I hate myself writing this but i need somewhere to vent.I have autism and ocd, i am in the process of getting CBT soon.I have fucked up thoughts about the internet,i have fucked up thoughts to view cp for no apparent reason. I was on dark web once, found and reported site, got it closed down and never went back to dark web again, I was driven demented by obsessive thoughts to search for no apparent reason.I was on the ordinary web too and came across it through compulsive internet searching, reported numerous sites and eventually gave up the compulsive searching because it was exhausting.I don’t find it arousing,i feel nothing, can’t explain this bizarre behaviour. I spoke to therapists who recommend me to put blockers on devices if i get a flare up.. I hate myself as it is. I know the difference between right and wrong, i am not deluded. I have told everything to psychiatrist who has put me on Prozac and refer me for cbt. I keep busy and active to try help me.
>>34847967Doc prescribed me prozac for anxiety. They are fucking quacks and don't know how to actually help.
>>34847967The earth is flat and stationary buddy. Everything will be alright, just relax and enjoy the ride.
>>34847967It's most likely a OCD thing bro I would get medicine for OCD u clearly aren't a pedo desire starts where lines are drawn and OCD mixed with neurosis like that is a recipe for just being in a constant state of strange hell
>>34847967doctors have no idea what they are doing. they're professional guessers.you need to spend more time offline. being terminally online is bad for your psyche.
>>34847967OCD is God's worst fucking mental illness, And trust me, You are not the person your mind tells you you are, That shit is definitely the worst thing to have, But trust me, The only solution is to sit through it and let it go through your head without giving it anything, Just let it reach to the highest point it could reach, In the end, It'll reach nothing, Don't ever give in to that reward of giving in to compulsive thoughts, You get rewarded but fall more deep into that abyss, It's better to not get rewarded and exit it slowly, than to live in the illusion of that reward and keep expanding it.You are a good person, And I believe you can get out of it
>>34847967Less screenshit more irlshit. Literally just turn your PC or phone off lil nigga
