuinely get horny anticipating that they might take blood or give me an injection or something because I’ve just started associating the fear with feeling like this. How the fuck can I reverse this?
Find a bf who’s into BDSM. You found your kink retard. You just need to find healthier ways of enjoying it.
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desu i get this. For me it has reached a point where i intentionally act up in the psych ward because the feeling of being restrained and having my arm injected is so fucking good. Technically the first time it happened it wasnt my initiative but i very quickly realized that i liked it the same goes for getting stitches, the sensation of a needle piercing my wounds brings me so much euphoria that my selfharm addiction has escalated significantly because of it and i'm beginning to think i might be slightly masochistic, it's getting really difficult to suppress my arousal when terrible things happen to me. unfortunately exploring these urges safely ruins the fun for me
>>34844048Just have your guy tie you up and beat you with a belt.
>>34844094first step: have a guy i got put under an involuntary guardianship because im mentally ill and im practically housebound with zero connection to the outside world
>>34844214I’m sorry to hear that
>>34844048Had a down the throat endoscopy where they had to hold me down and shove a camera down me while also administering drugs through an IV. I don’t remember most of it, but the part of it where I was awake was sooo good. I think medical settings in general just trigger something in me now, I’m scared what I’ll be like if I ever have to get actual surgery
