I'm about to get an apartment, I am on antipsychotics and I have schizophrenia. I was approved for ssi this year. How do I figure out why I want to kill myself so bad? Things are looking up in my life, I suppose. I am upset that I missed out on romance, friendships. I'm 22, and life just seems to be passing me by. What is the point man. I want to experience love and affection. A life without those things is not worth living to me.
>>34845100The thing that wants you to kill yourself, isn't you.
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You need to find peace being alone with just the simple things in life.
>>34845103I believe this>>34845296I want to do this. I want female friends. Being in the company of women is something I want, even without dating. I feel like as a person this is something I appreciate a lot.
>>34845100you could be one of the 30 or 40 year old neets here. covid broke most people your age for having a functional social life. that excuse doesn't work as well to the other patients at this asylum.how much effort have you put into finding other friends? how do you look out of 10?
>>34845353That's true and you are not alone. Most people want those things. However if you don't find peace being alone you could one day have all those things and then the next not have them again and be in the exact same spot you are in. If you put your focus on what is internal the one thing people can't take away from things get easier. It is the control over you.
>>34845362I would rate myself an 8. I don't know how to meet friends. I want to go to a bar or something. I am desperate to feel less alone in this world.>>34845374People say that relationships are external, and it's true. So is having money, a nice pc, video games, etc. My whole life I have rotted away on a computer. The computer has control over me. I am desperate for actual meaning and purpose.
>>34845407Try to go outside and exercise more often. Maybe go to a gym.
>>34845415I had a gym membership. People do not go to the gym to make friends.
>>34845431That's not the point. When you do plenty of activities alone you build a life that you can share with women. You got to find peace being alone first man. You don't want to be desperate. What I'm telling you is not wear a chasity belt. What I'm telling you as a buck in the wild you need to go in the wilderness to get your buck antlers ready and then try to win over the doe, as opposed to just showing up with horns.
>>34845407increase your social circles: friends of friends, coworkers, family friends, support groups, friend meetups, date meetups, church, clubs.there's tons of social events/clubs in most major cities: hiking, book, mushroom hunting, larp, sca, reenactment, yoga, dancing, spiritual, occult/witch, charity, etc...you just need to find what you're interested in and go down the bucket list. this is what people did in the past, present and future. obviously some will not be fun, but you should plan something each weekend and celebrate it like it's an actual weekend and not just another day.sites like meetup or faceberg groups host these events. all you need to do is show up and most these places are desperate for new blood since most people forgot how to open their front door.
>>34845100You are loved by God who has a unique plan for you.Before you do anything, talk to God and tell God everything that you're angry about. God will always listen and respond even if it's not obvious at first.
>>34845103>The thing that wants you to kill yourself, isn't you.Are you trying to trigger paranoid schizophrenia?
>>34845100Boohoo incel if you want those things go get em now's your chance
